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see you in the room
dont know what to do
lack of confidence
masked by disinterest
i know you dont know me
but you follow my homie
i keep my distance
that wouldnt make the best entrance

i know what you really want
someone who deosnt break your heart
i know what you really want
asomeone who always pays you mind
i know what you really want
a boy who doesnt break your heart
i know what you really want

baby just hit my line
im free like all the time
baby just hit my line
ill make it worth your while
baby just my line
i really like your style
baby just hit my line
i think youre super fine

you wont regret it

ill pay for your meal
i swear i dont steal
a night is all it takes
if youre sick of the fakes

i know what you really want
someone who doesnt break your heart
i know what you really want
someone at least a little smart
i know what you really want
a boy who doesnt break your heart
i know what you really want
you know what you really want

chorus

Home Alone

Lyrics:
I just want to know
Where you went out
last night, alone.

And I just want to know
Do you still love me ?
Cause I don't know

Tell me, Does your love show ?
Tell me, Does your love show ?
Tell me, Does your love show ?

I just want to know
Do you still think of me
When I'm not home ?
And I want to know
Do you think of somebody else
when you're alone ?

Tell me, Does your love show ?
Tell me, Does your love show ?
Tell me, Does your love show ?

THOUGHTS

Oh, I'll never see that day that I always dreamt and longed for

Sometimes I think I really just can't forgive and overcome resentment 

It burns the only kindness that remained

And while we're all familiar 
The undertone is eating my soul alive
But now that I'm older
I try to feel pity and understand:
Oh, I'll never see that day that I always dreamt and longed for
Oh yeah, will the anger cease when we're old if we make it that far?

If I could see the reason you're sad I'd only wanna come and help you
but it don't work out that way, it never did

Genus

warm with guilt

here is a little collection of sounds.

it consists of two songs and a poem.

it is intended to be listened to in this exact order because technically it is a timeline of different thoughts of feelings, related to different things.
sleeping, anxiety and abuse to my body.

I'm sorry if these  aren't very interesting to listen to, but I guess putting these here is more about me than anyone else. but if it is of use to you then that's also BEAUTIFUL

enjoy x

a fool for my demon

Faithful

ep soon! <3

yes, sam bauer smells like grapes

lyrics:

Baby I’ve cried for you
The only thing that gets me by 
Is knowing that you’re alright 
Lately I’ve been so blue
Just hoping you’d love me too 

I just love you 
More than my words can tell
I know you don’t love me 

Baby I’d die for you 
But that’s not something you would do 
He picked up the pieces I left
And fastened your loosened screws 

You don’t love me 
Anymore I guess 
I know I can’t
Give you what you need 
I just want you to be happy 
I lied I can’t stand this feeling 

Moonbeam 
Baby 
You look pretty 
In this dull light 
You’re so intertwined 
In my state of mind

moonbeam

luckier

luckier (prod. solsa)

Shoelace

a song i wrote when i didn't want to be alone

i want to be near you 
never leave you oh i, 
i, will never leave 
as long as you choose, to stay with me 
i know, it feels like the world is falling at our feet 
but take my hand, its yours i swear 
together we’ll make it out alive 
i…… x2 
i know it gets hard and i 
i know things get tough and i- 
know somedays we don’t wanna try 
i know i get tough sometimes 
i know i’m so unusually tired, of being alive 
but i swear, when i look into your eyes 
everything comes alive 
i feel like i can breathe again 
i feel like my world is falling into place 
you say i, exaggerate 
you couldn’t be more wrong 
i would never lie 
i would never try to make you feel alone…, 
baby, 
won’t you stay with me, throughout the cold 
i need, you to be with me 
baby, please promise you’ll stay its getting kinda lonely 
it's getting kinda lonely in my bed 
would you stay next to me? stay with me? 
in need you with me 
won’t you please, stay with me ?

please, stay with me ?

finally, an original.
lyrics:

my body's your canvas
will you be my brush
paint me with all your memories
don't leave any untouched

douse me in letters
of past emotions
leave me there crying of joy, pain
whatever you want

all i ask of you is if i don't have to ask to do the same in return

Canvas

i listen to just about everything and am very unorganized but i'm down for whatever bc life is futile and existentialism thrives on human emotion and experience ya know?




also im trying to get my life together while also making semi thought out playlists

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