Proficient to the Day

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I walk under moon, my paws cracking bones on frozen dirt
can’t stop howling
I smell your warmth behind walls, and I bite air like it’s flesh I can’t reach
howling, howling
There is bloodlust in my eyes
growling
You laugh from your towers, but I’m under your floors now, chewing through wires...
I hate your breath, I hate your fragile trembling world(hate your everyting)
I don’t hunt for food, I hunt because I need the scream
howling, howling
growling growling
Oowww, I’m hunting — not because I’m starving, but because I love the panic,
howl for me — scream for me — beg for me
Every time I tear into flesh, I remember who I am(howling, howling)
And baby, I am not your nightmare — I am worse, I am real.
howling, howling
howling, howling
howling, howling

howling (first vers)

Late Bloomer, Early Death

Honey Baby

Let’s start the day.
I already know how I’ll sound
same jokes, same tone,
like I’m reading myself out loud.
People like the way I fit,
so I keep fitting.
Even when I change,
I change in character.

I think about leaving the script,
but someone always laughs too soon,
and I crawl right back
to the part they know.

Everyone’s a mirror,
I’m the frame that never moves.
I built a life from feedback
and called it truth.
I don’t even need to try
habit wears my face for me.
It’s safer to be known
than to be free.

Sometimes I test it
say something out of character,
watch the air shift,
watch their eyes ask if I’m okay.
And I smile, like, “Just kidding.”
And there goes another little chance
to mean it.

It’s not fear, exactly
it’s recognition.
The story’s been running so long
it thinks it’s skin.

Everyone’s a mirror,
I’m the frame that never moves.
I built a life from feedback
and called it truth.
I don’t even need to try
habit wears my face for me.
It’s safer to be known
than to be free.

But what if I let it glitch?
Let the line drop mid-word?
Would they still hear me,
or would they just hear noise?
Maybe noise is closer
to what I meant all along.

Everyone’s a mirror,
but I can look away.
Maybe losing recognition
is the only honest play.
I don’t even need to try
the act’s already fading.
If freedom looks strange,
then let them call it breaking.

Anamorphosis

Dono or Support

Oh No {When Your Words Mean More to Me} (DJP)

🖤✨ Break
by The Miracle Syndicate

I break
I borrow
I live
I lose
I pray
I'm hallowed
I'm dead
Confused

I'll find you

What is love and what's it for
I'm stuck outside an open door
And no one's come to get me yet
I never got a second bet

I'm welcomed to your fantasy
If only you were make-believe
Oh, what is love and what's it for?
Oh, take me back and do me more
Ooh, take me back and do me more

I break
I borrow
I live
I lose
I pray
I'm hallowed 
I'm dead
Confused

I'll find you

Once you're here you're never gone
Oh, once you're here you're never gone

I fall from in out the cold
A piece of me that I can't hold
I love you as I lose you more
I break outside this open door

Catch me as I wash away
Oh, catch me as I wash away
Ooh, catch me as I wash away

I break
I borrow
I live
I loose
I pray
I'm hallowed
I'm dead
Confused
I break
I borrow
I live
I lose
I pray
I'm hallowed
I'm dead
Confused

I'll find you

Original Song: “Break” by Jonathan Rhys Meyers and Steve Erdody 
August Rush Soundtrack (2007)
All rights remain with the original copyright holders.
This is a non-commercial rework — a heartfelt reinterpretation made out of love for the song and its spirit.
We claim no ownership. No copyright infringement intended.

Reimagined by:
Elena Morgenstern, Nayeli Astra Xóchitl, and Brad Astra
Produced by The Miracle Syndicate
Mixed and mastered by Brad Astra at Nude Studio · Calgary · Canada
Label: Painful Records © 2025

Special Thanks:
To the ravens who guided our melodies, the universe for its endless inspiration, and to everyone who has been part of this journey. This music collection is dedicated to those who dream with their eyes open.

In Loving Memory:
To Rio, who always listened. 🐾🖤✨

Break

[Verse 1]
I swore I had the map in my hands
But all the bridges burned themselves down
And I can’t stand the way the mirror looks back
Another lonely night where I sink into the static (get it together)
Fade into the blankets, whisper, it doesn’t matter
I don’t care if the sun shows up
This weight’s enough
Got a suitcase heart and I’m testing my luck

[Pre‑Chorus]
Cliché yeah, another quiet meltdown
Highways humming, pulling me along
I’m begging for a break even if I’m far gone
Don’t wanna say goodbye, but the night feels endless

[Chorus]
How do I learn to love myself when the world feels out of phase?
Is anyone around to watch me drift down?
Don’t reach I've been sinking in my own sound
Why do I even try? What a wasted fight
Gotta shake this echo in my mind
Feel the dirt crawl over me alive
I’m running out of light

[Verse 2]
I wear a cold face now, please don’t ask questions
Stumbling through the city like I’ve lost connection
Nothing makes sense, paranoia in my chest
Try to drown the ringing, but it spreads
All these trembling emotions
Something’s gotta bend
These words are wilted, fading as they’re spoken
I scream into the open
But no one hears the end

[Pre‑Chorus]
Feels like I’m spinning nowhere fast, same old story
Every day repeats, painted dull and boring
Pulling at the seams from the inside
Don’t wanna say goodbye, but the night feels endless

[Chorus]
How do I learn to love myself when the world feels out of phase?
Is anyone around to watch me drift down?
Don’t reach I've been sinking in my own sound
Why do I even try? What a wasted fight
Gotta shake this echo in my mind
Feel the dirt crawl over me alive
I’m running out of light

Why do I even try? What a wasted fight
Gotta shake this echo in my mind
Feel the dirt crawl over me alive
I’m running out of light

echo

Digital Love

Happily Ever After - out now: https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/crying6ixx/happily-ever-after-feat-na

Stream

Happily Ever After (Feat. N/A)


Whispers in the powder room
Secrets shaped like sweet perfume
Eyes that speak no words allowed
Power hidden in a crowd

Hearts align in silent signs
Every move is by design

Pink Protocol irresistible
Follow the rule, unbreakable
One look, you fall
It says it all
Pink Protocol unforgettable
She owns the night, unshakable

Smiles that twist the world around
Soft command without a sound
Lips that lure with quiet grace
Victories won face-to-face

Mystery in every glance
Nothing left to chance

Pink Protocol irresistible
Follow the rule, unbreakable
One look, you fall
It says it all
Pink Protocol unforgettable
She owns the night, unshakable

Not a law but a legend
Not a threat just ascension
Beauty sharp as a key
Unlocking destiny

Pink Protocol unstoppable
Take the lead, untouchable
One touch, you fall
It rules us all
Pink Protocol undeniable
She writes the code unbreakable


THE PINK PROTOCOL

This album is my intimate descent into the fractured landscapes of identity, love, and spiritual collapse — and the difficult ascent that follows. It is my attempt to map the inner night: the moment when my sense of self breaks open, when love disintegrates, when the world betrays what is most fragile in me, and when my mind reveals its many hidden faces. Through each track, I trace a raw psychological journey, moving from ruin to revelation with unflinching emotional honesty.

Feel free to tell me what you think of my songs, I'd love to chat with you, and leave me a little red heart.❤️

Anamorphosis

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