Where do I put this anger.
Where do I put this anger.
Where do I put this anger.

Growing up a girl and letting people do things to you for years and years means your anger will turn biblical.
Anger that is incoherent.
Unidentifiable.
Insocoloable.

I was very young when I was cracked open.
Some things you should let go of, 
others you shouldn't.
Views differ as to which.
I keep ahold of everything, just in case.

Memory taps a gun to your inner skull and demands you bring back the dead.
Your father's blood will be your blood
until you're both rotting in the ground.
When you stare in the mirror,
his face will be glaring back at you with utter
disdain and disapointment.
Only a father can truly have that effect.

People ask me why I'm so angry, so dismissive, so aggressive.
I am angry because of my father.
Because he would come home,
wrinkled from work,
and slam the door so hard
the house would shiver.
I am angry because of my father.

Isaac did not forgive his father
when they returned home and he saw
the sidelong glance of his father's eyes.
That everything had changed.
Under the cold knife that kissed his skin on the mountain,
he knew they could never be the same again.

You tried to change, didn't you? Closed your mouth more, tried to be softer, prettier, less volatile, less awake...
You can't make homes out of human beings.
It was a long time ago. It doesn't matter anymore.
Yet, I cannot let go. I cannot let it go.

And yet, "why does tragedy exist?"
Because you are full of rage.
"Why are you full of rage?"
Because you are full of grief.

Parents are churches of damaged things.
There is no prayer in any religion that can cure
a child's fate.
I am not praying anymore.
I am longing: Please.

what did i do wrong

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It's a lost world, isn't it?

If you know me- You don't.

Lovette is a 21-year-old singer, songwriter, multi-instrumentalist, and producer. Trilingual and skilled in over twenty instruments, she has been creating and producing her own music since the age of eight. Her sound blends psychedelic, progressive, blues, and alternative rock, brought to life with her live band across Tennessee and North Carolina.

Her breakout songs were written during a two-week creative binge that inspired her to leave college and pursue music full-time. After a period of releasing songs anonymously, Lovette returned under her current name and quickly built a loyal fanbase. With over 100,000 SoundCloud plays and viral moments on TikTok and VK, she continues to connect deeply with her listeners and values every fan who supports her work.

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I am not wise. I am merely still and have long since renounced the luxury of immediacy. What I seek does not reveal itself to the hurried or the hungry.

what did i do wrong

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