THE playlist

2022

Chill

heard you been talking about me again
words break bones know you tore me too shreds
hurt when I’m alone I just wanted a friend
I always hurt when I’m alone know i just wanted too spend
a fuckin second with you
without just playin pretend
a fuckin second with you where I’m not stuck in my head

again I fall into this hole
I hate this shit but it’s all that I know

heard you been talking about me again
words break bones know you tore me too shreds
hurt when I’m alone I just wanted a friend
I always hurt when I’m alone know i just wanted too spend
another day with you, I don’t care what it takes
know I would fuck up my life throw it all away

just if I could see you today
I still know it wouldn’t change a thing
while you’re walking all over me
bitch I know you won’t get over me
I been holding on for life
I been holding onto lies
I don’t think I’m gonna make it out this time

cigarettes are cheaper when you’re blacked out drunk
passed out on the floor, in youre bed I’m waking up
like what the fuck?
seems like this happens all the time
but it’s not my fault no it’s not mine
(It’s not mine, swear you did me wrong all the time, no it was never mine, you were never mine)

heard you been talking about me again
words break bones know you tore me too shreds
hurt when I’m alone I just wanted a friend
I always hurt when I’m alone know i just wanted too spend
heard you been talking about me again
words break bones know you tore me too shreds
hurt when I’m alone I just wanted a friend
I always hurt when I’m alone know i just wanted too spend another second with you

spotify link<3

narcissist (yungspoiler)

walk walk walk walk w/ ovrwrld (prod. River)

radar 📡 prod by @asa @carna 007

VALORANT ft. Grabbitz - Die For You

@blackwinterwells
prod. @xxkintsugi

art by @pubgm0bile

blackwinterwells - bring me down (kintsugi)

prod @ne0hn
@glassxhotel

available on spotify!

my fears r gettin older
new me is getting colder
why cant i face my feelings
gotta fix myself

i wish i could be like you
all the things that we could do
to you it doesnt matter
im done my life is shattered


you cant say sorry like i do
i cant be honest like u do
i always end up like this
i know it was something special
im always blamed for something
u could have done it better

doesnt matter (neohn)

washed away - sighsare

Im washed away, I cant stay, so many pages
I write to you, you dont understand the truth
[1963]
And I ain't far, pull the pieces out the dark, washed away, still in my heart
I know Im scarred, I know I try too hard
people I try to guard, leave my life they are a shard
wash away in a graveyard, take my hand I need your charge
I accept, I accept, I accept, I accept, I accept
but I wont do much. I know you miss my touch
you used me as your crutch
there is no one to judge, hold my hand I'll let you smudge
I hope that I wasnt that rough, I let you go with a rush <3

you're a stranger! [stranger danger] I dont know your name and you dont know yours
detach myself from the wires, take the stairs and fucking try
YOU hide as I subside, as I see myself in your fucking eyes
all this madness I confide, trolling through ur about to die
why do you look surprised? rat me out you'Re compromised :)
Im a wasteland in disguise! german roots I fossilize 
I wash away my sorrow, I feel so fucking hollow
I'll leap in faith, I follow, digest my way you swallow

-----------------im washed up-------------------

Just breathe with me, I know you're here with me
Just breathe with me, I know you're here 

washed up in an ocean and I think Im swimming
deep down to the depths, shhh im fuckin winning
and you'll catch me with this money that im fuckin printing
you won't see me again, thats why im fucking grinning
look at the steps I make, I get it im just a flake
a crystal stuck in a crate, look at my limiting state
id rather walk alone, till im skin and bone
than see your face, on your fuckin dome
I'll never be happy, my visions get fuzzy

fuck forgiveness, its a show of fucking weakness
and my brain is close to nothing, and my systems full of sickness
im still here..

follow

washed away

@spaceb0y
@crescentxx
@y4ndere

art @spaceb0y

gotta go ft. crescent, Space Boy (prod.yandere)

songs mix&master:miraie

my part edit&mix:lazydoll&miraie

prod.haunt3r&northeast lights

spotify link
https://open.spotify.com/album/0YOMtwdVK65ZM5ukdhW0Pa?si=R0S42lKiSsOD3W1YVIViag


written by @1kidsora @miraie @princess_miii

lyrics:

[hook:Ididntcry]
寂しい
横に君だけがいない
消えることの無い灯り
寂しい (寂しい 寂しい)
寂しいよ
今一人で開けたheartland beer
(あの日)二人で開けた真っ白のChardonnay
寂しい (寂しい 寂しい)
寂しいよ

[verse1:kid sora]
##toman
i keep my head on a swivel
in case they try me
just to show u i aint little-
aw, aw, uhhhhhh-
just to show u i aint lil bruh-
i live in a nightmare, lets go
they just cant drop me, oh no
i just keep eatin-
ye- eatin up they souls
& if u doubted me, in the past, i already know-
just dont bring it up, i could never let it go.
what is this feeling?
that im feeling
im gon throw it to the side, she gon say it was for no reason
like whats the-
like whats the reason?
whats the reason?
im beneath this.

