mixed/mastered by me
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produced by https://soundcloud.com/prodpitfall

neurotic (pitfall)

lyrics 

lovedi3d:
Sitting here and I wait lose myself I’m not okay thought I had it all figured out but now I realize I’m such a clown I hate myself I hate my face so many flaws Ima damn disgrace want to see it all go away every little ounce of this pain. 

cutdeep:
I’m sorry that I cannot take your pain away it’s so hard to look you in your face okay and laid on the floor in pouring rain ask if me if I’m fine I’m not okay not okay and begone I won’t give up on you I can’t forget what I did to you 


lovedi3d:
Thought I had it all figured out but now I realize I’m such a clown I hate myself I hate my face so many flaws Ima damn disgrace.

disgrace ft. cutdeep (prod. aureola)

produced, written, sang, mixed and mastered by me
lyrics- 
There’s no need to worry cause the future’s out of hand
I take all this medicine cause I keep writing plans
Need to stop looking at things this way
Because it’s slowly destroying my brain

So misunderstood, I burn holes in my eyes
Far from being saved, really wanna make things right
My brain is spilling out
Vibrations so high
I know that they all saw through my shielded lies
Face to face with myself, I see it in my eyes
I see the anger, I feel it burn inside
Replicating memories over in my mind
Rep - rep - rep - replicating memories over in my mind

There’s no need to worry cause the future’s out of hand
I take all this medicine cause I keep writing plans
Need to stop looking at things this way
Because it’s slowly destroying my brain
Thinking over and over (over and over)
About how I’m getting older (I’m getting older)
Need to stop looking at things this way (this way)
Because it’s slowly destroying my brain (destroying my brain)

Always chasing me, I read in between the lines
Keep myself busy, to distract me from the time
Rock tied to my feet, can’t be dragged towards the tide
Hands are so bloody, cause I’ve been thinking all night

Out by 6, I slam the door I bite my wrist
Bleeding face, I pick apart what they have made
I don’t like who’s looking back at me
Smashed the mirrors in my room cause they made me feel crazy
Please just calm down
I can’t stand this noise this music is too fucking loud
Visions getting hazy think I’m bout to break down

There’s no need to worry cause the future’s out of hand
I take all this medicine cause I keep writing plans
Need to stop looking at things this way
Because it’s slowly destroying my brain
Thinking over and over (over and over)
About how I’m getting older (I’m getting older)
Need to stop looking at things this way (this way)
Because it’s slowly destroying my brain (destroying my brain)

out of hand

pull me closer *recycleBin + garasu*

i know the mix is horrible, but just uhhh pretend like it sounds good idk 
also yes it's all pitched down slightly i was self conscious <3

shoutout freestyling hooks

lyrics:
she say put the lime in
ion know what the time is
i be staying silent
find me in here crying
told me keep it simple
whip crash like a rental
crackin wraps 2 reassemble
cant get u out the mental

overseas
flow like fit so lysterine
pop out white tee no mr clean
my pyt bitch we shootin scenes
nigga who u fooling
steady boolin
wrists look like to do list
opposite of living i put my bullet in n shoot it at me
settle mind poundin dread, fill it out w/ lead
MIA in my head, think im better dead
fuck it up off the drugs so i write instead
try run away, just to stay inside of my bed
stuck inside the cold, ion really go out
every song abt me because im always alone now
loud dissociating till my bowl within the background
jus a fuck up lil bitch guess u found out

she say put the lime in
ion know what the time is
i be staying silent
find me in here crying
told me keep it simple
whip crash like a rental
crackin wraps 2 reassemble
cant get u out the mental

rental_2003 (travis xantana)

prod. numb - https://www.youtube.com/@_numb

out on all platforms -
https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/notcursed/pretty-girls

wish i didn't feel a thing 
i don't want this at all
pick myself apart
i wont catch me when i fall
dangerous cycle
keep crying at walls
i cant look at myself
cus i'll end it all

don't you look at me
wish i could change myself
pretty girls look in the mirror and they hate themselves
i cry at her
cus she don't know herself
i look in the mirror just to break myself

detrimental to my mental health
i cant find the strength to rebuild myself
i'm done pretending
i'm overwhelmed
for this long, how have i dealt

wish i didn't look like this
i cry at the thought
'beauty is pain'
i guess that's true after all
painful cycle
but it's my fault
i can't look at myself
cus i'll end it all

don't you look at me
wish i could change myself
pretty girls look in the mirror and they hate themselves
i cry at her
cus she don't know herself
i look in the mirror just to break myself

pretty girls (numb)

Lyrics 

Intro 1:
I never actually told you
I’m the prince of darkness
Next in line to be king
I know I can feel it

Verse 1: 
I don’t even know no more
My body feels so sore
It hurts when you’re not more
It rains, I watch it pour
Bounce back, baby, I'ma bounce back
Live life alone, shit gets too cold
I’m on the road to go insane from losing you

Light in darkness, your heart I'ma harvest
Waste time, night lights, I want your mind
All alone, nobody cares about me
This life's depressing, I can’t lie

