theres no way out as far as i see, im going through hell can you find me

51:50 suicidal. 🦇 whos insane? 🤪 hate me while im here love me while im lost

Really not fight what did found against sun great giving all hope is not dough

Favourite part of the song… it hits different

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Songs I have on repeat

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Produced by Yog$
Mixed & Mastered by Chris Stiliadis

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Ollie - Speed Limit ft. Powfu

Balenciaga Blues feat. Recently Deleted

Track thirteen from Make It Through Fall

All production, lyrics and vocals by Lil Xtra

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She says with eyes of stone
The wine is not for drinking 
I thought I’d found my home 
Don’t know what I was thinking 
Summer came and went now 
I made it through the fall... 
You were everything I wanted 
Now I want nothing all

And now winter sits upon me 
And I can’t wait till spring 
The pain will not subside,
But oh, the joy the sun might bring 
And perhaps I will see you 
I really hope I don’t 
Cause you said you’d always be there 
But we both know that you won’t

Cut my hair and change my name 
And tell me “now you look the part” 
Won't you do just as I tell you until 
I can’t tell you apart, 
Why can’t you just be perfect?
Can’t you just fix what’s inside?
Yeah You said you won’t forget me 
I can see how hard..
See how hard you've tried...

Make It Through Fall

Winter

Lyrics:

Lovemark, yeah love scars
can't go far with my heart
when you come in my car
all i do is go fast

but how long will it last
i still hang in the past
i still want what you have
am i all? do you care?
(do you care)

Hiding my pain
there's poison in my veins
going insane
the lack of You is driving me crazy

don't know what i'm saying
there's nothing there that you're saving
and you know that i'm praying 
i can't feel the rain

Pop another "X" pill
always aim for the kill
i don't know what i feel
am i dreaming or real?

Up for you to decide
am i dead or alive?
wanna come for the ride?
i little pain on the side

Lovemark, yeah love scars
can't go far with my heart
when you come in my car
all i do is go fast

but how long will it last
i still hang in the past
i still want what you have
am i all? do you care?

I still really want what we both had
writing all our stories in my note pad
had you in my sights but i missed it
i'm an odd number i'm a misfit

I wan't some real friends that don't stab my back
getting sick of fakes and the heart attacks
my life, always filled with hurt
why do i always get what i don't deserve

i've been acting up on my mood swings
aint feeling shit no toothaches
you're my weakness like fruitcake
i might dip this place to a new state

keep on eating fast food it feels like i'm starving
lately i've been messed up, I don't feel my heart beat
you said i don't try but try, my heart
left an indent like a sharkbite mark

when you coming back? 
'cause i need you
slowly i'm desolving
like i'm see through

Lovemark, yeah love scars
can't go far with my heart
when you come in my car
all i do is go fast

but how long will it last
i still hang in the past
i still want what you have
am i all? do you care?

Lovemark (feat. Powfu)

youtu.be/-HaeMbV5UQU
Idleglance video <3

I’m fucked up 
In my room
All Alone
Where are you?
Guess you found out
They Always find out
That I’m fucked 
In the head
Think I’m better off dead
Nothing improves
Not even my mood
And this world 
Hates my guts
Always down on my luck
Maybe one day
I’ll find my way
But for now
I’ll just pout
Guess I’ll see you around
When the spring comes
I hope that spring comes

Da da da da da da da da da da da da da da da dum
Da da da dum

I’m fucked up
All alone
Broken heart
Broken home
Can you feel it
I want you to feel this
When I say you were loved
I know it’s not enough 
But I mean it
Just know that you’re missed
And i hate 
Everything
This life doesn’t mean a thing 
Far as i know
Just let me go
Cause the spring
Never comes
Frozen bones
Blackened lungs
Cause i can’t hide
From cold on the inside

Da da da, da da dum, no the spring never comes
Cause i can’t hide, cold on the inside

Da da da, da da dum, no the spring never comes
Cause i can’t hide, cold on the inside

Spring Never Comes

Song Title - Fiction
Production & Vocals By Lund.

