castle (w/ altwys.)

No sudden changes

Life Chosen

bad girl haunt me always thinking
is it fleeting will you stay with
me if im me cant see through
anxiety you're blistering
i need you over cant get over
sadness isnt okay sober
good enough to wrap around you
never enough to surround two
bodies suspended in water
swallow freezing ocean water
smoke while we fuck we dont breathe it
why dont we talk about dreaming
she told me the walls were leaking
im not one for heavy breathing
hurt my tongue when you kiss me 
i bite my cheeks and hope i bleed

i bite my cheeks and hope i bleed

ill start today making my way away
who says you have to wait to have anything
i know what you really want isnt just me
thats what i wanted too but you fucked it up more than you can see
i want to wake up dead
never feel a thing again
and i wont be scared of it
i just need to
and im not even sure if im pushing or falling away
out of your arms that held on too loose to me
cause the words that come out of your mouth are mold on my skin
and right now i bet you regret ever letting me in
i want to wake up dead
never feel a thing again
and i wont be scared of it
cause everything is just pretend
i think i want you to know
all the places that id rather go, than be
with someone who understands how i feel
and it hurts that you're so much like me
and i guess thats why i think we should be
as far apart as can be

get out

if i cleaned everything cover pt 2

mind trapped in flesh
feel my distress
i cant hear you
i cant heal you

see me in dreams
its not the real me
waking up to nothing

open his eyes and hes smaller than anything hes ever known
floating in nothingness running from everything hes ever known
rip him away from the boy in the mirror he wants to be known
holding his insides they spill out so easy dont want them to go

holding softly
lose my senses
feels exhausting
conscious ended

slow decay 
this skin will change
but mind the same
as always

open her eyes and shes smaller than anything shes ever known
floating in nothingness running from everything shes ever known
rip her away from the girl in the mirror she wants to be known
holding her insides they spill out so easy dont want them to go

today i found a gun with bullets

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