BLOOD DRIPS DOWN TO THE SINK WHILE IM THROWING UP

i hope she will hold me once again one day

lyrics//

grade six. when she left i think i found a new life
little kid, big heart and she left me to die
play the victim at the start, now ur switching up sides
c-coulda gave you all my heart but it wasn’t my time 

been like five days since i felt like rolling out of bed
check the myspace, baby all the messages i sent
why you left them all on read?
why you left them all on read?

now i’m 13, can’t nobody hurt me
with the world up on my shoulders yeah 
the sun can’t burn me

just tryna make it past 30
asking god for help i don’t think he ever heard me
but nothing working and pills could never perk me
ADHD and my demons stay lurking 

f-failing class, take a tab, get me out of my mind
teacher mad, take a stab, at the story of mine.


momma put me on her back “baby boy it’s a lesson”
got me having heart attacks and the weed got me stressing
puff puff pass
found out that i like that
help me run away from the pain and all the setbacks

blowing o’s no one knows that i’m like that
story goes, if i told them they won’t like that
pack is smelly now my parents up and raided my room
try to tell me that this isn’t something Jesus would do

guess it’s not right, smoking isn’t christ like
skipping out on school spending time at the half pipe

good kid but got lost in the midst of it all
take the blame
on my name
but it wasn’t my fault

story of mine (boyfifty)

ft. @decksmusic
prod. @jolst

~lyrics~

(wish)
age 16, straight addicted 
was stil on beats, nowadays i done switched it 
alcohol n medication, bet that i mixed it 
if i had a way out, i swear to god id'a picked it 
years later,  really aint shit changed
i might be off of the drugs but they still rotted my brain
still a loser, everyone thinks im lame 
and my head still hurts, like a tumor in the brain 

yea i dont really talk about me 
but i talk bout my problems, thats all u need 
no face, so when im gone u can let go 
i was just a voice, that you would hear in your headphones

said she got scars on her arms and they look like me 
and i remember all the times that she cried to me 
and all the things that you want are what i tried to be 
just say i did good, please lie to me 

years later,  really aint shit changed
i might be off of the drugs but they still rotted my brain
still a loser, everyone thinks im lame 
head hurts, its like a tumor in the brain 

(decks)
years late, im a half shelled mutt
im a nuisance, pick up the blood where i scuffed
i can battle but life’s always tough
i been down but its never enough

i’ve been fighting back to where i stayed
years later im a man without a face

pissed off and its polarizing
the people u lose due to shitty timing
and loss is a cruel thing, i know
but the problem is under what i show

(wish)
age 16, straight addicted 
was stil on beats, nowadays i done switched it 
alcohol n medication, bet that i mixed it 
if i had a way out, i swear to god id'a picked it 
years later,  really aint shit changed
i might be off of the drugs but they still rotted my brain
still a loser, everyone thinks im lame 
and my head still hurts, like a tumor in the brain

spotify

sixteen w/ decks

lyrics:

baby i know that you ghost me, i love it 2
mud on my nikes, i tripped when i fell for you 
i got my clothes from shein 
im broke and a fool
im blocked, message sent tho i hope it goes thru
and you say that you hate me and i hate that it's true
i need you like money and new fendi shoes
just hold me
control me and leave when im used
compared to the old me, i am numb without you 

mud on my nikes
blood on the eyepiece 
i thought that you liked me
you are nothing without me 

mud on my nikes
blood on the eyepiece 
i thought that you liked me
you are nothing without me
 
mud on my nikes
blood on the eyepiece 
i thought that you liked me
you are nothing without me

Mud On My Nikes (Prod.Dom21)

I will give you everything 
Can you hold me once again?
I can’t wait the pain away 
Now I wish we never met 

Blood drips down to the sink while I’m throwing up 
I can’t think of ur words. It was fake love 
Watch me blink more tears while I’m growing up 
I can’t think of the money while I’m pouring up

Money while I’m pouring up
Pills in the double cup 
Party all day, all night till the morning yea
Post me on ur story huh
Let them know I’m with ya 
Crying all day, all night to our videos 
To our videos 
To our videos 
To our videos 

I will give you everything 
Can you hold me once again?
I can’t wait the pain away 
Now I wish we never met 

I will give you everything 
Can you hold me once again?
I can’t wait the pain away 
Now I wish we never

fake love (prod.macjamerio)

Take your time 
Time
While you run ur blade down my spine 
Spine 

February to march 
You took a blade and ran it down my heart 
It’s getting scary 
In ur arms 
I don’t care 
Rip me apart 


Take your time
While you try to save my life 

Never met a bitch like you 
Spent lean on brand new shoes 
Kush green like fresh bamboo
Downtown Utica I’m rude 
Bad little bitch when I pour up 
Never really know what’s important 
Bad bitch sucks dick in the forgein
Been sick since 14, can’t grow up 

Baby said “why you cold”
Wipe blow off ur nose
White hoe got good throat 
Still feel mad alone 

Stomach pains got me throwing up 
Just take your time I’ll pour up
Just take your time I’ll roll up
I’ll feel it in the morning

2002 (Prod.antisxcial)

soundcloud only...
prod. irby - https://www.youtube.com/@irby314/videos

The waves you hear crash down
They are misspoken
Leaves inside the pack are ripped open
Find it hard to love 
Told i was broken
I’m crystalized inside 
I was hoping
   
