Self destructive bastard prod garasu jolst

w/ @plasticgirl1

prod permafrost

mix + master by @dthxrgt

patchwork

patchwork w/ rezlaine (permafost)

prod: @loveismisery
mixed: @1qai @1arrivals 

Lyrics

will be posted soon

qai & arrivals - wish i knew (kyoa)

heartfelt  <svapna>

@m4xyne
Ellie https://soundcloud.com/elliemillss/bug Eleanaor Mills sample

Recorded 2 weeks before my last day of school 5/26/24

its like 2 weeks left why u tryn be friendly now
u know i dont need u why u tryna stick around
u cant just repair the damage that u dealt
u gon have to man up fix it by ur fuckin self
ik u think that 1 day i will be wealthy
thats the only reason ur still here its for urself b
but what if i jus drop down and i die one day
all ur fond memories of me will they jus go fade away?

i hate how they dont mention me in conversations
my friends dont care about me they just dont wan say it
they go somewhere without me and i do not say it
but whole time im thinking like "why am i not invited?"
i get these urges in my head i try to fight it
im not doing the best but i just try to hide it
when i think about my stress i just go try to write it
but that shit rlly dont feel right im not tryin to capitalize (off my pain)

schools out + maxyne

tell me it’s a lie
tell me that i’m fine
tell me that i’m right
baby tell me that i’m right
yeah i look up 2 the sky
i got stitches in my side
i’m surrounded by the flies
i got needles in my eyes
watch the sword swinging by
yeh sit down at the shrine
yeh come n say goodbye
i cannot save ur life
i crave ur touch
i crave ur touch
n nothing else
n nothing else
we can walk through the rain
we can learn to love

i think i’m talking to myself
i think i’m talking to the walls
i could walk u through pain
but my wounds crave salt
can u tell that i’m deranged 
that i try 2 play it safe
but i fuck it up again
i’m with imaginary friends
i can summon who u want
i can tell that ur pissed off
go head n tell me who u saw
she was dressed in a shawl
i watched her crawl up all the walls
she was standing in the vault
she was smokin something strong
i can tell that shit was off
i give it up
up up up

tell me what was wrong
tell me what was wrong

tell me it’s a lie
tell me that i’m fine
tell me that i’m right
baby tell me that i’m right
yeah i look up 2 the sky
i got stitches in my side
i’m surrounded by the flies
i got needles in my eyes
watch the sword swinging by
yeh sit down at the shrine
yeh come n say goodbye
i cannot save ur life
i crave ur touch
i crave ur touch
n nothing else
n nothing else
we can walk through the rain
we can learn to love

my wounds crave salt (trial)

prod @bloodcryy

ion wna c sht ,, cuz it nvr stop
ion wna feel dis way, . bb can u talk / ?>
i can nvr tell u , if im rly up . /
ion wna b like dis. , ican nvr talk . /

pillz in my cup . ., bish im droppin 2. .
i can nvr look ,. at the same of u .. ,
ion wna quit all da drugz in me .. 
feelin like  . ., dis my destiny
pull up2 da bank quick. . feel like dyin on prescription ,.. /
i cant tell u if im livin,, ,all tha time i h8 dis sht
h8 dis sht,, bb i shuld fckn quit xx2

ho im done,., ion even feel the sun ,, 
stay inside , , bih u already won .  
call it quitz im abt2 slit my writst. .
fuck it up ,. ion wna b like dis
bae its ovr , ,
 ion wna c ya . .improlly dumb ,, i could nvr complete ya,  ,

feel like dyin off prescription freestyle [bloodcryY]

Grow  Up..

i ThoughUFuckin #Lovedme
I thought U TriedTo Care4Meeee
Whats the pointOfGoing Slow??
Thoughtu Said u DidntWanna Fuckin go
#IWantedUsToFkinGrow

In ur eyes i DontExist
Allthese Drugs I cantResist
#I #Wish #I #Wasnt #A #Burden #to #people
They put me Down with all ThesePins and Needles
im starting to #Believe that nothing is Real

i ThoughUFuckin #Lovedme
I thought U TriedTo Care4Meeee
Whats the pointOfGoing Slow??
Thoughtu Said u DidntWanna Fuckin go
#IWantedUsToFkinGrow

Huh.. U enjoyin UrselfYet?
Huh...... remember When we LookedAtThe Sunset
huh... allthistime U never gave a Shit
all this money ShowinUp, ik That youll NeverGet

i ThoughUFuckin #Lovedme
I thought U TriedTo Care4Meeee
Whats the pointOfGoing Slow??
Thoughtu Said u DidntWanna Fuckin go
#IWantedUsToFkinGrow

In ur eyes i DontExist
Allthese Drugs I cantResist
#I #Wish #I #Wasnt #A #Burden #to #people
They put me Down with all ThesePins and Needles
im starting to #Believe that nothing is Real

i ThoughUFuckin #Lovedme
I thought U TriedTo Care4Meeee
Whats the pointOfGoing Slow??
Thoughtu Said u DidntWanna Fuckin go
#IWantedUsToFkinGrow

grow (letmedisappear + takouri)

@51five

I Roll a Blunt then I Face It
I'm Pullin' Up and I'm Faceless
I Do Not Care if I Make it, Unless All of My Homies Make it.
I'm Still Right Here on the Pavement
From the Mud, Can Never Change Me
I Know the Shortcut You Can't Chase Me

Like, Where are You? I Ain't See You in That Field
I'm Right Here, With my Bros, Have Been For Years
If He Pull Up, Ima Make Him Face His Fears
Like, I Know Magic, Ima Make Him Disappear. 

Heh, Woah,
Yea Okay, It's Clear
Now I Know What I Just Need to Do to Persevere
I Just Took A Lil Blue Pill Now I Feel Weird
N Now I'm Hella Nauseous and I Don't Know How I Got Here.

Why Don't You Stay Right There You in my Crosshairs
Your Mind Got Malware, You Need Repairs
Some of You Be Inside So Much, You Need Real Air
You Need to Go Outside, Look at the Sky, and Breathe Air.
Walking Round' in Uncharted Territory, I'm Scared
I'm Walking Round' I Swear if Anyone Coming for me You're Dead
I'm Walking Round' With the Bros if you Try to Test us You Sped
I Got That Sound, and If You Try to Replicate it You Can't

Like, Where are You? I Ain't See You in That Field
I'm Right Here, With my Bros, Have Been For Years
If He Pull Up, Ima Make Him Face His Fears
Like, I Know Magic, Ima Make Him Disappear. 

Heh, Woah,
Yea Okay, It's Clear
Now I Know What I Just Need to Do to Persevere
I Just Took A Lil Blue Pill Now I Feel Weird
N Now I'm Hella Nauseous and I Don't Know How I Got Here.

qai & arrivals - wish i knew (kyoa)

love crysis

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