wrote this song from the perspective of joel in eternal sunshine of the spotless mind :) new favorite movie

lyrics:

i'm watching everything go sideways
and i can't do a thing to make it stop
i won't remember this tomorrow
but i'll be sad when i wake up

i wish we were back in your apartment
i want you to sing me to sleep
i'll forget my wallet so i'll have to come back
and you won't forget me

thought it was only fair
but i swear i didn't think it through this far
you chose this first
so i didn't think it'd hit me quite this hard
i don't want to see this part

i'm watching everything go sideways
feels like someone's messing with my head
i'm not prepared to never know you again
i'm sorry, can we stop this instead?

thought it was only fair
but i swear i didn't think it through this far
you chose this first
so i didn't think it'd hit me quite this hard
i don't want to see this part

when this is over
i'll never know that
i ever missed you at all
i'll be a stranger and
you will be kissing somebody
that i don't know
i'll take the train to the beach
and i'll sit on the sand
and i'll never know
i had a life before this
i don't want this

thought it was only fair
but i swear i didn't think it through this far
you chose this first
so i didn't think it'd hit me quite this hard
i don't want to see this part

clementine (demo)

no surprises - lizzy mcalpine cover

I DO NOT OWN THIS ALL RIGHTS TO LIZZY MCALPINE

Emma- Lizzy McAlpine (tiny desk) (unreleased)

panic room - lizzy mcalpine (unreleased song)

extended audio based off the minute long demo lizzy posted

you’re no good at being sober - lizzy mcalpine

five seconds flat 

lizzy mcalpine - learning/unlearning

:)
shoutout to noah (@sun_leong_ on instagram) for those strings

just because

rlly proud of this one :)

lyrics:
i couldn't stand in a room with you
and not think about that night
i had to cross the street if we were
walking on the same side
it just hurt too much
too many reminders that i messed things up
but now
we're okay again

i had to block you on instagram
so i wouldn't feel impatient
i had to stop myself at least once a day
from thinking how her haircut makes us look the same and
it hurt a bunch
too many reminders that i messed things up
but now
we're okay again

i've been taking my time not tryna get high with all the wrong people
we've been growing apart but i guess that's what happens to some people
and i know we're not friends but i'll always be here if you need people
i'm just glad that we're okay again

we had a party at our place
and you showed up with your best friends
it wasn't weird it wasn't awkward
it was just like seeing an old friend
after 4 whole months
i don't remember ever seeing you so happy
i guess we knew it wasn't meant to be us

it's been 4 whole months
i don't remember ever being this happy
i guess we knew it wasn't meant to be us

i've been taking my time not tryna get high with all the wrong people
we've been growing apart but i guess that's what happens to some people
and i know we're not friends but i'll always be here if you need people
i'm just glad that we're okay again

okay again (voice memo)

lyrics:

it's been 30 days since i last saw you
30 days since we had nothing to fear
it's been too long now
i'm scared that i'm forgetting how you feel
30 days is way too real

it's been 4 weeks since i last saw you
4 weeks since we made plans to go north
it's been too long now
i'm scared that i'm forgetting you
i feel all out of sorts
4 weeks and i'm not yours

i've been reading books
i've started puzzles
i've been listening to all the greats
i've been trying new foods
i've been buying new shoes
but i can't seem to forget that it's been 30 days

it's been a month since i last saw you
no matter how you say it, it still means the same
it's been too long now
i think that i've forgotten how long it takes
for me to fall, i'm afraid
this time it wasn't long at all
and why it wasn't, i can't say
in fact it just took
30 days

30 days (voice memo)

a cover of springsteen's "i'm on fire" (inspired by the staves) with my gal, lizzy mcalpine. enjoy

i'm on fire (cover) - ella + lizzy

lyrics:

you got a slurpee for free
i caught you lookin at me
in the 7-11
under fluorescent lights

we walked in comfy silence
footsteps down familiar sidewalks
knowing that we were
here in our dreams last night

all my ghosts are with me
i know you feel them too
riding shotgun next to your free slurpee
they know all of my habits
but they don’t know about you
i hope that’s true

we made sangria and failed
i spilled mac n cheese on my pants
and thought about kissing you
underneath kitchen lights

all my ghosts are with me
i know you feel them too
oh they just stand there while we’re
taking shots of brandy
they know all of my habits
but they don’t know about you
i hope that’s true

i can see it now
the wedding of the year
i can see it now
he stands up there and wipes his tears
i can see it now
when all my ghosts disappear
i can see it crystal clear

you got a slurpee for free
i caught u lookin at me
in the 7-11
under fluorescent lights

and all my ghosts were with me
i know you felt them too
watching as i started to get dizzy
cause i hate all of my habits
but i happen to love you
i know that’s true