Intertwined timelines
Flooded rooms 
Under gray skies
Walking through streets at night
Can't seem to find your light
Welcome to the end
Of my ride
2 times is a long time
Texting you but I can’t type

Lost in the big world
Where no one knows me
Too drunk too lonely
Wishing for you to hold me 
Beyond redemption  
It wasn’t for the attention
Too bad i’m gone now
Blurred my own reflection

Calm down
Look up to the sky
Wind gush 
Rush against the time

Just lust
Keep me in your sight
What's love
No one thought to try

misspoken (irby)

made in abyss [+ cxrter x tahtx]

Mixed/Mastered by me
Prod. Red Eyez

Lyrics: 
oh god, could i survive this on my own for another year?
let me break the silence that you call upon, it's only fear
hold me here in this december wasteland
rip apart the fragments of my memory
salted wounds, you'll never know what you mean to me
overbearing i hope you never thought that of me
sick to death in a second, i hope you realize
overnights at your house, it never felt so nice

uhh feelin the covenant pressure
7am filled wit longing 
inescapable terror
let her fight back, what a frightening
sight it must be to see
oh i'll yearn for the chest feeling we used to hold so deeply
learn to breathe on my own
take this coat from my arm
trade the cuts for complex sedatives
we both suck for sentiment
call for several syllables, i only need three
baby tell me that you need me

oh god, could i survive this on my own for another year?
let me break the silence that you call upon, it's only fear
hold me here in this december wasteland
rip apart the fragments of my memory
salted wounds, you'll never know what you mean to me
overbearing i hope you never thought that of me
sick to death in a second, i hope you realize
overnights at your house, it never felt so nice

oh cut deep, we'll make new scars 
baby what's that tone for 
but every sentence that spills out your mouth makes me feel the resentment a little bit more
cut from the cloth but your more like a feather
every second we're spending apart puts us closer and closer to never
uh and honestly, maybe, been feeling it lately, i wish that i never had met her
you still got my sweater don't you?
lately you been cold like weather, so cruel
let me stay inside, i hope we get some snow soon 

oh god, could i survive this on my own for another year?
let me break the silence that you call upon, it's only fear
hold me here in this december wasteland
rip apart the fragments of my memory
salted wounds, you'll never know what you mean to me
overbearing i hope you never thought that of me
sick to death in a second, i hope you realize
overnights at your house, it never felt so nice

fragments

bones that snap like a branch
i can’t deal with this anguish
freezing cold, no plans
crawling home, i’m stranded
i cannot give it up
i try to give a fuck
i’m abandoned
don’t tell me what it was
i dealt with my own luck
i can’t stand it

i’ll freeze my soul
don’t breathe when im walking alone
hear your voice thru the phone
won’t talk back to you if you call

just leave me on the highway
i decide to run away
i know you hope i’ll change my mind and come to you another day
but imma do it my way
don’t come by my place
if i don’t return by saturday

coming down, i feel fine now
i can’t let anybody find out
on the walk back to my house
time moves slower, it’s frightened

bones that snap like a branch
i can’t deal with this anguish
freezing cold, no plans
crawling home, i’m stranded
i cannot give it up
i try to give a fuck
i’m abandoned
don’t tell me what it was
i dealt with my own luck
i can’t stand it

stranded (santana)

Did you get my text back?
Are you even going?
Shawty yeah you owe this 
Did you ever text back?
Tell me that you noticed 
I’m sick of all this bullshit 
Why 
Sipping on this bottle till my body starts to fly 
Then get sentimental when I look up in the sky 
Light a cigarillo to get some color in my eyes 
Kindled in her eyes but I tend to wonder why 

Would you even text back?
Could you stop the hurting?
Please don’t say you wouldn’t 
Why 
Would you even  text back?
You said that I’m worthless 
Not worth a single second of ur time 

Sippin on this bottle till my eyes start to cry 
Then get sentimental when my cup starts to dry 
Light a cigarillo and get some color in my eyes 
Hatred in my “i’s”and I tend to wonder why 

I will win you back again 
I will win you back again 
I willl win you back again 

I will win you back again 
I will win you back again 
I will win you back again 

Ur the only girl that I love 
Tell me what it is that you want 
I will give you the world if you want 
I will give you the world if you want 
Party all night till the day 
Girl just look my way 
Hold me like always 
I’ll hold you till we’re grey ay 

I will win you back

cigarillo (Prod.Deadends)

Lyrics:

You’re my life, you’re my death
You’re my want, and you’re my need
In my heart you’re still around
And i can’t get rid of you

Another folded piece of paper
With a broken heart thats printed
Imagination still rampant
Yet scared of whats to come
Each and every day i lose sight of you
My memory together would wither out
Took another look away for a second more
And i feel as if i lost a part of me with you

You’re my life, you’re my death
You’re my want, and you’re my need
In my heart you’re still around
And i can’t get rid of you

I can take you anywhere you want to
No need to lie, i can see it in your eyes
No matter what, i’ll be there
Took me by surprise, that’s not fair
I can see it in your eyes
You’re my type
Even if i die
You’re my life

fake love (prod.macjamerio)

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