Name: Lupus And Lepidoptera by Lucy Lai
Duration: 3 min 15 s
Description: A new age solo piano album by Lucy Lai (c. 2013)

A new age solo piano album by Lucy Lai (c. 2013)

Lupus And Lepidoptera

Reading with the NEC Philharmonia on April 27, 2018. Conducted by Hugh Wolff.

Program note:
I started writing this piece during summer 2017, which was a time when I was playing full- time in a funk/rock band - going on tour, writing pop songs, and recording an album. I had a substantial amount of material before starting my first semester at the New England Conservatory, a time of rigorous course work, learning about new music, going to concerts, and listening to my peers. I almost wanted to ditch the material I wrote during the summer - it's not good enough, I told myself. My best friend at MIT introduced me to the term imposter syndrome, which is apparently a common feeling at MIT, a feeling based on self-doubt where you feel like you achieved things through luck or deceiving others. I couldn't help but think about that term too while at NEC. Instead of ditching the material, I decided to repurpose it to build a snapshot of this time period, representing a clashing of worlds and ideas and of my own self-doubt and anxieties. It has been a cathartic process. This may have become a quite post-modern piece

I was inspired by jazz/gospel musician Cory Henry who wrote a short catchy melody he affectionately calls "NaaNaaNaa" that he would sing to himself whenever he felt stressed or anxious. A few years ago, I wrote myself a short 4-measure melody for the same purpose. I use this short melody in this piece all throughout, but is constantly warping in tonal language or rhythm, until it presents itself in its most recognizable form in the middle of the piece and at the very end.

Lupus And Lepidoptera

Lucy Lai

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