happy 4/20 homies

love me, purchy, and tony

moon shard ft kydpurch x king kuthulu (prod. cyrusxo)

shawty see my angel wings
she say she seen stranger things
nothins quite as strange as me
no ones quite as lame as me

aint nobody same as me
aint nobody changin me
aint nobody tamin me
you should run away from me
if you think im plain, then leave
if you think im sane, then leave
thinkin you can change the scene
you should run away from me

when i looked
in your eyes
i could tell
you saw the signs
when i looked
in your eyes
i could tell
that you’d be mine
when i looked
in your eyes
i just wished
that you were fine
when i look
in your eyes
all the time
starts ta

angel wings (fly) [prod. junktown]

veins ft. haunted palace (prod. brxvn)

ive been saving this mixtape for awhile now, and it is finally time. RETRIBUTION+ was made in collaboration with Mutrick, who is one of my favorite producers to work with. now that this has been released i plan on making more and more mixtapes for you guys. i hope you guys enjoy this very much. 

love,
LOSINGMYWILLTOLIVE

Retribution+ Ft. Glasseyed (prod. Mutrick)

paradise (prod. greythecloud)

just a small ep i felt like doing. i felt like releasing these all so here you guys go. i hope you love all of them :)

love,
LOSINGMYWILLTOLIVE

GoGo Yubari (prod. DXNILUKX)

Skate 3 (prod. JAAKUNA!)

Stork (prod. ToxicSweet)

i saw you in the mirror
while i was gettin high
(im gettin high)
i saw you where i fear
that i may reside
(we may reside)
i heard you in the crowd
then let you pass on by
(she passin by)
i heard that youre in town
but ive been feelin shy
(im feelin shy)

i heard your voice
(i heard your voice)
it beckons me
(it beckons me)
“im all alone”
(“im all alone”)
but girl i see
(but girl i see)
youre on your phone
(youre on your phone)
to fuck with me
(to fuck with me)
and girl youre not the one
whos really all alone

i dont quite know
(quite know)
what you want
(you want)
i cant quite show
(cant show)
my broken heart

i saw you in the mirror
while i was gettin high
(im gettin high)
i saw you where i fear
that i may reside
(we may reside)
i heard you in the crowd
then let you pass on by
(she passin by)
i heard that youre in town
but ive been feelin shy
(im feelin shy)
(im feelin shy)
(im feelin shy)

distanced souls (prod. vulture ent)

kaleidoscope (prod. junktown)

Crystal Ball Ft. Haunted Palace x King Kuthulu (Prod. Davy)

barbie girlz ft. sleepy kris (prod. exihade)

laptop ft. terran808 (prod. sixtoxion)

this is an older song but i feel it is time that it gets released. i hope you enjoy

HATSUNE MIKU FT. KING KUTHULU (PROD. WUDO BEATZ)

shinigami eyes (prod. huricane)

Fantasy [KARL+ Remix] (prod. Sixtoxion)

dime in a dozen
a diamond in rough
who are you tryna
portray for the month
how are you tryna
partake in a blunt
that you didnt prepare
that you didnt supply

and i been gettin high
off this shit fo a minute
i been gettin by
i aint askin fo help
and i been puttin time
i been tryin to prove it
im lookin for beats
that reflect mental health

onto me
none these bitches
wanna honor me
none these bitches
wanna follow me
none these bitches
can compare to me
heresy
bow to me
none these bitches
should be doubtin me
none these bitches
should be loud as me
none these bitches
should be crowdin me
outta here

outta here
i been gettin bitches
outta here
i been gettin bitches
outta state
i been tryna find
another place
another face
damn
when in the fuck
did yo man
show up and
ruin the plan
show up when
textin yo phone
guess im the one
in the dust
fuck, fuck, fuck

fuck
i wasnt plannin today
then you put plans
in my way
been in demand
fo a minute
she gettin impatient with me
now she been gettin sacred to me

she
dime and a dozen to me
lookin for someone like me
lookin for someone who givin a fuck
i aint givin a fuck
i been wearin my heart
on my sleeve
bleed on my sleeve
till im needin some weed
i been faded for weeks
but aint givin a shit
he
tryna be somethin like me
grabbin his neck
till he beggin to breath

freeze, nobody colder than me
skin in the minus degrees
freeze, freeze nobody colder than me
skin in the minus degrees
freeze, freeze
im in the sauna
i still been bringin
the temperature down
freeze, freeze
im in the summer
i still been bringin
the temperature down
freeze

subzero (prod. leftfield)

bleached (prod. sixtoxion)

Ga$ Ma$k Ft. Yung Crow (Prod. K4$tet)

she dont wanna feel that
she dont wanna feel that pain
she just want the real back
she just want the real back pain
he dont wanna feel that
he dont wanna feel that pain
he just want the real back
he just want the real back stain

i dont wanna hear yo heart no more
i dont wanna say yo name
you dont wanna play my heart no more
you just wanna hear yo name

