Copy of unconditional (ft. heartbreakP)

Big love to:  https://soundcloud.com/akacarpenter
https://linktr.ee/Rivilin

mentally fucked in my own way devil wanna maintain 
another connection with me so I just cannot sustain
stomaching another fucking lie 
like you pull me into the abyss and smother out my eyes

playing naughts and crosses on my arms to tell if im alive
I don’t really feel the pain so I still question my life
so the devil tells me its just the god that I have to blame
gave me too much self-awareness so I think I am insane

seeing double fucking vision of the knife to my neck yeah
question if I really want to do this but I know that I just won’t
cus im a fucking coward yeah I admit, 
I couldn’t defend my friends, they let go in a fucking minute

tell me have you ever seen a flame extinguish by self-loathing
watch the light go out of their eyes as you know they’re not coping
so we sit in this room, watch the water rise above our necks
yeah I can’t catch my breath yeah I can’t feel a fucking thing

so I detest
about the way you fucking look at me, I feel your eyes burning so deep
and I confess
I couldn’t stand the way you spoke to me so I just cut off and fucking 
left this hell
where you welded shackles yeah all around and now im sinking further down
into myself
im building a wall above around my head so I hope i don’t let you fucking in

- AKA Carpenter

Oh, creep in the skin like an insect
Finding my solace I lay in the nest
and I soar like an albatross, I rest in the air

but im more like a phoenix, come burn me and test if I care
when you're looking your best, they stare,
so you better pose for a photo
I fuck with the voyeurs when they putting bread in my pocket
I'm only complaining the moment it stops

The eyes can weigh heavy like lead vests, be careful please
yeah you stole my heart like a vandal, oh, but you're there for me
I'm lost in myself and I lean on the lamp post, I'm embarrasing
I'm settling now with my fate, I take lemon and ice with the kerosene

Save Us Ft. AKA Carpenter

RiverKinn
"Recollide"
Produced by RiverKinn

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After the damage that you've dealt
You have the nerve to step back in
And interfere with all my plans
I know you miss the way it felt
When I gave into your impossible demands
But you won't convince me again
That you and I could recollide
As if I wouldn't recognize the warning signs
And maybe this is the end
But if I die at least I'll never have to live a lie
With blood on my hands

Blood on my hands
With blood on my hands
With blood on my hands
At least I'll never have to live a lie
With blood on my hands
Blood on my hands
With blood on my hands
With blood on my hands
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"KINTSUGI"
12 Track Album
Produced by RiverKinn

STREAMING:
SPOTIFY: bit.ly/kintsugiSP
APPLE MUSIC: bit.ly/kintsugiAM
OFFICIAL SITE: riverkinn.com/kintsugi

@riverkinn

PLAY DEAD MMXXI

Kintsugi

Recollide

My album Melancholy is officially stream-able on all music platforms. Thank you to everyone who was involved in the creative process of this album.
Enjoy.

i fell in love

ON ALL MAJOR PLATFORMS🖤

LYRICS :

oh rev please don't cry
OH REV PLEASE DON'T CRY!
oh rev please don't cry
OH REV PLEASE DON'T CRY!

Too down, baby let me go
I just took a pill and then I woke up on the floor
17 grams I won't ever let her go
I get high all day just so I can get low x2

I'm out my mind can't take it
stop drinking but afraid I'll start shaking
Dope don't work no more i'm anxious
pills don't work but still I take them
these rules I live by dangerous
If I slip my life might take it
Hate these thoughts I hate these places
That you take me to I'm anxious

Oh rev, please don't cry, let us fill your head with lies
you can do it one more time
just take one hit and you'll be fine
instead, take your life turn it over get inside
please come back don't waste your time
we all get down and sad sometimes

but I know
that this ain't good for me
yeah i know 
drugs make the worst of me
i'm so low
why are you hurting me?
I'm so low
I don't deserve to be

Oh Rev please don't cry x 4
"Please, don't let me keep you a prisoner here. It's okay now, forget about me. You know what? No, I want you to remember me. Just once in a while."

