5 month old song, was originally supposed to have a feature but it never ended up happening
decided i liked what i made too much to let it go to waste
enjoy
will probably switch out the file with a feature v soon :)

Fine (prod. localvoid)

fingertips (prod. dead spyro)

sorry the mixing sucks I didn't care at the time 

lyrics: 

styrofoam life, crumble into pieces ‘fore my eyes, help me realize
i’ll be alright, stumbled into peace, no release from the afterlife
sorry that i ghosted i just had to get away i miss your touch but i’d rather not see your face
you can find me by the coast at least my soul bound to the ocean in due time i think i’ll fly far away

why i always feel so out of place?
gets me every time i think i got a break, my god it’s 
tearing me apart like every day
i just need another damn change, my god I’ve

been around the world in this brain
think i left my luggage on the plane, my god i
can’t believe i finally broke away
love hard to deliver interstate, my god I
hope that we can figure something out you know i’ll miss you
this damn machine ain’t even give me the change
just know i’ll find a way i wanna do this shit with you
cause i can’t handle any more pain, my god i’m

ready to move on like everybody does from me
i could take a pawn promote that shit to a queen
i’ve been writing songs since like 2015
i just wanna spread some honesty, i’m tired of being
someone i wouldn’t even fuck with myself
all these lies i’ve told have really dragged me through hell
all these people zombies they’ve been trapping themselves
i’ve been working mom i’m sorry that i don’t answer the cell, i’ve just

been around the world in this brain
think i left my luggage on the plane, my god i
can’t believe i finally broke away
love hard to deliver interstate, my god I
hope that we can figure something out you know i’ll miss you
this damn machine ain’t even give me the change
just know i’ll find a way i wanna do this shit with you
cause i can’t handle any more pain


styrofoam (prod. yung spoiler)

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IDGAF w/ kellar (prod. yung spoiler)

mine (prod. jolst)

I can't let you down 
I won't let you down 

I'd risk my life in the cold for you 
I'd go and wipe out the floor for you 
wish you could give me some more to do 
I'll go and excavate bones for you 

watch my test my patience 
I desync my whole foundation 
fix me up reboot my hatred 
I can't take no more 
got my tools I called the ancients 
walk me through this operation 
I can't fail you, i can barely take this 
weight no more 

tell me what it's like to be pet and be treated right 
ain't no pedigree that you bite I Yosemite through the night 
cause I lost all my friends I tell myself out of spite 
but I know that I got you 
and whenever I fight the enemies I despise 
I'm aiming right for the heart, its beating me till I cry 
if I'll never be alive im running and taking flight 
cause I do this all for you 

I risk it all I might slip and fall 
but I'm right back up in time for the final brawl 
if I die might suck, at least I would fight for us 
what a question! death? no I wouldn't mind at all 
hold it down I'm tryna ball I got my focus to the max 
like i been poppin adderall but i been done and over that 
it's all my fault I can't relax my legs they fidget on the bus 
but I think everyone's got problems so they'll never bother us 

no it's not ideal 
I went back to taking pills 
I tried to stay so strong 
but I like the way they feel 
got some black ink in my arm 
remind me what is real 
and I can't go back, no I did my harm
I derailed, I'm off track, can I get back on? 


BONES FOR BARKIMEDES (prod. flesh)

lyrics: 

every day i'm in pain and i stress
think it's all gonna end like the rest
shake it off when it's all in the red
cause it's all like a bone to the flesh
in a room at a time i slept
now i try to remind my breath
i'm inside of the game that i left
and it's fine if i hide what i meant

ain't no change in my thoughts, it's a bore
i've been chained to a lock on the door 
all the things that have lost their allure
i need more, i need more, i need more
all the way to the top of the floor
till the sweat break out every pore
till the roof crash down i'm in store
i need more, i need more, i need more

i need more
i need more
am i sure
i need more for you?
sick of all this distance, a different expedition
seems integral to my moving on 
i'm blinded by my vision, i tried an intermission
we had it then we said so long

barrow the stars, stone for my heart
tore up my confidence, broke it apart
all into shards, adderstone falls
i feel unstoppable, this just the start
so i play my part, i take all my bars, i make them come out my face, i try hard 
to take my time off and wait till i'm not away from my god to say what i want 
i know what i'm on, novelty gone
i'm coming back nah i'm not gonna front

wasted moments how they take me home it's every day i feel like i'm lost
weight i'm holding, imitate my folding, i will pay whatever it costs
to stay awake, i hope that in a way i'm bold 'nuff to escape the words that i toss
yet i sing in my songs, paperweight, i need gauze

all my fault, all my fault
am i wrong? am i wrong?
 