070 shake what ya smoke
shawty always trippin
now she grippin at the pole
070 shake how i flow
rhinestone on me dancin
fuck yo diamonds, i been broke
070 shake whats ya intake
whats ya output
bitch i been rage
070 shake hear ya heart break
you been so fake
i been so sad

smokin 070 gas
out my gasmask
i dont pass that
less she pass back
070 my
you dont like that
ill be right back
ill be right here

(will you hold my hand
just one more time)

070 Gas (Prod. Dexter Yu)

(cheers)
*coughing*

dumb bitch
I'm high u shuld kno this
no gun control im dietary on bullets
walk in dat bitch got a theme song
jackin yo shit w stole timbs on
never get gat opposition stay stranger
never wanna talk u got pink hit me later
fuck w the color ain't Gothic
faded then a hoe it's like ahhhh shit

intergalactic I'mma crash dis spaceship
90 in a 30 high as fuck yeah I'm wasted
all white tea turned black kinda grayish
ash up on the floor pool o red where yo face is
ay u in my pakk now big boy
pack 2k in the wallet for the big noise
I hate people and children
roll up a Dutch got a slut in her feelins 

gotta couple dollas
in my wallet
now the clip change
bitch made
only fuckin round
with the switchblade
wrist best friends
wit a slit
that a bitch made
get stained
blood flow drip
no kincaid

black suede shoes
on my crew
when we movin in
couple things loose
no screws
i aint fightin shit
couple big moves
no spruce
but im smokin tree
chillin wit my bro
kick a ho
no bruce lee

who me?
im no bitch
im beauty
uchi-ha
real shit
cant move me
ooweee
you cannot
outdo me
ruby
poppin like da cherry
so she blew me

yung $UBZERO+
make em freeze
when im showin up
what the fuck
i aint feel the same
so im throwin up
im no hero
and ill never
fuckin be enough
what the fuck
imma smoke a ciggy
wit a couple blunts

*coughing*
(fuck)

theme song ft. king kuthulu (prod. karlito pantalones)

because you asked nicely :)

blow your fuckin brains out
on the pavement of the cargo bay
voices incite violence in me
hard to let it go away
gossip all you want about me
i aint makin throwaways
i aint one to talk a lot
thats prolly more than you can say

feelin like its camelot
i got a blade inside my pocket
shawty smokin camel crush
so i might have to pay an homage
imma let the hammer thump
if you aint into bein honest
leave the body tangled up
if they dont wanna keep a promise

tired of ya gentryfyin
“all lives matter”
honky ass
go post more
misinformation
no one ever fuckin asked
you have no
communication
i dont gotta call you back
you think im
the spawn of satan
i came from your fuckin sack

ive been feindin
waitin waitin
i dont need a fuckin feature
didnt ever really need ya
found the beat so imma kill it
fuck it guess now im the villain
might as well just call me beerus
past tense wasnt quite as serious
present bout to fuck ya speakers

dressed in black
with wack demeanor
i been feelin like dementor
no way that im that demented
only killin, no repentance
prophets speak of empty lessons
i dont care about your message
if im speaking listen up
you aint holier than me

ive been on a mission
recognition only shit im seekin
fuck your validation
youll still listen
so quit fuckin tweakin
give up when i step up in the room
consume a soul or two
this shit aint a hobby
its my life
you think im done with you

you gon need a four leaf clover
once this song is fuckin over
imma witch and im not sober
bad decisions bound to happen
thought this track would be abandoned
i aint finna let that slide
thrash my fuckin face
undo my grace and then i write a line

if im talkin shit
about a bitch
its cause i know im better
i get emma stoned
inside my home
and hand out scarlet letters
i could be an angel
or a demon
shawty choose ya fighter
cuts inside my skin
i let you in
i hope you brought a lighter

Crash (prod. Nxmercy)

Prod. Karlito Pantalones, aka Karl Sweatpants, aka Sailor Moon and so on and so forth. I hope You enjoy all the new songs that will be coming out :)

New Vibes, Who Dis? (Prod. Karlito Pantalones)

Yours Truly Ft. WORDPLAY Da Flyest MC

my heart been colder than snow
my heart been colder than hoes
my heart been colder than ice
my heart been colder than flows
my heart been colder than cold
my heart been-

my heart been colder than hoth
bitches on me like a moth to a flame
lighter on me prolly less than i claim
alcohol never been healin my pain
chuggin it still while its givin me shame
askin “howd you coat that wrist?”
struggli-strugglin, bitch its been many a days
i do not know that shit!

