lyrics:

why do i keep coming back to this?
it's like a book I can't quite figure out
so I read it in pieces
sometimes it hurts
gotta set it down for a bit
but I always come back to this

why do I keep running into this?
every time I make a wrong turn
I end up on your doorstep
sometimes it hurts
gotta step away for a bit
but I always come back to this

I always come back to this

and maybe I'm stupid
for thinking the world might end
and maybe I'm stupid
for thinking you'd be with me when it did
and maybe you'd be better off
if you never saw me again
again

but god damn I keep coming back to this
I've tried to understand
but I can't make it make sense
maybe its time to just
kind of go with it

cause even if it's not now
I will end up here somehow
it's physics or it's fate and I can't stop it
I always come back to this
I always come back to this

physics or fate (voice memo)

no surprises - lizzy mcalpine cover

I DO NOT OWN THIS ALL RIGHTS TO LIZZY MCALPINE

Emma- Lizzy McAlpine (tiny desk) (unreleased)

five seconds flat 

lizzy mcalpine - learning/unlearning

Briston (full voice memo)

Lizzy McAlpine - Budapest

While the Devil is sleeping

rlly proud of this one :)

lyrics:
i couldn't stand in a room with you
and not think about that night
i had to cross the street if we were
walking on the same side
it just hurt too much
too many reminders that i messed things up
but now
we're okay again

i had to block you on instagram
so i wouldn't feel impatient
i had to stop myself at least once a day
from thinking how her haircut makes us look the same and
it hurt a bunch
too many reminders that i messed things up
but now
we're okay again

i've been taking my time not tryna get high with all the wrong people
we've been growing apart but i guess that's what happens to some people
and i know we're not friends but i'll always be here if you need people
i'm just glad that we're okay again

we had a party at our place
and you showed up with your best friends
it wasn't weird it wasn't awkward
it was just like seeing an old friend
after 4 whole months
i don't remember ever seeing you so happy
i guess we knew it wasn't meant to be us

it's been 4 whole months
i don't remember ever being this happy
i guess we knew it wasn't meant to be us

i've been taking my time not tryna get high with all the wrong people
we've been growing apart but i guess that's what happens to some people
and i know we're not friends but i'll always be here if you need people
i'm just glad that we're okay again

okay again (voice memo)

a cover of springsteen's "i'm on fire" (inspired by the staves) with my gal, lizzy mcalpine. enjoy

i'm on fire (cover) - ella + lizzy

lyrics:

it's ok to cry
every day if you have to
it's ok to sleep
peace from the war

it's alright to sing
let it bring joy to the sorrow
it's alright to cry
some more

i don't know your pain but i will fight
i won't let this go even if doing what's right 
isn't easy
i'm tired, believe me, but
so are you

i don't know your pain but i will stand
i won't let this go so take my hand
it's not easy
i'm tired, believe me, but
so are you

so are you

it's ok to cry
or to laugh if you need to
it's ok to sleep
peace from the war

so are you (demo)

lyrics:

my brain feels heavy
like too much tv
it's weighing on me like a pound of concrete
i know he wants me
and that makes me happy
so why do i feel so weird?

it's foggy in my head
like clouds in a storm
the winds picking up
i'm bolting my shit to the floor
but when i'm with him
my shit gets ignored
is that why i feel so weird?

i'm alone almost every night and
i don't know if i'm processing right
but my therapist says to just let light be light
so i'm letting him stay around
i think that he's good for me
this boy that i've found

i don't like
getting attached
it makes me feel like i've
done something bad
cause i'm not dependent
and i know that
so why am i scared i'm
reliving that part of my past?

cause i'm alone almost every night and
i don't know if i'm processing right
but my therapist says to just let light be light
so i'm letting him stay around
i think that he's good for me
this boy that i've found

i think that he's good for me
this boy that i've found

is this what it's supposed to feel like?

i'm alone almost every night and
i don't know if i'm processing right
but my therapist says to just let light be light
so i'm letting him stay around
i think that he's good for me
this boy that i've found

let light be light (voice memo)

Lizzy McAlpine