i need more
i need more
am i sure
i need more for you?
sick of all this distance, a different expedition
seems integral to my moving on 
i'm blinded by my vision, i tried an intermission
we had it then we said so long

MORE BONES FOR BARKIMEDES w/ LUST HARMONY (prod. flesh)

yes i know what it means

lyrics:
hurt has helped me learn yeah i've grown numb but i can't shake it off
i could say a thousand words but never get the point across
i still feel the insulation, fiberglass stuck in my arms
i demolish everything i love so i'm in need of some
flag is bleeding some, do i need to run
i don't wanna bleach it peace has brought me to my knees and let the
opposition (wolves disguised as sheep) control my needs and wants
i dont know whats wrong with me some peaceful dreams is all i want

yeah that's all i want, but it just stays the same
i'm afraid of losing her but i can't stop complaining
how can i be really sure this ain't just all a game and
if i kill myself the world would still cooperate
planets still rotate, they still revolve the same and
humans evolve the brain, but the rot it stays
depression carve the way, through the art it sang whats
all this commotion i can hear the hope inside the pain

i parked in a lot on hall of fame
i usually drive on these streets not today
not tonight, i can make it right back to the 
place that i'd like any day, any time i pray 
craving an accident to face
savor the path i chose to take
alright, i'll save my life and
walk my legs away in time to wake

instrusive thoughts, i think they're out to get me no i 
cannot sleep at all, every night i'm shivering the
cold it keep me up, my phone is right here next to me
i gotta pick it up, someone might be texting me 
of course they're fucking not, i got rid of everyone
who tried or gave a fuck, i was playing games i overshared
like way too much, thought they'd never walk
so i cut them off, why i self destruct?

still i manage to feel guilty about it, all of the shit that you said got me doubting
all of the shit that i said was i clouded you brought the light to the gas i was out of
i didn't want you to stay but i wanted you back on the path that you made from the ground up
that's what you said anyway, now i doubt it, i was obsessed with the lies you were spouting
i got you drugs and a phone and 8 months of fast food every day, barely paid, i was drowning
i tried to tell you to pitch in a little but you took advantage the way that i loved you
i really once thought of you as a brother, you fucking used me, my friends they all saw it
you tried to isolate me from the fam and homies, like dammit, you owe me, i'm out it

streetwalker (prod. ryini beats)

lyrics:

was it your call?
a voice so distinct
do you come here often?
it’s not what you think
they promised you god 
a permanent thing
we hate what we got
cause it’s all in between

holes poked in paper plates 
oh i can relate to the thought
i let time go to waste so 
i can replace what i want 
soul; a box on the way
a lot that they say could go wrong
i hope the driver’s mistakes
stay miles away from the rocks

goodbye
the version that i stood by
fell victim to the cliffside
i’m hoping that my ragdoll makes it
this time 
i’ll get up from my bedside
cause i made friends with enzymes
it’s on the tip my tongue, i taste it

a palm to a fist, a fighting for peace
it’s not on the list, but i’ll try to bring
whatever it is you’re trying to drink
cause i found it fun when i sunk in the sea
i’m sorry you missed the rest of the dream
we partied without you despite all the seams
the ones that we ripped, this puppet’s a fiend
another eclipse and a bucket for

paper plates (prod. roachiiie)

broke down cause it came so sudden
for a second felt my own damn loving
hey, sometimes i dont wanna say nothing
cause my brain go numb and i'm scared of judgement 

someone tell me how to break from this curse
i just wanna love the people i hurt 
and i know it's too late
yesterday's been submerged

i don't wanna feed off your words
but everything you tell me just works
and i know there's a way 
to escape what i've learned

i don't wanna be the one to talk 
when the world gets tough 
i would rather give up 
and hide away
but all these goals i've set up
even when i'm fed up
never gonna let up
i'd like to stay 

on the path i've built
momma ask me how i feel
happy but you know the deal
depression never went away
open up fl 
type what at the time i felt
i just open up myself
to find the perfect time of day

ain't no way i should explain my struggles
when there's so much worse in the world i juggle
with the fear of rejection so my words i mumble
really hate to complain, know it's so not subtle, won't

someone tell me how to break from this curse
i just wanna love the people i hurt 
and i know it's too late
yesterday's been submerged

i don't wanna feed off your words
but everything you tell me just works
and i know there's a way 
to escape what i've learned

what's a rite of passage without some bridges to burn the masses
we could feed them acid and watch them dance until the world collapses

someone tell me how to break from this curse
i just wanna love the people i hurt 
and i know it's too late
yesterday's been submerged

i don't wanna feed off your words
but everything you tell me just works
and i know there's a way 
to escape what i've learned

feed (prod. dercept x 80root)

highwinds.mp3 [12/18/21] (prod. flesh)

off.mp3 [11/13/21] (prod. flesh)

never could recreate whatever energy i had when i was recording this

suredemo.mp3 [11/10/21] (prod. snorkatje)