no one to take care of me
when i was growin up
now they talkin heresy
each time im throwin up
everybody stare at me
could never give a fuck
when i was a youngin
think i gave too many up

keep on disrespectin
imma product of neglect
tote a couple weapons
only use em on myself
motherfuck a lesson
i been livin with depression
made my mark when i was seven
on my fuckin mental health

not a man of wealth
couple times that i been claimin
but im tryna make it out
of this motherfuckin rain
stuck inside a shell
breakin out would need a reason
i been searchin
think ill find one in the motherfuckin pain

cause a couple stains
with the razor in the drain
i been goin so insane
while im lookin at myself
gold to coat the fangs
i dont need it on the chain
if i use another name
then should learn it by today

now im on a mission
to put bitches out commission
so im changin the conditions
and refinin my flows
needin exposition?
you should know its always hidden
might elaborate eventually
if givin the chance

makin bitches dance
droppin down to the flo
what the fuck you know
bout the young Baby K+
prolly not shit
lemme tell you some thangs
im that motherfucker
who been tired of “love”

my heart been colder than snow
my heart been colder than hoes
my heart been colder than ice
my heart been colder than flows
my heart been colder than cold
my heart been-

Hoth

Hoth (Prod. Karlito Pantalones)

Candy Heartz (Prod. Moani)

"Something's Up With That Kid" (Prod. Karlito Pantalones)

Honey Butter (Prod. Karlito Pantalones)

Caustic Ft Donnie Darko (Prod. GRADEN)

Produced by Me :)

Lyrics:

I’m a rotten shinigami walkin
Offin any other option
Cocky from the bars I’m droppin
KAMA$UTRA not too uncommon
Call my name and I’ll be summoned
Jumpin up like Andre Drummond
She gon see me at the function
She gon think she was mistaken

Take it in the fuckin face
I’m tired of the human race
Tired of the fleetin feelin
While I’m starin at the ceilin
Seal away what’s never healin
Real ain’t always fuckin real
Bleed until ya body shakin
Wishin you were made of steel

Tell me that you love me
If you love me Imma need a piece
Never wanna touch me
If that’s true then that ain’t somethin new
Whisper how I’m lucky
With a pistol pressed against my brain
Shawty if I’m lucky
Then the both of us can rid the pain

Tired of all of this shit
Why you actin insane?
Feelin deranged
Bitch, whole lotta nothin
Is turnin to somethin to slay
Shouldn’t you pray
Ugh, all of this cuttin
I’m still tryna end it today
Fuck out my way
Ugh, see that you grippin the lever
But shit ain’t gon change
I’ll be okay

Ugh, grab for the cutter
While down in the gutter
A sick motherfucker
Ain’t somethin I am
Mind full of clutter
Not mindful of clutter
That’s probably somethin
I shouldn’t deny
Love when I cry
Cause I’m so fuckin messy
I know that you hate me
But I’m still the same
Look in my eye shawty
Please do not tempt me
Attempting to hurt me
Won’t make you obliged

Bitch I’m such a masochist
I burned my motherfuckin wrist
That’s prolly why I’m always pissed
Cause no one ever noticed it
Fucked up since I was a jit
And every body saw that shit
Act like they ain’t part of this
Why you still been talkin shit?

I’m a rotten shinigami walkin
Offin any other option
Cocky from the bars I’m droppin
KAMA$UTRA not too uncommon
Call my name and I’ll be summoned
Jumpin up like Andre Drummond
She gon see me at the function
She gon think she was mistaken

Take it in the fuckin face
I’m tired of the human race
Tired of the fleetin feelin
While I’m starin at the ceilin
Seal away what’s never healin
Real ain’t always fuckin real
Bleed until ya body shakin
Wishin you were made of steel

Fetch Me Their Souls (Prod. Karlito Pantalones)

Bulldog (Prod. Karlito Pantalones)

Lost And All Alone Interlude (Ft. Kyd Purch) [Prod. Beats By Con]

Moon Man (Ft. CHAINSAWGROUPIES)[Prod. Bull Beats]

no escape from my brain
no escape from my pain
grab a motherfuckin chain
and watch my body hang
no escape from my brain
no escape from the rain
see you in the pavement
but is that shit a statement

why you always flakin
you got my body shakin
makin me so anxious
my mental state is tankin
so emo i cant take it
im tired of this fakin
so emo i cant take it
im tired of this fake shit

emotions are poison
i hate all the choices
its so hard avoidin
all of your voices
im stuck with annoyance
instead of enjoyment 
so quit all the toyin
before im destroyin ya

well its been fun
i gotta run
but im the one
whos gotta gun
and i dont think
you give a fuck
so i coat my sink
with my own blood
(x2)

no escape from my brain
no escape from my pain
grab a motherfuckin chain
and watch my body hang
no escape from my brain
no escape from the rain
see you in the pavement
but is that shit a statement

I'm Awake (prod. zzzfallenraven)

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