shoutout soundcloud.com/boyfifty

lyrics:
woke up in a sweat last night, fuck my life howd i get so cold
I dont even know what I meant when I told u that, I was so fucked up
livin life like volume cant mute this shit howd it get so low
I dont even know who I am anymore so lemme take yo advice and go

fuck off with my bull shit
were too sick to evolve, a straight neucense
we rly gotta look at love in a new sense
not obsessin over shit fuck ur 2 cents
in the middle of the night straight mental
feelin like shinji what am I supposed to do
I hope u kno that my life dont belong to u
I hope u kno that im fighting for the likes of us

and I wouldnt wanna lie to us
I know ive lied but I learned to trust
so trust me, I dont rly do that anymore trust me
lonely
trapped in the back of my mind help me

or dont, I been like this for years I been gone so long
u see thru it, laugh wit me but u think im stupid
oh no, I kno this feelin like its my home
I hate it, think im fine but im fuckin anxious

I see thru the lies in my vision
tough shit, dont be surprised if im missin
exist in my mind like prison
listenin to the thunder im breakin in
to the place that I knew back then
its nostalgic ill pack it in, and
ill remember how i felt back in december

trust me

spotify

trust me (prod. boyfifty x kndey)

prod. me x @hiraethsry

And I will love you 'til I'm broken by the weight
Of everything I've ever wanted and how it all has your name
I am trying, I am shaking, I am crying, I am breaking
Every second, every minute, I'm so tired, why's it raining
Baby, kiss me just to kiss me, not to take me home tomorrow
I am drunk and I am bleeding in your apartment, in the shadow
Of what we were when we were young
And you don't remember my name
And I'm so sorry, and I'm so sorry

And when I'm leaving, I'll pretend like I don't give a damn
But it's been four years, I just wanna hold your hand
It's been four years, don't know who I fucking am
Oh, oh
And when you're begging me to stay, I'll never listen
I guess it takes four years to know the difference
You knew me better than anyone and you hated me
So how the fuck am I supposed to love myself

And I will love you 'til I'm broken by the weight
Of everything I've ever wanted and how it all has your name
I am trying, I am shaking, I am crying, I am breaking
Every second, every minute, I'm so tired, why's it raining

I am drunk and I am bleeding in your apartment, in the shadow
Of what we were when we were young
And you don't remember my name
And I'm so sorry, and I'm so sorry

YOUDONTREMEMBERMYNAME

downpour II

home isn't home (feat 93FEETOFSMOKE)

Written by Senzu ¥ and Giovanni 
Produced by Giovanni
Engineered by Giovanni 
Cover art made by Backyard beetle 
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Roads w/ Giovanni

Chase The Moon

The truth is I don't even wanna heal my bruises
You had my heart inside your hands girl you knew this
Ion wanna hear no excuses, don't play clueless
The truth is the concept of love is elusive
Nowadays girl we're borderline abusive
If I don't play the game I can't lose it
So If I never gain there's no losing

Girl the truth is, still think bout you like each day
But ion think that I can stomach one more heartbreak
We've been stuck inside a loop you know I had walk away from you
I left you on read but I've got so much left to say to you
I'm done spilling my veins for you
Words; don't let them leave my lips
I'm not staying in your pocket I've got nothing left to give
You said you still see a future in us well that's no way to live
I keep my past outside the present because my presence is a gift

I had to separate, New bitch with banging waist
Pull up in XXL clothing look like featherweight
But really when up inside the gym I'm pushing hella weight
Blacked out coup I floor the gas girl tell me how the exhaust taste
I can never love again
Imma use the pain you caused and flip into bands
You hit my line late at night and asked me where we stand
Why you want me now but you didn't want me then

Girl the truth is, still think bout you like each day
But ion think that I can stomach one more heartbreak
We've been stuck inside a loop you know I had walk away from you
I left you on read but I've got so much left to say to you
I'm done spilling my veins for you

So let me spill it out
Girl you were my first love; It's hard to live without you
Yeah I fucked up but I paid my dues
And my hearts been cold since you fucked that dude
So let me spell it
I won't be your second option just to keep around
I threw in the towel
Now anything you hear about me know its word of mouth

truth is [prod. yunny goldz]

nellstyx - die 4 u{+VELVET}

comofue

thank you for everything <3
i hope you enjoy this is much as i do

guitar: @jude18

lyrics:

oh fuck i'm drunk went and did it again
i cut my ties guess i'm losin a friend
i'm stuck your lies makes it harder to mend
my heart self harm makes it easy to pen

i'm not the monster i get painted as
but i bite her neck like i'm a maniac
i love when she screams, when she cuts me i bleed
i get high as the stars, then i fall like the leaves

my minds gone bad yo whats the date
my hearts so cold bet a few could relate
now i'm fucked in the brain, now i'm fucked in the tub
i'm fucked so often i'm prolly up on the hub