Lyrics: 

Feelings come and go
Time to hit the road 
Can’t afford
To watch this 
time move past
Im never going back 
Moving forward 

Lying to yourself 
You don’t really need me 
Fiction in your head
That you keep on believing

People come and go
Everybody knows
Love is potent
Let you go
Had to let you go
Now I’m hoping 
You get closure
Cause I’m feeling 
so much better 
now were over

With you
It ain’t right 
To many missed calls 
And long nights 
I heard your voicemail 
to many times
And I aint wasting no more love on you
X2

Open up my chest
Deep into my heart
Do you see it
A shard of glass 
I can feel it slice  
as I’m breathing 
it cut my strings 
Now my fucking 
heart isn’t beating 
And from my brain 
is where I’m bleeding 

Deep inside my mind
Scared of what I’ll find
Our memories linger
hurt confined 
Love the way you’d lie
With a smile
I’m saving me
There’s no wrong or right
This is survival
Put me down
You'd put me 
in the ground
No revival

No revival 
No survival
Im 51:50
Suicidal
there’s no way out 
As far as I see   
I’m going through hell
Can you find me

Boy you left me down
Broken on the ground
Im so sad 
cause your always gone
Out there on the road 
I’m not mad 
I just wish that you would
Call me sometime
I just wish that
We could fucking rewind

But 

Girl you let me down
You been running round 
Im not dumb
Got me staring down 
The barrel of a loaded gun
You burned our bridge
And we can’t turn back time
I got to go 
Before I lose my mind

Feelings come and go
Time to hit the road 
Can’t afford
To watch this 
time move past
Im never going back 
Moving forward 

Lying to yourself 
You don’t really need me 
Fiction in your head
That you keep on believing

People come and go
Everybody knows
Love is potent
Let you go
Had to let you go
Now I’m hoping 
You get closure
Cause I’m feeling 
so much better 
now were over

Going going’ gone
I think my soul is moving on
Hate me while I’m here
Then love while I’m lost
Do we fight to feel the pain
Or Do we bleed to feel the same
Why’s the world so fucking cold 
Why do I often feel alone

Fiction

Song title - Reflection
Production & Vocals by Lund.

Lyrics: 
I look in the mirror
and I hate my reflection
watch hands move on the clock
till my head spin
now all I can do is 
pick apart my imperfections 
don't give me fate love
just give me fake love

(X2)

shouldn't put me down 
your words can be ever painful
say you hold me down
but attack from every angle
I always hold u down 
but you never come around

I couldn't help myself 
you smiled and I was lost
in a lovesick world endorphins 
they can be toxic 
you played me for a fool
cause love was never an option

I want to wake up 
and feel like 
this life is a blessing 
instead I'm drinking whiskey 
loading bullets in my F-N
leave everything I own
to my family and best friends
and I know it aint your fault
I just can't keep on pretending 
that I love my life and 
everything is fine around me 
while I feel like I'm drowning 
demons they surround me 
talking very loudly
all inside my head
I know its all inside my head
cause

I look in the mirror
and I hate my reflection
watch hands move on the clock
till my head spin
now all I can do is 
pick apart my imperfections 
don't give me fate love
just give me fake love

shouldn't put me down 
your words can be ever painful
say you hold me down
but attack from every angle
I always hold u down 
but you never come around

Reflection

V1:
Yes Ive thought of things
I wanna say but never said it
Searching how to get a girls attention up on reddit
Sick of all these worries
Burying my face hiding
wishing I could talk
Without awkward silence 
Shit im indecisive
never make my mind up
Say I’m not depressed cuz 
isn’t everybody kind of
Hope that imma win u over eventually
Wonder if I can steal the heart of someone better than me

C:
And I Don’t care for what Ive got
cuz you’re the only one I want 
But I can’t reach whats in my sight
Take a step into my life

V2:
Diving into the weekend
All I do is sleep in
Friends hit me up hardly
all they do is party
How am I supposed to have fun
If I know that I’ll never be the one
Diving into the night time
All I do is write rhymes
Flipping through these pages
Nothing ever changes
Show me how to have a good time
Cuz I can never get this shit right

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step into my life (prod. ocean)

Prod. by Dethro Beats & Ouse

Lyrics:

[OUSE]
You made me feel so alive and now you're way too upset
and i don't sleep at night i'll go insane from the stress
Think I just need some time from all this pain in my head
and i'm like this all the time, i feel like i'm dead

when i see you walk-
when i see you walking by
i feel so lost
and i miss you by my side
the moment stops
the seconds we meet eyes
my heart drops 
i'm terrified

and there are spiders in the light
would i feel more dead if i died
i guess if i set it aside tonight