I Wouldnt Mind It (prod. flesh)

i still remember the way they would scold me for loving myself
in the moment, i never got over the things they would tell me alone to myself
in my bedroom spent 24 hours in motion while stuck in my bed
with the headroom that i've given myself, even 6 decibels can't replenish the way
that i'm spending, is everything down the dollar?
i'll limit myself with the credit i've dealt to my ego with all of 
the music i'm posting as well as the 
silence, envelop me up the collar
i'm sick of this life and its offers
the scheme and its drafts 
is it even enough for your fears to collapse
it is ugly, the path that we paved's got its bruises
potentially made for the people who crave 
everything in their path i'm up to here with the 
static, this animal act's
so confusing, they promised a new understanding
i just missed a call so i 
sent out a text and i hope you'll respond
i feel weird that i said that i'd work, i was home
im a liar, cause ommitting the truth is no better
than telling a fib, it comes down to the tones
feeling dead and alive in my sediment crypt
i hope you'll be alright
with the bullshit i'm telling myself
it gets toxic, the medicine helped
till it didnt, it's better than hell
but it certainly isn't a heaven as well i remember

I still remember (prod. flesh)

i thought i'd never escape
the spark had turned into flames
before i knew to react
in time i threw it away
my body burned through the waste
how could i know it was bad?

though i'm feeling different i'm the same old body
after all this distance sticking with this hobby
all these things i've written all the time it cost me 
if nobody listened i would still be talking 
cause it's been so long i feel i'm out of options
i could start all over i'd but i'd feel so lost 
when i'm below horizons all i do is walking 
if i stepped on clouds then surely i'd be falling
i hope that i don't mess this up i hope that i don't mess this up
i hope that i don't mess this up i hope that i don't mess this up
i hope that i don't mess this up i hope that i don't mess this up
i hope that i don't mess this up i hope that i don't mess this up

though i'm feeling different i'm the same old body
after all this distance sticking with this hobby
all these things i've written all the time it cost me 
if nobody listened i would still be talking 
cause it's been so long i feel i'm out of options
i could start all over i'd but i'd feel so lost 
when i'm below horizons all i do is walking 
if i stepped on clouds then surely i'd be falling
i hope that i don't mess this up i hope that i don't mess this up
i hope that i don't mess this up i hope that i don't mess this up
i hope that i don't mess this up i hope that i don't mess this up
i hope that i don't mess this up i hope that i don't miss this

Ihopethatidontmessthisup (prod. hero)

oo lala (prod. flesh)

Herewegoagain (prod. ertu)

i keep wondering why the 
tide keeps going back and 
forth it's violence i don't 
like i dont wanna take the torch
if i always gotta light it
i got no remorse
for the things i said in writing
i got so much baggage they all know that im a flight risk
everything i make is fucking sick its like a virus 
that i keep on injecting use it like a trojan
pull up bust a nut get back to feeling like im hopeless

that shit had me wide eyed
paranoid about the life i live these
white lies make me feel like i'm doormat if its
my time to go n clean this mess up for me 
i been on my ass time to get to microphoning
wide eyed from the drugs that i was on i know its
white lies and i wonder if i can trust you when its
my time to go n clean this mess up for me 
i been on my ass time to get to microphoning

feel like im tom or wiley coyote always chasing
an iota of patience would prolly change how im aiming
cause i been shaking and shooting and missing bullets and facing
the fucking music and pacing around my room till im making some fucking sense
in my broken brain, broken head
like i fell from outer space
and i landed on cement
its a test every pain that i collect
im a wreck still i best
every challenge im still tryna find a balance in distress 

and i know its subject to change
its just been so long to wait
and theres no signs that i can read
and i dont know what else to be
so i just pet my toxic traits
let them burn i immolate
all the good i try to breathe
but all this shit is choking me out

Chokingmeout (prod. ertu)

u are all i need (prod. kidmoon)

inspect element (prod. flesh)

welcome back

dont starve verse demoski w/ decks

firewall demo (flesh x hottubjohny)

omg exclamation mark (taurs x rich james x deyflo)

sorcerer demo

t2m2 demo 2

spirit rough mix

all i hear is S sounds i am unhappy witht he way i recorded this song and im not gonna rerecord it

Somethingwentwrong (flesh x nihil2free)

Not (ertu x taylor morgan)

Again (usbHalo)

topiramate (jolst x taylor morgan)

this was supposed to go on the album but i deleted the vocals on accident #oops

important (usbhalo)

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