the surface of your reality is a deep blue sea

VIDEO: https://youtu.be/VoQTvMHKhMs

written & performed by teddybear
produced by jcam
mixed and mastered by jcam, teddybear & Adam Hanney
art by teddybear

@tddybrr

lyrics:

wait for me
you're always saying
wait for me
always saying stay
I can't be alone
clay for me
becoming what you say to me
then you turn back
to what I need most
saying sorry
that's not what I meant
I'm just worried
about you so I stress
and it hurts me
like don't you want what's best for me?
I say yes
and really all I see is 
red from the brake lights
just caught me in a moment
that memory is loading
I've never been this close
I didn't know how
I didn't notice
this coming into focus
this doesn't feel like home to me
you're aiming for the throat I see
constantly
whisper something while you hold me
just underneath
the surface of your reality's a deep blue sea
I know that you'll hate me
Oh how I live so free
all through the misery of me
don't thank me
just don't hit me up
don't thank me
just don't hit me up
she said fine by me
I know that you'll need me
after you live so free
all through the misery
baby when you see
just don't hit me up 
baby when you see
I can't love you enough
I know you'll hate me 
Oh how I live so free
All through the misery
All through the misery of me

you can't kill me in a way that matters

VIDEO

you can't kill me in a way that matters (p. jcam)+VIDEO

insane to post this shit with how incomplete it is but my pro tools ran out anyways im never finishing this so here yolo

if you lose your way p. saint tomorrow [UNIFNISHED DEMO]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5uCOSsTSUqU

june gloom

june gloom w/SsappyY (prod. pekarot) [VIDEO IN BIO]

Produced by ATP

Now I’m too drunk to know 
Now it’s too late to go 
But I hope that the roads 
Will live from the snow 
And now you’re too gone from me 
Is it too hard to see?

For too long, too much on top of my plate 
Lost in the ways we’re carving our names 
I can’t replace the way that I think you know oh 
And now I’m too gone, too lost to ever wanna change 
I think it’s time to find my own way 
I’m not the same guy who used to walk you home oh 

My hand, your ass
All I could  ever ask 
Is for you back 
On my bed like back then 

I don’t want them Xanax anymore 
Sick of just waking on the floor 
Girl you’re everything that I adore 
I’m sorry that I’m geeked up like a dork 
Do you even miss me anymore?
I’m sorry if you hate me like before 
When we kiss it makes me miss you more 
All these feelings that I can’t ignore

Im not the same guy who used to walk you home..

sewerperson - misunderstood (3) (lyrics).mp3

@tothegood

backed down to the corner of my closet
stay put, this'll all be over soon enough
my minds in need of something different
too bad its another lame occassion
teeth gold from the years that ive been smokin
wrist froze from the reason ive been chokin
bad bitch told me imma be a shinin star
but as of late, i dont seem to be goin too far

nothing lasts forever
for the worse and for the better

dont fuck with me
i gotta go, gotta flea
i guess theres no fight in me anymore
now i see

1000 words couldnt say
or nearly capture the way
ive come to feel on this day
u think u know dont u?
i can tell by ur smile
everyone told u
im stuck in denial

Follow me <3

1000 words (prod. tothegood)

I feel empty and worthless when I am by myself...

Bones - UnderTheWillowTree (slowed)

prod by Ryini Beats. 

this jealousy is gonna kill me.
I've learned to bite my tongue when im feeling upset.

Feels like I’m driving with my eyes closed, 
I can’t see,
And I’m upset, but it’s not down to me.
And that song you like’s been in my head since March 13’.
Just sweep me away girl, I’m down on my knees. 

And I said jealousy, is gonna kill me. 
I’ve learned to bite my tongue when I’m feeling upset.

And my eyes are green with envy,
I can’t see,
She says she “loves me”, but why won’t she just leave?
And my love you don’t know, got me down on my knees,
My heart is blue girl, one touch makes me freeze

And my love, you don’t know the way you make me feel.
X2.

And I said jealousy, is gonna kill me.
I’ve learned to bite my tongue when I’m feeling upset.

And my darling,
I’m tied down to you, now I can’t move,
Please tell me baby, what are you gonna do?
I can’t take a heartbreak, I’ll cry on my own,
I said the jealousy kills me, let me die on my own

And I said jealousy, is gonna kill me,
I’ve learned to bite my tongue when I’m feeling upset.

thisjealousyisgonnakillme

flooding my basement

Worth It, Still Worthless

Hope u guys enjoy. More songs on the way, ;)
lyrics:
this aint no fun
fallin apart im honest
and I didnt know what
lately Im fucked
it all goes back to august
gettin hit with stuff
and now im done
shit now i gotta to college
and i didnt know what
so ya im fucked
all up in this spot ya
fadin to a ghost

look into my eyes
can you tell I see it right now
seasons changin like the times
gotta get it right out the bat
how about that
now im flyin out the window
hittin 80 on the dash
up up away
mayday im goin down
wasnt this way
dont know where im goin oh
seekin shelter from the rain and the storm ya
am i supposed to find a place to conform damn
can i be ready for this shit
up n steady weighin heavy
on my mind just got me sick no
feels like i still know nothin
like i still know nothin

look at time i shouldve saved this
from the memories n moments that im makin
now the levels getting low like a tank ya

this aint no fun
fallin apart im honest
and I didnt know what
lately Im fucked
it all goes back to august
gettin hit with stuff
and now im done
shit now i gotta to college
and i didnt know what
so ya im fucked
all up in this spot ya
fadin to a ghost

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august (prod.jolst)

life hurts
I upload slowed down music. I just like to slow down the music I hear to expierence an even further depressing feel. I do not own the music here so if any creator doesnt want that I have his music (in a slightly changed version) on this account, please contact me, than I will take it down again. 
I hope the music helps you if you are sad or depressed, anxious, what ever. This music, for me, open a fully new world, my own little world where everything is good and wonderful. I hope you have a nice day and I hope you recover from your sadness. :(

Bones - UnderTheWillowTree (slowed)

insanity