Intro 2:
Black and white, darkness and light
Earth and sky, though we may be apart
We’ll still support each other without fail
Yes, till next time we meet

Verse 2: 
I don’t even know no more
My body feels so sore
It hurts when you’re not more
It rains, I watch it pour
Bounce back, baby, I'ma bounce back
Live life alone, shit gets too cold
I’m on the road to go insane from losing you

light in darkness (p. kaydo)

lyrics:

oh your dark hair
with your cold hair
got me feeling numb again
want to stay in your darkest days
perfect to me but imperfect aswell

running and running away
I need to know if you'll stay
just tell me you need something
just know that I'll give you that
I'm trying my best for you
I'll give you everything and the bag
i'll hold you until the end
someday you'll be back in my arms

you tell me these things I'm still suffocating
I don't wanna deal with you no more

stop x4
fucking 
stop x4

I'm running away when you're not around
you're telling me lies right to my face
and i just lost the track of time

you can tell me all your secrets 
waking up alone is not what I want
you're so heartless my darling
want you to stay for awhile

running and running away
I need to know if you'll stay
just tell me you need something
just know that I'll give you that
I'm trying my best for you
I'll give you everything and the bag
i'll hold you until the end
someday you'll be back in my arm

you tell me these things I'm still suffocating
I don't wanna deal with you no more

stop x4
fucking

spotify

perfect (saint mike)

Fighting forever inside my head,
Peace is all I want,
Loving you is war, my heart is torn,
I'm falling.

Over when we write our goodbyes,
So don't give up on us,
Know that I still want us,
Loving you is hard, but you still have my heart.

Why do I even try,
I'm so worthless,
Rot my life away,
Say you'll always stay,
So is this all that I am these days?
I'll just lay and rot away,
Waste all my youth,
I don't even know who I am am, 
These days grow old, boring love,
Say you care still,
I feel numb,
Patiently just wait and fall,
I just feel so damn dumb.

i still want us (prod. michael harrison)

lyrics ⬇️ 

it never happened like I thought 
oh no
all alone until I rot
they gon pick apart my bones
I don’t need another slot
jus to fill a stupid spot and then screw up on the plot
ima roll up with with dawgs don’t you tell me I should stop
you don’t know what’s goin on. 
yea it’s not ur job

there’s opportunities everywhere 
i could keep going on
but I cut like silverware 
so now days I don’t want you to stare
i wish that we got along
but we’re not a perfect pair

yea why can’t you see way beyond the pier
i don’t appreciate all of the pressure here

it’s catching up to me
i think they want me dead
do they want me here
or do they want me there instead

I tried to show I want you less
cuz that’s the truth
Then you treat me like a pest
but don’t tell me what I do

what’s new
it’s an issue 
how I’m lost
with out you

i never the kind of cost
shoulda thought this through
cuz you ripped all of my wants and needs in two

what’s the obvious answer?
i don’t need you 
fake it with laughter 
but how can they prove
I can’t wait til after ik what to do
and I hope that she’s flattered when she hears the news

beyond the pier w/ decks (flesh x jolst)

feature by https://soundcloud.com/supachefm
mixed by https://soundcloud.com/polearm and me
cover art taken at screwyounick's first ever show he threw

Love should not be bought you should bring the receipts
Erase my memories like a control alt delete
The way I'm in her head got her kicking up her feet
But my path to success is a construction on my concrete

Yeah time's passing by
And I'm still asking why
I'm stuck in this room where it's all flashing lights
And yeah I gotta work this out yeah I gotta get my stripes
So my life mountain sized, and I ain't talking mike's

And now these days keep flying, some bright some gloomy
And I don't got no time for another groupie
Only consider plans if you already knew me
And we always stick together, banjo & kazooie
Late nights in my room and I'm still feeling vacant
Overthinking shit, hoping I make the payments
Wake up 4am and I'm stuck on the pavement
If this a daily routine i hope to escape it

Love should not be bought you should bring the receipts
Erase my memories like a control alt delete
The way I'm in her head got her kicking up her feet
But my path to success is a construction on my concrete

Yeah time's passing by
And I'm still asking why
I'm stuck in this room where it's all flashing lights
And yeah I gotta work this out yeah I gotta get my stripes
So my life mountain sized, and I ain't talking mike's

Just hit me back when November ends
I could wait for hours til you're up in bed, yeah
To realize you want him instead
When two lines are too alike they coincide
But as time will always fly it's who will die
I'm headstrong but waist down i'm paralyzed
Love's gone and what's left is you and i
If the blood shed I wouldn't let you go

Love should not be bought you should bring the receipts
Erase my memories like a control alt delete
The way I'm in her head got her kicking up her feet
But my path to success is a construction on my concrete

Yeah time's passing by
And I'm still asking why
I'm stuck in this room where it's all flashing lights
And yeah I gotta work this out yeah I gotta get my stripes
So my life mountain sized, and I ain't talking mike's

light in darkness (p. kaydo)

lovedi3d

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