They didn't send a soldier. They sent a lawyer.

When the people supposed to protect you are the ones aiming the gun.

LOCK-STATE.

[Intro] I absorbed it Every drop of the chaos I took the hit so she could heal And now you stand over the wreckage Asking me why I didn't bleed the right way

[Verse 1] I took the chaos of your daughter, pressed it to my soul You sat inside the quiet, ignoring all the toll I held the bag while the world went black I carried the house with a knife in my back You asked: Why didn't you visit? Why didn't you drive? Why didn't you sit in the rehab and help her thrive? Let’s look at the chart, let’s look at the degree I got PTSD mixed with autistic fatigue That ain't hyperbole, that’s the medical fact Autistic burnout from the way that I picked up the slack I screamed I was drowning, I laid it all bare You texted: Good luck with your mental health, take care I saved your daughter, I kept her alive But you didn't give a fuck if I survive My executive function was dead on the floor From the near-death experiences behind our door I was on red alert, checking pulses at night Keeping the body alive till the morning light So when she was safe? When the danger was done? I crashed into the earth so I could rise for our son

[Chorus] You say bad shit happens, I say not on my watch I took the hit to turn the dial down a notch You tell me to deal with it, move on with my life? Tell that to the husband still pulling out the knife Yeah, the gallery claps for the new life she found While I’m still pulling myself up off the ground

[Verse 2] You judge the rapid movement? You think the logic breaks? I'm running simulations on the highest of the stakes It isn't mania, it's processing in overdrive Testing every scenario to see what will survive My love language is safety, I engineer peace I didn't info dump just to get a release I did it to wake you the fuck up, to show you the beast To show you the predator heading for the feast But you ignored the science, causing endless strife You picked apart the method, but I saved the life I sent the audit: We bleeding, the deficit’s high You said wait for the market and let the finances die You worried about the equity? The assets? The greed? I was finding the resources that we actually need

[Verse 3] Now let’s talk about the boy, the one that you claim The one with the neurotype that shares my frame You dismiss me? You hate what I do? Then you realizing you dismissing him too? We share the same wire, we share the same code The same way we process the heavy load I’m the ghost of his future, I’m the map to his mind If you can't handle me, then you leaving him behind If you throw me away, you won't have the key To unlocking the grandson you say you want to see You treat the trauma like weather, it rains and it pours I treat it like war right outside of our doors

[Outro] You know what the real tragedy is? It’s not the divorce It’s not even the betrayal It’s that you are all smart people Educated people You had the capacity to learn this language I handed you the manual to your grandson's mind But you chose to judge the binding instead of reading the book You chose ignorance over understanding And that That is a waste

Friendly Fire

LOCK-STATE i is the sound of a neurodivergent brain refusing to mask.

Born from the frustration of existing in a world designed for someone else, LOCK-STATE is a raw, industrial documentation of executive dysfunction, trauma recovery, and the chaotic reality of modern life.

This is art for the overthinkers, the cycle-breakers, and the divergent minds. I’m a real person navigating the noise. If you get it, you get it. Everyone else is just tagging along in my brain.

New Single "ABOLISH" out now.