Too down, baby let me go
I just took a pill and then I woke up on the floor
17 grams I won't ever let her go
I get high all day just so I can get low x2

Fucked up I hate this maybe I'm
Too gone can't take this borderline
These drugs make me feel alright
No I can't stop but I'm fine x4

REANIMATION (prod. V-E beats)

Prod.Lil Faradeyy

Falling to the floor no i can't take more of this (no i can't take more , no i can't take more)
as reality breaks apart i get left for dead
now i'm asking myself what the fuck is in my head (i don't know)
but i had to give in as reality is cavin in
as reality is cavin in

Slow down em with fake thoughts
Boy rain streaming down my face, snot
Got weak knees and a tight chest
Feeling so low screaming FUCK THIS

It be hard to live when you like this
Time still when you fighting

But fuck around ima hold it down
Ima use it up n live a LIFE IM PROUD

Its hard to fucking stand up when your beat down
Mind broke legs are feeling weak now
Rundown town, I got a grim sound
Waiting for a meltdown, THIS IS WHAT THEY WANT NOW

Lost my sense of time
how can a couple seconds feel like a lifetime?
i swear i was doing alright
but then out of nowhere it hit me

Falling to the floor no i can't take more of this (no i can't take more , no i can't take more)
as reality breaks apart i get left for dead
now i'm asking myself what the fuck is in my head (i don't know)
but i had to give in as reality is cavin in
as reality is cavin in

Stream On Spotify

Left For Dead (Feat.$LOTHBOI)

ART BY SUICIDALGALLERY
https://www.instagram.com/suicidalgallery/

LYRICS:

jealousy got me messed up
fade out with a cloak made of pain
brittle bones start to snap I watch you come back 
the mental illness covers my eyes black

empathy isn't needed
this world that I create is my own little hell
watch your family just concede when they ask you to leave
yeah the cracks in my skin start to fray

it's like my bodies stuck in static, all my emotions going manic 
as the floor just starts to crumble and im falling, falling down
I harbor guilt from the resentment, maybe love was never mentioned
mind is filled with ignorance as the devil starts to consume

aspirations with the drugs take some more it's not enough
id rather feel something empty than deal with all the pain
a cloud it forms around my head depression says he's now my friend
im always empty all alone, I guess ill face this on my own

it’s what I see in my dreams, is this real watcha mean
contradicting on every word that I try to say
I try to be only me, it's all the hate yeah it seethes
there’s complications yeah every time that I try to stay

im on my knees now crawling pushing down, try to leave
this hallucination is clouding up your mental state
feel the flame at my feet watch the sky swallow me
their’s hesitation on all the words that I try to say


PARADOXX:

On all the words i try to say 
But i can't get them out of me

It's a double edged sword 
every time i speak i get blood on my palms 

I try to stay calm and collected but everything's breaking down on me 
I'm selective of the words that i speak but it's counquering me 
I get trapped in my mind all the time 

I feel my body rotting away from inside out 
But i can't be bothered to scream , I'm too weak to make a sound

And all this angst , all this doubt is eating me up alive
But i let it happen so who can i blame , I'll seek myself out

Hard Ft. Paradoxx

https://soundcloud.com/nicolassales

Still waiting for the day when it makes sense
Been having visions of the world where it all ends
Tried to make it known, 
tried to tell my friends
Where to go when you die
well that depends

I’m in the deep end
Tryna make amends
Tired of the trends
I’m underwater 
And I’m coming up 
I got the bends
They can’t understand
Wrote a whole paragraph
Never hit send

They always hating I don’t listen to that nonsense
You’re looking at the world through the wrong lens
Surrounded by some people they some fake friends
You’re worth so much more 
Life is priceless

I’m in the deep end
Tryna make amends
Tired of the trends
I’m underwater 
And I’m coming up 
I got the bends
They can’t understand,
Wrote a whole paragraph
Never hit send

Never hit send
When does this end
Love from every angle got me bending like a square