[ELIJAH MIDJORD]
you are the one-
you are the one for me
i dont know what-
i dont know what you see
if you stay we can be so happy
you make my life feel so complete

you broke my heart
broke but i'm alive
left these scars
my heart is on the line
i'm with the start
i'm with them when i'm high
you broke my fall
but left me there to die

[OUSE]
You made me feel so alive and now you're way too upset
and i don't sleep at night i'll go insane from the stress
Think I just need some time from all this pain in my head
and i'm like this all the time, i feel like i'm dead

[ANTON LÍNI]
I've been walking alone since you left me
This house feels cold it's empty
the things on my own i can't fight it
i think you should know i don't like it

i've been walking on fire since we faded
if you can be mine i would make it
who can it be since i lost you
going out of my mind, i want you

[OUSE]
crawl into my bed
and wait for the comedown
inside my head my psyche gon' run out
i still hear what you said
played to me on repeat
it's so clear to me
that you wanted to leave

i've been in the headspace for 3 days staight
and i don't think i can still feel my face
and i say
can you love me just the same
as yesterday?

You made me feel so alive and now you're way too upset
and i don't sleep at night i'll go insane from the stress
Think I just need some time from all this pain in my head
and i'm like this all the time, i feel like i'm dead

Like Im Dead (feat. Elijah Midjord & Anton Líni)

Just Like You Do (ft. Thomas Reid)

Featuring @rxseboy
Produced by @pauli-niemi

Hope u enjoy!!
Music video for it up on my Youtube channel <3

YouTube

Laying on my porch while we watch the world end.

Produced by ENRA

LYRICS:

Dont fall asleep yet
I'm wide awake still
I wonder if u think about me when u lay still
Don't fall asleep yet
Promise me you’ll stay here
Are my pictures on you wall still like last year

Don't fall asleep yet
I'm wide awake still
I wonder if u think about me when u lay still
Its been a long time
Miss u around me
When I dream about u r u dreaming bout me


Verse

Dont fall asleep
Im wide awake
I hope that we
Have brighter days
U still have my heart
So don’t let it break
I want u all mine forever
I’ll put my heart on a projector
I wish we settled all the struggles we got into
The best part of my life was with you

Rap

Think about u too much
Trynna fall asleep 
But my eyes won’t shut
Said u need a break
And thats ok
But when u feel alone
Always got my place
Life throws curves
Sorry for your loss
Praying for your peace
When the night feels long
Writing songs for you with my guitar
Leave if u want but please don’t go far

SPOTIFY

don't fall asleep yet

prod me <3

lyrics:
she said, 3 facts i, still cry too
i'm losin' faith in my ability to like you
i'm losin' touch with who i was and now i fight you
to be honest we should probably say goodbye soon

and now i'm drunk and i'm peekin at your homescreen
makin sure i'm still there, hopin you'll still hold me
and now you're drunk and you're thinkin bout the old me
where did all the time go, why do i feel lonely?

and now we're drunk and were listenin to cars pass
thinkin bout the good days, will they ever come back
and now we sulk, while we listen for the rain drops
listen for the thunderstorms and hope the fuckin pain stops

this is not a tik tok hit, or a mainstream slap
its the hook verse hook on how my heart collapsed
this is not a dance real slow, if you love me don't go
i've been tryna find some peace down every road we go

why do we fight every evenin
i'm sorry i woke you from sleepin
i'm spillin my guts, so my head don't combust
you're the girl of my dreams you're the one i believe in

i went from holdin you close
to someone you used to know
i remember gettin fucked up
i remember lettin go

she said, 3 facts i, still cry too
i'm losin' faith in my ability to like you
i'm losin' touch with who i was and now i fight you
to be honest we should probably say goodbye soon

and now i'm drunk and i'm peekin at your homescreen
makin sure i'm still there, hopin you'll still hold me
and now you're drunk and you're thinkin bout the old me
where did all the time go, why do i feel lonely?

and now we're drunk and were listenin to cars pass
thinkin bout the good days, will they ever come back
and now we sulk, while we listen for the rain drops
listen for the thunderstorms and hope the fuckin pain stops

homescreen

you said you needed space </3

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