bones. w/ jelex (f. jades)

song is by otuka, he just deleted it so i reuploaded it 😈

Lyrics:

(I'm just procrastinating)

As long as it's you, I don't care
As long as it's with you, I don't care
As long as it's with you
Don't care what it is, as long as it's with you
As long as it's you

Do you hear me, my dear?
I'm calling for you
I'll give up my fear, and step away from my room
Step away my safe place, my comfort is you
My heart's not in the same place when it comes to you
(When it comes to you)

As long as it's you, I don't care
As long as it's with you, I don't care
As long as it's with you
Don't care what it is, as long as it's with you
As long as it's you

darling

otuka - darling

2am shoegaze (prod.blunkq)

produced by grayskies

lyrics:

I still save a seat for you
it’s just out of habit
I can’t remembered what happened

it’s like I blinked then you’re gone
it’s not the same place without you
don’t think I forgot you
why does it feel so wrong?
hate to go on but I got to 
My words never got through
and they won’t cuz you’re gone

there’s this void inside my chest
inside my head, I can’t fill it
don’t know the last thing I said,
the last thing we did
why couldn’t I cry that day?
no tears streaming down my face

I wish I could say goodbye- bye- bye 
would I feel the same?
or would I get peace of mind? - mind - mind
wish we could go back frame by frame
take it all away
one more time

but we don’t get what we ask for

why am I breaking down
I’m feeling it now
there’s no use in hiding when no one's around
I’ll figure it out
I won’t make a sound
I’ll keep it to myself like it’s all I’m allowed
I still save a seat for you
Only if I knew 
We’d be stuck like glue
Til the end

it’s like I blinked then you’re gone
it’s not the same place without you
don’t think I forgot you
why does it feel so wrong?
hate to go on but I got to 
My words never got through
and they won’t cuz you’re gone

still save a seat for you / don't worry about me

still save a seat for you

raw vocals
guitar by michael harrison

I’m so afraid right now
feel like I’m close to the end somehow
thought I was just getting started
and now I’m stuck in my tracks

I’m scared that it’s all for nothing
I’ll lose it all in a blink of an eye
I devoted my life for this and I’d die for it

and I’d die for it
I’d die for it
would you die for it?

it feels like it’s all coming after me
they got my life on a stopwatch
feels like my own brain is after me
who even needs enemies
when you got urself straight torturing
put myself in a minefield
can’t even win when it’s my field
I’m losing a home game
how am I losing a home game?

home game

[LYRICS]

I smelled the scent of your sweet perfume
It reminded me how it was with you
I was so happy, I was so confused
But I didn't care cus you loved me too
But then it slipped away
I noticed that you wouldn't say
Those words I loved, our love decayed
But now it's the same
I still reach for you every time I sleep
While our promises turn to memories
When I say your name in prayers I repeat
Is "no" heaven's answer to me
Is this insanity? You're bad for me
Like if only you knew how many times I've begged
For God to bring you back to me
The moonlight in the trees, I've bruised my knees
While kneeling on my bedside hoping that you love me still
How can you sleep
How can you let it be   
I never thought we'd ever fall apart
In the end but  here we are
Broken pieces, shattered bones
I've got no one to call my home
Heaven knows I want you back
Cus when I'm alone
I still reach for you every time I sleep
While our promises turn to memories
When I say your name in prayers I repeat
Is "no" heaven's answer to me
Is this insanity? You're bad for me
Like if only you knew how many times I've begged
For God to bring you back to me
The moonlight in the trees, I've bruised my knees
While kneeling on my bedside hoping that you love me still

heaven's answer

Blinded (run away)

Tell me if you feel it now
Tell me that you saw it coming
Tell me how you really felt
And if my love to you was nothing
Tell me that my heart’s allowed
It’s allowed to feel something
Tell me what’s inside your head
Cus I can tell that something’s up
And lately I’ve been feeling stuck
Lately I just want to run
The absence of my happiness
My skin and bones are numb
And I still bite hard
Both my lips have scars
Would you tell me for real
If you think about us
Tell me if you feel it now
Tell me that you saw it coming
Tell me how you really felt
And if my love to you was nothing
Tell me that my heart’s allowed
It’s allowed to feel something
Tell me what’s inside your head
Cus I can tell that something’s up
Tell me if you feel it now
Tell me that you saw it coming
Tell me how you really felt
And if my love to you was nothing
Tell me that my heart’s allowed
It’s allowed to feel something
Tell me what’s inside your head
Cus I can tell that something’s up

Something's up

[LYRICS]
They say it heals with time
I think that's hard to find
What's "healed" could you please define?
Cus these seconds wasting mine oh
I got these scars all on my wrist
So overwhelmed I feel so pissed
I gotta bite my cheeks and lips
So I can hold it in
Let go
Let go
Couldn't hold it in for you my love
I'm sorry for what I've become
I know you hate to see me like this
But what's done is done
They say it heals with time
I think that's hard to find
What's "healed" could you please define?
Cus these seconds wasting mine oh
I got these scars all on my wrist
So overwhelmed I feel so pissed
I gotta bite my cheeks and lips
So I can hold it in
Let go
Let go
Couldn't hold it in for you my love
I'm sorry for what I've become
But what's done is done

Something's up

Amotti (@luvamotti)