how could i tell u? [prod. malikai + bailey]

my brains talking too loud and i can’t turn it off

when you can’t trust your friends how you know it’s gonna end when you can’t trust your head what is real and what’s pretend when you’re staring in the mirror and you’re seeing someone else now you turn to the one thing that won’t make you feel let down 

fell in love with a substance i use it like a crutch so why can’t i stand up fell in love with corruption i want you all to hate me it makes me feel so up

fell in love with a substance i use it like a crutch so why can’t i stand up fell in love with corruption i want you all to hate me it makes me feel so up

cause i feed off your negativity i’m the one that you hate to see doing better and better and better you know me i can say it’s whatever blood stained dreams hide inside of my sweater stole the stars from the sky hid em under my mattress couple thousand wishes hoping that i can manage couple thousand more hoping that i will vanish 

fell in love with a substance i use it like a crutch so why can’t i stand up fell in love with corruption i want you all to hate me it makes me feel so up

fell in love with a substance i use it like a crutch so why can’t i stand up fell in love with corruption i want you all to hate me it makes me feel so up

makes me feel so up

makes me feel so up

fell in love with a substance i use it like a crutch so why can’t i stand up fell in love with corruption i want you all to hate me it makes me feel so up

substance (yungspoiler & king theta)

(@prodnomu)
comic art by https://www.instagram.com/jigglytofu.art/
sample is 'adventure spirit' by yvette young 

always love u guys for all da support
//
Ill admit it im a little jealous 
When were together  
theres no problem no not whatsoever
But when im texting 
u i feel a stupid fucking pressure
My fucking head hurts 
Desperate times just call for desperate measures
Were both depressed and
Lately it feels like a lack of effort
In our affection
Lately it feels like there's been a sever
in our connection
Wish that you and me dint have this distance
So we’d feel better
cuz it all comes back when were together
Like hell to heaven 

dam hate how im selfish and full of myself
Manipulation’s not good for your health
I keep my mind off this sht but its always right there when im wishing that im someone else
someone that always jus knew how u felt
That way id take care of u by myself
I hate the feeling of helplessness tired of being a burden thats useless as hell
Stay by ur side
You say ur good but i still see u crying
You say its fine
Break out a smile
But i see through it i see that ur dying inside every time
But “its o kayyyy”
Thats what u say
But the fact that i know that ur hurting
Is the worst thing
Please jus go away
Cuz this feeling of familiar heartaches
It destroys me
But its okay
Buts its okay
Tell me its okay
yea its okay
yea its okay
yea its okay

yvette

spotify

حبار
presave link: https://t.co/zcilna2wz3
SPOTIFY!!!! https://open.spotify.com/track/6P113H5hoHNycRRxaFsMRK?si=1EmmqW-QSk2yovh_JwysEA
i didnt name this after squid game lol
wanted to name a song squid for like 3 months
sorry for the wait if u care haha
everything by me

ur not my buddy
my nose is bloody
stakes raised like someone is conducting
like a freight train u know i keep chugging
reflection polluted its murky and mucky
bobbing my head up
punching and ducking
the way that its set up
im feeling quite lucky
spent like 3 years on a pipe dream
idc if u dont like me

it's all bruised up its unsightly
stretch their hands out
then they bite me
gon be a man down if they try me
they better stay back for the time being
they stay on weird timing
if they dont care then theyre lying
gonna go nowhere with all that crying
sum days feel like -

chorus:
we might dance around n die
leave a msg in the sky
n ion even know why im standing here
how u feel u made it clear
wish i made it it outta here
x2

corny ass verse: 
right now they wanna talk down
breeze past them like a top down
u assume the worst what is that abt?
idk why ur talking now
idk why ur talking now

time is running its course
im beaten down to the core
i hate the sound of my voice
wish i could rip

too corny so censored

they stay on weird timing
if they dont care then theyre lying
gonna go nowhere with all that crying
sum days feel like -

chorus:
we might dance around n die
leave a msg in the sky
n ion even know why im standing here
how u feel u made it clear
wish i made it it outta here
x2

lyrics for funny song :)