i'm prolly out of my luck, i'm prolly stupid as fuck
cause every time that she hit me i feel adrenaline rush
i feel my energy thrust, its like i like being hurt
i feel the knife in my gut, i think i'm cryin too much

i've been playin to much, 
one minute you hate me and the next you wan fuck
just look at my love, yeah look at it goes
every time i'm up it seems like you want me more

and that sucks my heart's inside my lungs
i hit my plug he fill me up
i don't want nothin but your love
you hit me up and said we done

oh no oh god what have i done
become all the things that i've been runnin from
i thought we were done talkin shit, were above that
but words turn to fists its becoming a  blood bath

but i'm drunk so i run back, if you call me an asshole
i don't have a comeback, i'm not just an asshole
i know that you know that, you're craving my soul but i already sold that

i'm bravin the cold, you already know that i hate this
fuck love i wanna be famous, at least i can't be shameless and
spend all my time gettin wasted, but that's you wanted right
i don't wanna hang on right, i'm on my own tonight
you make me wanna die, i'll let you kill me some other time

oh fuck i'm drunk went and did it again
i cut my ties guess i'm losin a friend
i'm stuck your lies makes it harder to mend
my heart self harm makes it easy to pen

i'm not the monster i get painted as
but i bite her neck like i'm a maniac
i love when she screams, when she cuts me i bleed
i get high as the stars, then i fall like the leaves

my minds gone bad yo whats the date
my hearts so cold bet a few could relate
now i'm fucked in the brain, now i'm fucked in the tub
i'm fucked so often i'm prolly up on the hub

i'm prolly out of my luck, i'm prolly stupid as fuck
cause every time that she hit me i feel adrenaline rush
i feel my energy thrust, its like i like being hurt
i feel the knife in my gut, i think i'm cryin too much

cryin too much w/ koi & lil xtra

I don't care what you say when the night ends 
that's fair cuz you always leave me like this 
blank stare when I ask where we went wrong  
I don't know why I put you in every love song
thought that when we parted ways my tolerance would fade
but I still need you just as much 
I don't care what you say when the night ends

I don't care what you say when the night ends 
that's fair cuz you always leave me like this 
blank stare when I ask where we went wrong  
I don't know why I put you in every love song
thought that when we parted ways my tolerance would fade
but I still need you just as much 

take this with a grain of salt baby let it dissipate like my feelings lately 
whats the definition of insanity I do the same and think you'll want me
for the first time in a long time had a dream last night you were by my side yeah
I can't really see it's blurry cheeks are wet now
know you hate the tears but you built up a letdown 
I get it yeah whatever I thought that we were better than this a drunk kiss
a fifth in my fist 
I can tell by your tone that I tempt you
we'll leave it alone there's a hint that we're and issue
miss you, misuse, know that you admit to
late night looks with your hooks in my tissue
fix you, let me, don't think this is healthy
afraid that all I'll have in a year is all our selfies

I don't care what you say when the night ends 
that's fair cuz you always leave me like this 
blank stare when I ask where we went wrong  
I don't know why I put you in every love song
thought that when we parted ways my tolerance would fade
but I still need you just as much 

I don't care what you say when the night ends 
that's fair cuz you always leave me like this 
blank stare when I ask where we went wrong  
I don't know why I put you in every love song
I don't care what you say when the night ends 
that's fair cuz you always leave me like this 
blank stare when I ask where we went wrong  
I don't know why I put you in every love song
take this with a grain of salt baby let it dissipate like my feelings lately 
whats the definition of insanity I do the same and think you'll want me
take this with a grain of salt baby let it dissipate like my feelings lately 
whats the definition of insanity I do the same and think you'll want me

majinaru 
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCsRS5ewQ958Rp7fWdQFuapQ

Spotify

Definition of Insanity(prod. majinaru)

s/o to https://soundcloud.com/boyfifty for the fire beet and inspiration <33
s/o soundcloud.com/cay2o for mastering too
mixed by me

lyrics:
I know u hate this, I don't fkin like it either.
my brain cant stay still, I'm struggling to chill myself
I really hate me, cause I cant fkn kill myself
I been blocking out my mind just to heal myself.

she gon' thank me when I kick the bucket.
obsessive thinking, my mind crazy, but I cant say fk it.
cause I got u and these people who gon' listen to me
this shit my therapy, don't take it as a lecture homie.

I fkn, lay in bed just thinking and sht.
i think id probably be happy if I didn't think about sht, but i cant help it my mind racing like a track meet
i try to sleep then get depressed like tf happened to me.

I’m wastin my time, I opened my eyes
can’t rely on these bitches I learned that the hard way
comin back to my senses, but ive been through hell
i’m a lion in a cell, but its kinda hard to tell
now I dont mean to yell, but sometimes I need to get this feelin out of my chest.
I love my homies, s/o my brothas 1 time 
I hope they not lonely, cause im barely alive.

Chase The Moon

Lxst Boy