a slightly obscured fall from faith

( a year old song >.<)

prod @chewy @dreamno7e
everything else me :p

Your face was lodged in bark
sifting dark brown, a new font I opened up
Don’t know where to start,
(Don’t) keep your eyes closed when the sky is cut
Can’t hear my bones shuffle when I’m near you
1 minute turns me to jelly & I’m fucked

I never thought I could see you, or be you, I could be you
I never thought I could see you, I never thought I could be you

It’s (is that) not far off
I’ll break my own bones
To win ‘gainst time
I fucking know
It’s a losing game I’m playing
Cut out for suffering, pro bono

Shein only I’ll cut u off
Don’t lend trust to them
Mama told me don’t love
I can’t give up that
I’m in deep but I know what it’s for 
I’m everything she can’t stand for

Your face was lodged in bark
sifting dark brown, a new font I opened up
Don’t know where to start,
(Don’t) keep your eyes closed when the sky is cut

when the sky's cut @heroine @dreamnote

@zzoos @maxynejournal @chewy @concerninggggg

@zzoos
i cannot get enough
fairy dust all on the paper bitch i pack it up
just let me disappear youll see me in a month
holding on 4 dear lifee i think my time is up
no i cannot care ab it
allmy problems adding up
its like im tryna climb a mountain
i love making money
n she like when i count it
threw all my coins in the fountain
i cannot go on without it

u just wna know what it feels like
ill face another one just2 feel right
broken beyond repair my wires tangled up inside
id find my way back2 u in another life
i wont hold back th tears but i dont wna cry:(
tear away my eyes
i dont wna cryy
i got myself caught up inside another lie
id find my way back  2 u in another life

@maxynejournal 
my  wires stripped down
i could build myself back up for u
id do it now
roll up another one when im feeling down
when its like ill drown
drown these feelings out
(i dont wanna talk)
i dont wanna talk
i just wanna listen to u 
every single thought
doing what i want they cant put me in a box
my life go full circle everyday i feel so lost
back to square one but i dont think that ill stop
no i dont think i could stop you
i gotta go soon so what u wanna do
i needa be alone i need some solitude

fairy dust prod heroine & vin

production by https://soundcloud.com/heroz2299 https://soundcloud.com/faintthearted
vocals done by me

shoutout @sinefelt & https://soundcloud.com/solxrrz for the tags

Put some colors on my nails hope i change my ways
And i do more for myself but i'm still the same
And i feel the amphetamines taking over my brain
Wish i could change my name, change my face, love myself, go far away
Stress puts me in a cage, can't ever escape, my mental battles, i don't remember Yesterday

And yall give need to give me some respect oh my god
And yall demanding to much like oh my fuckin god
And i try to lay my head down but no i just cannot
I feel myself losing it i can't connect the dots
Fucking up my brain i just repeat then i rot
Eight teen years old i don't got a j*b
Nothing on my name; i can't ever stop

I call my mom, i tell her I'm lost. . . and i don't rlly care at all. . .

can you hear me?

can you hear me? @heroz @dull

inspirations lately: i.v., mississippi john hurt, brave little abacus, heroine, massi, ride to roberts by jason isbell, broke by modest mouse, dendron by the hotelier

0:00 - solo
0:51 - solo
1:37 - solo
2:23 - w/ @aizeks
3:03 - w/ @gmodravemix @mmassi
3:58 - w/ @aizeks @stone47
5:17 - solo
6:16 - solo
7:18 - solo
8:08 - solo
8:43 - solo
9:34 - solo
10:42 - solo
11:44 - solo
12:32 - solo
14:09 - w/ @chewy
15:01 - w/ @prodiv
16:07 - w/ @prodiv
16:58 - w/ @prodiv
17:50 - w/ @gmodravemix
18:54 - solo
19:55 - w/ @chewy @prodiv
20:33 - w/ @cyruspireh-music
21:11 - solo
22:03 - solo
23:35 - w/ @bappybappybappy

Winter Clips 2025

岩の上の家 prod.grimgar + dull

@plugdatafx

平常な状態を保てない
いつも目を合わせられない
全部平等に見れない
みんな僕に気付かない
僕は空気になりたい
毎日雨降らせたい
君の予定台無しにしたい
君と傘をさしたい
丸くなるまで石を蹴った
標識で言葉を覚えた
教科書で歌を作った
歩きながら道考えた
退屈な毎日嫌いだ
真面目な空気が嫌いだ
一日座るのとか無理だ
みんなに合わせるの苦手だ
豚の人形が僕の友達
禁止された一人遊び
授業中ペンを回し
机とかに落書き
頭の中レース開始
これが僕の毎日
雨の日がずっと続くといいな