[hook:Ididntcry]
寂しい
横に君だけがいない
消えることの無い灯り
寂しい (寂しい 寂しい)
寂しいよ
今一人で開けたheartland beer
(あの日)二人で開けた真っ白のChardonnay
寂しい (寂しい 寂しい)
寂しいよ

[verse2:miraie]
涼しい
今日の天気昨日より涼しい
でもココロが暑くて、寂しい
I'm cool but my heart is empty
You told the truth or just another lie?
I shut up myself inside a room and I told myself I can shine
But I've been carrying the burden I don't think that I'll be fine
笑って欲しい、笑顔が欲しい
君がくれた夏、忘れずに
空の心はもう耐えられない
I think I'm crazy, I'm really sorry
噓が付き、君の傍に欲しい

[hook:Ididntcry]
寂しい
横に君だけがいない
消えることの無い灯り
寂しい (寂しい 寂しい)
寂しいよ
今一人で開けたheartland beer
(あの日)二人で開けた真っ白のChardonnay
寂しい (寂しい 寂しい)
寂しいよ

Call Me by Your Name ++kid sora&miraie(haunt3r×Northeast Lights)

ily

vocals and production by layen_
mixed by layen_
mastered by nick niker

old you

witch hunt!

witch hunt! (augury)

my part edit&mix: @lazydoll
feat.: @angelicxmei
prod. @nxahj11
artwork:@mazilazy_ (ig)


Spotify link https://open.spotify.com/album/6nfolSKDSF1whtGJ4tIRZ7?si=jxPi2B-4ReSSzCmY6Z90zg

[intro:ididntcry]
(この澱んだ世界の片隅に 雨はもう降り止んだのに)

[hook:ididntcry]
この澱んだ世界の片隅に
置き忘れられてしまった
雨はもう降り止んだのに
太陽は隠れたまま
おかしいんだ
これは誰か(わからない)
ここに居るのは
僕じゃないな ああ
澱んだ世界の片隅で
僕はまだ溺れたまま

[verse:angelicxmei]
tell me shit
tell me that is alright
all ur words cut deep
to my hotspot

oooh is it my heart?
oooh why its beating so fast?

all i feel is sorrow
and always burden to my back
inside me im hollow
but all u do is stab my back
is it really u?
like im dead
but u have no clue at all

[all i feel is sorrow
and always burden to my back
inside me im hollow
but all u do is stab my back
is it really u?
like im dead
but u have no clue at all]

will u say sorry...

drown' ++angelicxmei(prod.noah)

my part edit&mix:@lazydoll
songs mix&master:@0arid
prod:glaciar+heiho

Spotify link

4121 https://open.spotify.com/track/6GfsT9Jn3pd1M2ZqHbiWq9

tysm all my friends

[intro:angelicxmei]
and as the rain keeps falling to the ground
i know,
i would never let you fall
open up, all the way
inside your heart
dont wanna let it waste
i know that we the best

[hook:ididntcry]
届かなくたって 僕は手を伸ばして
(綻びは)綻びのまま 
僕は駆け抜けてく
雨が止んだって 火照りが取れずに
まだ願ってる 青い空の下

(I will reach out, even if I can't reach you
A tear is still a tear I run through
the rain may stop, but it won't take away the fire
I still hope, under the blue sky)

[verse1:tjweaver]
it's so scary in my mind
i shut my eyes so much i think i'm going blind
don't stop calling out i promise that i'm listening
sometimes it hurts so much but still i don't wanna die
i don't think you know how much i fight
i could be an angel with no wings but i'll still fly
i made a promise to myself i'll touch the sky
i'll take a piece of it i'll hold onto it tight

[verse2:arid]
i tried to find myself
i know im still doin well
u told me rot in hell
theres many things i wont tell
like what were meant to be
what we were meant to see
i know u wasted our love
u drained it all from me

[verse3:crescent]
distoreded emotions 
i throw them in the ocean
i put it in my own hands
i crush a wall so i build something
deep lies big blue sky
i cant go back anytime
3rd eye watching now
number 9 is on me now
3rd eye watching now
3rd eye watching now
number 9 is on me now
number 9 is on me now

[hook:ididntcry]
届かなくたって 僕は手を伸ばして
(綻びは)綻びのまま 
僕は駆け抜けてく
雨が止んだって 火照りが取れずに
まだ願ってる 青い空の下

(I will reach out, even if I can't reach you
A tear is still a tear I run through
the rain may stop, but it won't take away the fire
I still hope, under the blue sky)

rainfall cypher ++angelicxmei,tjweaver,arid&crescent[glaciar+heiho]

NEW ART BY: https://www.deviantart.com/clouq/art/IM-SORRY-863684131

lyrics:
im sorry i like eating people
im sorry i like chewing on they skin
im sorry that im bein so evil
why did we ever begin

im a cannibal 
i might eat ur heart out
i dont like the sunlight
love it when its dark out 
im a werewolf countin money under full moon 
knife or the teeth pick whatever for ur doom
i got fur all over my body
im so ugly nobody wants me
coach me into suicide piss on my body
i am so worthless im so disgusting

im sorry i like eating people
im sorry i like chewing on they skin
im sorry that im bein so evil
why did we ever begin
im sorry i like eating people
im sorry i like chewing on they skin
im sorry that im bein so evil
why did we ever begin

witch hunt! (augury)

xache!