Overflow the pot
Let it spill away
Inspire with the thought
I radiate the way
Treat it like a game
I level with the pain
I let the mana drain
Arcane up in my veins

Cast a spell
Unlocking all the fucking chains
Hundred fold
But I'm pushing through decay
Swimming up a hill
Fighting with the waves
Crashing down
I create away the day

Create away the day
Thriving from the pain
Living in the grey
Evolving everyday
Create away the day
Thriving from the pain
Living in the grey
Evolving everyday

Create away the day
Thriving from the pain
Living in the grey
Evolving everyday
Create away the day
Thriving from the pain
Living in the grey
Evolving everyday

Still waiting for the day when it makes sense
Been having visions of the world where it all ends
Tried to make it known, 
tried to tell my friends
Where to go when you die
well that depends

I’m in the deep end
Tryna make amends
Tired of the trends
I’m underwater 
And I’m coming up 
I got the bends
They can’t understand
Wrote a whole paragraph
Never hit send

The Bends

⸸ MUSIC VIDEO ⸸

$LOTHBOI x Nicolas Sales - The Bends

Miserable (prod Lukey)

rain (construct)

rain (construct) (prod. UNREMORSE)

Replay

love is conditional when its from you

featuring @heartbreakp
produced by lil chick

[lyrics]
Love is conditional when it’s from you 
I must have missed it you saying you changed 
You playing the victim because you have to
Only point of view you wanna bring is true pain 
That’s a damn shame 
I thought you would help 
Turns out I was wrong and so I left you to yourself 
When the plans changed 
You put me through hell 
Now I can take the blame cause you can’t put it on yourself

Said Hate is conditional when it’s been Been deserved And love turns to fiction when every bridge gets burned 
Pain is medicinal every scar I’ve earned 
I’ll be the criminal if it’s on my terms 
But you know me better
I know that nothings forever 
These days I’m stuck in my head like I been changing the weather
See emotions cut off and severed
I don’t wanna change for whoever
Bring it back I need to recenter
Sometimes I won’t lie

I’m sick of fighting so I quit 
I took the drugs I gave you back so I can trip
Pain inside I smile I can’t let you know I slipped
I can’t give the satisfaction poison dripping from my lips 
Conversation left me damaged after all the trust I give 
Maybe it’s been a while 
I’m good with my only child 
My son here my love i’m happy watching him he runs around 
Learn to keep the family close, not my family you bugging out 
You became my only home, can’t be here if you not around


Love is conditional when it’s from you 
I must have missed it you saying you changed 
You play the victim because you have to 
Only point of view you wanna bring is true pain 
That’s a damn shame 
I thought you would help 
Turns out I was wrong and so I left you to yourself 
When the plans changed 
You put me through hell 
Now I can take the blame cause you can’t put it on yourself

Said Hate is conditional when it’s been Been deserved And love turns to fiction when every bridge gets burned 
Pain is medicinal every scar I’ve earned 
I’ll be the criminal if it’s on my terms

unconditional

stream

unconditional (ft. heartbreakP)

LYRICS:

I’m back on a roll
Back on the same thing
What would you do if my name changed
How would you feel if I died here
Baby I promise I’m okay
I’m back on a roll
Back on the same thing
What would you do if my name changed
How would you feel if I died here
Baby I promise I’m okay

I’m lying down with everything I hold inside
Who am I, if I told you I was good you know I lied
I fuckin hate it here, why’s it always like this
These drugs make me feel like a whole different person, I’m worthless
I’m fuckin locked down my heart hurts but I could never die
You were all that I had I pray to god I wonder why
If I could take back one instance I know what I would do
It’d be the last time you saw me you broke my heart in two

I’m back on a roll
Back on the same thing
What would you do if my name changed
How would you feel if I died here
Baby I promise I’m okay
I’m back on a roll
Back on the same thing
What would you do if my name changed
How would you feel if I died here
Baby I promise I’m okay