天気予報 prod.acyl

https://youtu.be/roiULLQFYq0?t=51
prod @boydiv https://soundcloud.com/chinapoet
mixed/rec by me

lyrics ♡꒰ᵕ༚ᵕ⑅꒱
i'ma play dis b*tch ya, talkin shit, u play the victim; ya kick him out the system;--
it's not my fault that u switched up; u just gotta ask urself Like “what I done”
Wait baby i'm so sorry- i ain't mean to be so rude

Any other reason to get rid of you.. bae kick me out cause of my attitude
Swear we gun him down- yeah undercover. . Like how I'd get so lucky four leaf clover?
and I attained my balance Shout-out my mother; and i pray to god.. that i ain't no bother
But my mama told me that i am a baller, and i really got racks so my friends all lovers

& E***** Msg'd me, twin can i get a dollar? I need smth in return. . it just loops like clockwork

I hope i don't drown up in no water, i know i'll be better when it hits tmrw, All my old friends pray on my down fall (cause they don't got shit, ya they small  ✌️😊)

I just made it out the damn Smog, and i'm still thanking life for my spawn point, a god chose me cause i had a purpose, even if that kills me it's worth it.
Even on my worst day, i'ma still tweak out, wish u cld hear me when i scream so loud. . . . even i hurt, get off my nerves, even i hurt, get Off my nerves. . . .

our god chose me just like you @b6ndicoot @chinapoet

@kissemlk

甘い果実を食べた
素晴らしい力を得た
退屈な人の目に映らなくなった
あれもこれも全部僕の思い通り
物語のページも書き換えちゃう
甘い果実を食べた
素晴らしい力を得た
いつかは全部失っちゃうのかな
退屈な僕の精一杯の抵抗
分かってるこれはただの理想

何をやっても君に届かない
何をやっても君に見てもらえない
何もわかってない人に褒められてもちっともうれしくない
僕は君の特別になりたい
僕は君にとっての本物になりたい
頭の中がかき回されてる生活がめちゃくちゃで狂いそうだ

甘い果実を食べた
素晴らしい力を得た
退屈な人の目に映らなくなった
あれもこれも全部僕の思い通り
物語のページも書き換えちゃう
甘い果実を食べた
素晴らしい力を得た
いつかは全部失っちゃうのかな
退屈な僕の精一杯の抵抗
分かってるこれはただの理想

甘い果実 prod.kisse

@killspires @chewy
少し落ち着く時間が必要
お散歩して子犬を見つけよう
コンクリートの檻から抜け出そう
あたらしい発見をしよう
簡単な事ばかりじゃない
気が付いたら周り誰もいない
急ぎ過ぎて近くにあるもの見えない
このサイクル終わりが近い
窓から見えた外の景色
僕たちは知らない本当の世界
外側だけ中身を見ない
噂話囀ることしかできない
僕たちはわかりあえない
自分でいることを許されない
自分の気持ちを話さない
音楽のように形を隠したい
アートを作りたくはない
君の正解に当てはまりたくない
思考が重なるのが怖い
居場所を荒らされるのが怖い

かわいい子犬 52匹 prod.killspires + heroine

1 solo
2 milkyyy
3 solo
4 grace grolth oxonova
5 og
6 heroz 
7 solo
8 michimani
9 zigimo
10 1over vanda
11 kb heroz
12 solo
13 milkyyy
14 heroz
15 solo
16 dull

jan 26 beats

@prodchoobee @lluneth @heroz2299
(i love this melody)
what's it like to you?
please dont ask me questions yea im tryna fuck the two of you
why you acting fake yea thats so fucking low of you
so- so fucking low of you
been focused on myself, making money
why you laughing, that aint even funny
yea, i aint tryna studyyyy
aint tryna studyyyy

why you ask me questions?
i cannot believe it
why dont u be yourself and just admit it?
stop all this shit, just quit it
making all this funny yea it aint fireeee
huh, i cannot see youuu
just believe yeaaaa

just believe, yeaaa

i been trying
all my life
please dont die
shoutout all my friends yea they keep me alive
keep me alive
yuhhh
been making all this bread to survive
shoutout the guys
shoutout the-
shoutout the-

why you ask me questionnnnnssssssss?

why you ask me questions?
i cannot believe it
why dont u be yourself and just admit it?
stop all this shit, just quit it
making all this funny yea it aint fireeee
huh, i cannot see youuu
just believe yeaaaa