squid

lamb

ଘ(੭*ˊᵕˋ)੭*
prod @blackwinterwells + @notlieu
notes://
hope u guys like dis song
i think the lyrics r cool
my fav song ive made 
prolly gone flopski but im simply bossed up !!
cover art is ma yard
lyrics :)
so much bullshit 
i cant stand it
i been crazy lately
i been going manic
ask me how do it 
baby idk i manage
wastin all my time n 
im wastin all the bandwidth

im sick !
n im overstimulated
neurons in my brain 
filled with information
she do cheap drugs
n cheap vacations
i do fake friends 
cant hold conversations 

i try hard to sleep at night
n i try so hard to make things right
n i struggle everyday just to close my eyes
i been shaking 
i been nervous
think im sleep deprived 

endorphins 
man u look so gorgeous
n u try so hard to ignore it
n u say u hate me
adore it
then the next u know
its the morning

im way to tired for dis
yeah i been way to tired 4 shit
n i try my hardest just to make things click
but it never works out so i think 

im sick !
n im overstimulated
neurons in my brain 
filled with information
she do cheap drugs
n cheap vacations
i do fake friends 
cant hold conversations

sick (p. blackwinterwells + lieu)

mixed signals +glaive (hibleach)

guitar by @ayyitsryo
mixed by me & @nathan_dagum
prod & performed by me:p

lyrics:

〔verse〕
recommended on twitter y u follow my friend
every step i take u always end up haunting my head
we can't even have a conversation
leaving me to think in bed this contemplation

stupid little small boy won't suffice
he jus busy thinking over suicide
and he's watched the sun rise too many times and it's about that time that he'd end his life

〔hook〕
10 bars in his mouth and muffled words
couldn't stop him from getting worse
he lifts his body right from this curse i wish he didn't make it hurt
it's all okay

〔verse〕
and she kiss me the next day ignore for the season
and we go back 2 texting ignore all the reasons
but it never ends up in my favor
i really only hope that u would see me later

sunlight gray skies touch on my head
i would rather spend all of today in bed
why u keep buzzing my phone
i'm busy falling asleep
pretend that nobody home
i'm crying under the sheets

dw abt me
i promise u i'm cool
i'm busy picking debris
i'm leaving u & school
i live inside my head
ur pants beside my bed
hold this glock to my head i go ahead n pull the trigger

〔hook〕
10 bars in his mouth and muffled words
couldn't stop him from getting worse
he lifts his body right from this curse i wish he didn't make it hurt
it's all okay

muffled words (st jimmy + ryo)

focus w/ SEBii

@blackwinterwells 

produced by me @scrufff & esprr

no clue

no clue  w/ blackwinterwells

(@prodnomu)

luv u guys thank u for waiting again <3 here is a song i wanted to drop on my bday

the sample is "still feel it all" by maro

//
my friends call me dumb
so I start to believe it
say it's a joke
but I know that they mean it
I know
theysay I'm never there
that I should spend more time with them
that's a funny idea

Cuz my friends are at home
And lately ive felt so depressed and alone 
Im back where i started like 3 years ago

and i constantly fail to show all my affection
and all of this shit builds up all of this tension
I wish I could give her the things she deserves
but keep fucking up I'm not learning my lesson
I'm dumb
I'm no fun
I have so many things in my life that are keeping me up
I fuck up anyways
it's almost as if I just throw it away

and my girl’s the best
she wakes up my phone with a good morning text
and makes sure to buy me my favorite gifts
and tells me goodnight after blowing a kiss
Yea i kno
But shes 3000 miles away
Telling me everything is okay
Always fuck up so im taking the blame

A little bit smarter, A little more strong 
A little bit better at accepting my flaws
A little bit faster when i answer your calls
A little more effort when im writing these songs

chorus

a few months ago I was living so well
peaking my mental and physical health
now I'm here
in the back with a face full of tears
in need of help but there's nobody near

**
But its fine
Cuz Ill take it one step at a time
Its okay if i cry
So i’ll keep it together
Cuz one day i know that this sht will get better 
**

dumb

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lily ^_^
@lovecompound + shini gang + jsvc

mixed signals +glaive (hibleach)

lovesickxo