I’m fuckin locked down my heart hurts but I could never die
You were all that I had I pray to god I wonder why
If I could take back one instance I know what I would do
It’d be the last time you saw me you broke my heart in two

locked down

locked down (prod. sorrow bringer)

I survived

Cheers to my mans 
https://soundcloud.com/sepha-joey

Lyrics:

Rivilin
--
there’s something creeping down my bones
I think it’s you cus you’re the only who makes this your home
I don’t wanna know where you are
your drowning at my thoughts, but I think that I know I’m alone

I know I’m something that you discard
just like my father I was never fucking worth it in the end
my skins peeling off my fingertips
I think I’ve had I enough, I know that you wish I was dead
 
twinkle little star
how could I ever reach this far
wont you cut me up
break me down and say I’m all yours

manic depressed in the brain I’m fucked anyway can’t live a day without thinking I’m insane
these walls are breathing all again I see these faces laugh in the end
at me and I think it’s all pretend but deep down they know there alive inside me
breathing, changing, morphing me into something I hate

I can’t take it anymore man I wanna say that I’m ok but I’m not
I’m breaking down on the daily, shaking everyday I feel like I’ve lost
its ok, its ok, I never mattered anyway, just a fucked up in high school
lost where I wanted to be, lost what I wanted to see cause of you

family petitions to get admission into mental hospitals I hate
cause they don’t wanna see me anymore they can’t deal with this manic state
waking up in my bed alone, waking up all again its shown
that I have no faith in you, I don’t have faith in my own soul

where I do go in this journey, where do I turn when the path just always ends
with you and me facing each other turning pages I can’t mend
all these scars there shown deep down in my skin
I feel like, I’ve lost again

SEPHA.
--

Another 9 to the 5 
Another break to the bottle 
Break my pride and throttled
From the dust
Of the drab 

I’m Living for someone else
Im living someone else’s struggle 
Head gains weight and strains 
I’ll take a flight 
From my brain
Medicate - Play ur game

Well
Talk buys time in murder
Escape u then I’ll serve ya
Night sky beats like a war drum
It beats my ears 
In demon hums 
It treats my deer
To forest scum 
Consumed by willing forces
Participate In Clauses 

alarm beats 20 times
Out of speak out of rhyme 
Wake up 
Get to fuck
Another day 
Another grind X2
Fuck.

Bad taste (Ft. SEPHA.)

PRODUCED BY sketchmyname

Lyrics:

I thought of this earth, the way I see it it's getting much worse.
I wasn't really ever assured of it, walk through the night and I know what my purpose is,

I hope that you know the same, I'm with the stars and I'm playing this game, 

one out of billion trillions, focused on making my millions,
my emotions I'm not feeling em.





Float in the cosmos, and I've got no one to follow.

I'm lost in everything I know,and it feels like my center is hollow.



The sky is for boys, the clouds are for men, 
High on the planes, I soar through the mist,
lost in my thoughts, I hope this is it.
leaving my past, i focus within.



Darkness settles in the night, drunk as fuck i hit a light, 
walk this route like 20 times, hit the streets forget my life, 
all this time ive spent alive, ask myself what can i find?
walk this road so dead inside, please just dont forget i tried.   x2 



I know this isn't the place, no one wanna see my face
All of the people they try to come tell me that I gotta change, 

But I know that I'm not the same.

You don't wanna come and start us, everyone wanna depart us,
I know that everyone not us, I know I've gotta do what I gotta.



I've gained back my faith, now I'm losing my touch,
This is a feeling I cant get enough,
Now I'm 50 stories up high in the skies, see rainy days all up in the clouds

Look at my view, I'm lost in my mind, 
Shibuya block while I smoke out my lungs,
Now I'm dosing right off with my bro on my right,
Now it's the night-time, so I know I might, 



Darkness settles in the night, drunk as fuck i hit a light, 
walk this route like 20 times, hit the streets forget my life, 
all this time ive spent alive, ask myself what can i find?
walk this road so dead inside, please just dont forget i tried.   x2

tøkyø. (prod. sketchmyname)

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