I don’t even know where to start none of my siblings wana talk with me I don’t even know why as the youngest brother between them I don’t have any bond with them when people ask me who are you closest with your brothers I tell them no one they are constantly having fun without me when I try to talk with my big brother to see his day has been all I get is silents nothing else I even doubt if they’ll come to my graduation when I finish school not only that when my friends go out with their siblings I don’t feel jealous I feel sad whh can’t I have the same bond as my friends has am I cursed why do they just ignore me like I never have existed they are constantly out of the house while my ass is always at home doing nothing they hardly even eat at home to the point where I sit at the dinner table eating. By myself I don’t know what to do

This is one of those songs that makes me feel terrified and anxious, but also sincere and humble. It makes me think back to my past self when I first heard this song. It may have been one of the reasons I broke down, but I won't stop listening to this song because of it. This song is almost special to me because I noticed that it makes me calmer and the urge to hurt people around me disappears for a while. I hate it, it makes me feel weak, but it's not that bad, right?

I listen to this song for the past week. My relationship is falling apart and the person I once found comfort with is now dragging me down.

this is what i listened to before i took my own life at 23.08 20th August 2025

Emotional fullfill absent in me, most people here is sad, yet its sweet to know that we are alive... We feel... I like that about us.

It's been years and i still can't get him out of my head.

Copy of Mysterious

the perfect girl : mareux (slowed)

Mindtrap

memo boy facebook.com (slowed down a little)

loser monologue - instrumental

The best version of the instrumental you will find. I try my best to respond to anyone who comments. You’re not alone. 🫂

loser monologue (Instrumental Extended)

Stream "in another life" a sequal to "see you in heaven"

https://lnk.dmsmusic.co/lochhaven_inanotherlife

released via @listen24seven

Watch on Youtube: 
https://youtu.be/BDf0HngLDU8

see you in heaven - single

see you in heaven

Stream

miercoles - i should be happy

DISCLAIMER : This track explores themes of mental anguish and self-destruction. If you are struggling, please seek help. You are not alone.

playlist with songs like this : https://open.spotify.com/playlist/1gBKGsn4v0dUPp9H9W7ayS?si=7Z0jHKvoRMitr27P5XmXqA
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Spotify

my little winter.

in another life - single

in another life

Presave/Stream "in another life" a sequal to "see you in heaven"

lnk.dmsmusic.co/lochhaven_inanotherlife

released via @listen24seven

See You In Heaven (slowed) - single

See You In Heaven (slowed)

stream: https://open.spotify.com/track/2btLchuHTdHf9T128wudwu

Empty Hours

Mindtrap (Slowed)

You Look Lonely, I Can Fix That

Derek Carter (KapTep) about this release:

Ambient music seems to be fascinated by nature, oceans and the sky. For this KapTep release I wanted to explore the sky and more importantly all we can’t see, the millions of signals and mysteries that it hides.

I wanted to leave room for the songs to breathe and allow plenty of open spaces within them. At times these compositions may seem empty, that is by design. Although the current environment is to pick a track or two add them to your playlist.

I hope you will spend 49 minutes and listen to this as a body of work, as it was recorded to be listened to in one continuous sitting. In addition to the 6 original tracks there are two wonderful remixes added by Arrival In Eden, and Sacred Seeds.

Numbers Station – I’ve always been fascinated with them. The mystery and intrigue.

Naming the Sky – Melancholy drifting and not a care in the world.

LA Scanner – I simply love the voyeur nature of a cheap scanner.

Cold Luck Moon – Blurred images, sounds and emotions. Plus, three words that don’t mean anything together as a title.

I Need Light – In a world of conflict, doom scrolling and fear… I need light. In fact, I think we all do.

One Hundred Miles Until Sunrise – Have you ever driven somewhere and not remembered a second of it? Totally sober, auto-pilot. This is your soundtrack.

Produced and mixed by Derek Carter (KapTep)
Mastered by Dionis Afonichev (Dionisaf)
Cover picture by Derek Carter
Cover design by Dionis Afonichev

Naming the Sky

I Need Light

Somewhere in the Distance, Somewhere Toward the Mountains

A Dream

insomniac · memo boy

18 yo ambient artist born in Martinsburg, Wv

Contact: lochhavenmusic@gmail.com

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