「即便我知道生活會莫名設計出很多花招，讓你覺得灰暗並不是永恆的，但這又有什麼用。」—— 胡遷《漫長的閉眼》

“I know life randomly creates some flukes to make you feel that darkness isn’t eternal, but what use is that?”
          —— Hu Xian, “The Eternal Shut-eye”

Everything I Cherish Easily Disintegrates into Dust at the Lightest Touch

I need u (Synth Version)

I lost something on the way to becoming whatever I am today

Dust (Intro)

A track for guitar players and appreciators

Everything Here is Mechanical (Instrumental)

Ray of Sunshine

Numb, I’m so numb 

Still in the same deep water, getting wetter 
Cause nothing ever gets better 
Everyone around me looking for gold (there is no gold)
But the game is getting old
(And so am I) 
The fuckers I grew up with, their words struck like thunder 
But I’m sure they’ll all love me, when I’m six feet under 
Cuz that’s how it works, I know it and you know it 

Numb, I’m so numb 

Cause I don’t feel a thing 
I don’t feel a thing 
I don’t feel a thing
I don’t feel a fuckin thing 
All the tragedies around me happening 
Like refugees and all the wars and poverty 
But I don’t feel a thing 
All I feel is that I’m a piece of shit 
Floating on kool aid, waiting to get lit
Like I always do every night (yeah you bet) 
Binge drinking in my own bed 
Wiping demons outta my head 
If I had a needle filled with lead
I would do it right now just to end this dread

Cuz that be how I roll, I know it and you know it

so numb

All instruments, vocals, and production by Lounge Act Jam

An abstract documentation of my gradual and continual decline. All instruments are played by Rutadel except when noted. RUTADEL IS FROM THE ISLAND NATION OF TAIWAN (FORMOSA). 

Check out my band: https://soundcloud.com/repeatedive