Lyrics:

[Intro]
Nineteen months like heaven’s gate
Every laugh, every midnight escape
From broken pasts to something whole
She held the pieces of my soul

[Verse 1]
We danced in kitchens, kissed in storms
She made my shattered edges warm
I bent my knee with shaking hands
She said yes — and we made plans

[Pre-Chorus]
But love’s a ghost with perfect aim
And when she came back, it spoke her name
My first mistake walked through the door
And I cracked like I’d been here before

[Chorus]
And I told her I’d think it through
While the one I loved cried in that room
She begged to stay — I turned away
Chose the past and made her pay
Now every night I hear her say
“Why did you let me break that day?”
My biggest regret, my darkest ache
What I gave away… was never fake

[Verse 2]
She packed slow, like she still hoped
That I’d stop her, hold her close
But I froze, chasing some old dream
Trading gold for what once gleamed

[Pre-Chorus]
She kissed my hand and said goodbye
Promised she'd wait if I’d just try
But I saw the end in her tired eyes
The weight of too many silent lies

[Chorus]
And I told her I’d think it through
While the one I loved cried in that room
She begged to stay — I turned away
Chose the past and made her pay
Now every night I hear her say
“Why did you let me break that day?”
My biggest regret, my darkest ache
What I gave away… was never fake

[Bridge]
If love was war, I chose retreat
Thought I was strong, but I chose defeat
All she needed was one word said
But I gave her silence instead

[Final Chorus]
Now I see her in quiet rain
In songs, in streetlights, in old pain
She was my peace, my greatest win
I lost her just to lose again
And if she ever asks me why
I’ll look away and never lie
“I wanted more… but it was you
I should’ve held, I should’ve knew”
My biggest regret, the price I pay
What I gave away… won’t fade away

[Outro]
What I gave away…
Was everything
Was everything…

LZX - Goodbye Part 1

Lyrics:

[Verse 1]
In the midnight silence, whispers crawl my mind
Shadows shaped like strangers, truths I cannot find
They dance just at the corner, I keep them in my sight
A heartbeat that I’m chasing through the endless night

[Pre-Chorus]
I tried to lock the door, I tried to close my eyes
But their eyes were open, like constellations in the sky

[Chorus]
These monsters in my head, they’re loud and they’re alive
I can’t ward them off, no matter how I try
But tonight I hold them close, let them feel my breath
I’ll learn to dance with monsters in my head

[Verse 2]
Their voices pulse like lighting, but their pain feels like mine
A tangled mess of memories that I thought I left behind
In the mirror, I’m reflected with imperfections to embrace
They’re the parts I tried to banish, now shining in their place

[Pre-Chorus]
I tried to fight their echo, I tried to run away
But I’m standing in the ruins, where they chose to stay

[Chorus]
These monsters in my head, they’re loud and they’re alive
I can’t ward them off, no matter how I try
But tonight I hold them close, let them feel my breath
I’ll learn to dance with monsters in my head

[Bridge]
You’re not alone
You’re coming home

[Break]
(Ahh ahh ahh)

[Chorus]
These monsters in my head, they taught me how to feel
They broke the hardest walls, showed wounds can heal
So tonight we sing as one, in the shadows we’ve grown
I’ve made friends with monsters in my home

[Outro]
Monsters in my head… we’re dancing in the dark
Found a piece of me in every broken part

LZX - In My Head

Lyrics:

[Verse 1]
I see the way you try to understand
Your patience burns like an open hand
I lie and say "I'm fine" again
But inside I'm drowning in my own pretend

[Pre‑Chorus]
You love like I deserve it
But I can’t even return it
Every smile I fake
Feels like another heartbreak

[Chorus]
I carry guilt like it's skin
You let me in — I let you spin
Round a version of me I can’t defend
You think I’m worth it — I just pretend
I’m sorry I don’t feel clean
You're holding on to someone never been

[Verse 2]
You ask what's wrong — I never say
Cause how do you confess you push love away?
I watch your light grow dim with mine
Still I let you burn, time after time

[Pre‑Chorus]
You love like I deserve it
But I can’t even return it
Every smile I fake
Feels like another heartbreak

[Chorus]
I carry guilt like it's skin
You let me in — I let you spin
Round a version of me I can’t defend
You think I’m worth it — I just pretend
I’m sorry I don’t feel clean
You're holding on to someone never been

[Bridge]
Every good thing turns to rust
When held by hands that don’t earn trust
You look at me and see a chance
I look at you — and feel like an accident

[Chorus]
I carry guilt like it's skin
You let me in — I let you spin
Round a version of me I can’t defend
You think I’m worth it — I just pretend
I’m sorry I don’t feel clean
You're holding on to someone never been

[Outro]
Don’t wait for me to change
This guilt is deep, and it won’t rearrange
Maybe walking away is how I prove
That hurting you was never what I meant to do

LZX - Heavy With Guilt

Lyrics:

[Intro]
(They never left…)
(They never left…)

[Verse 1]
I used to lock the doors inside my brain
Tried to drown the voices whispering my name
But they kept digging graves in my sleep
Feeding off secrets I buried deep

[Pre-Chorus]
And I broke— but they stayed
In the silence, they prayed

[Chorus]
I made peace with the beasts in my head
We shake hands where the angels fear to tread
Not alone in the dark anymore
They’re the family I never asked for
(My monsters and me...)

[Verse 2]
They taught me how to bite, how to bleed
Showed me strength in every ugly need
"You're not broken—just designed for war"
They etched those words into my core

[Pre-Chorus]
We don’t sleep— we just wait
Every dream a twisted gate

[Chorus]
I made peace with the beasts in my head
We shake hands where the angels fear to tread
Not alone in the dark anymore
They’re the family I never asked for
(My monsters and me...)

[Bridge]
I don’t fear them now—I speak their tongue!
Every demon was a part of me all along
They howl and crawl, they tear and bend—
But they held me when no one else did in the end

[Chorus]
I made peace with the beasts in my head
We write lullabies in blood and lead
Not alone in the dark anymore
They’re the home that I was searching for
(My monsters and me...)
(My monsters and me...)

[Outro]
They never left…
But now they stay…
As my friends…
My monsters and me…

LZX - My Monsters & Me

Lyrics:

[Verse 1]
I lie awake, the night feels near
Hollow breaths echo in my ear
Shadows shift where silence reigns
My body frozen, running cold through veins

[Pre-Chorus]
I’m tethered tight, no will to keep
Between two worlds, I drift in sleep

[Chorus]
Dreamlock, I’m trapped inside this fear
Heart racing, but my voice disappears
In the midnight hush I fight the binds
Dreamlock, captive of my mind

[Verse 2]
Eyes open wide, room’s out of shape
Weight of darkness pulling at escape
Shapes on the walls, faceless eyes
I’m locked in stasis where the terror lies

[Pre-Chorus]
Intuition screams, I’m pressed so deep
Breath’s a whisper I cannot reap

[Chorus]
Dreamlock, I’m trapped inside this fear
Heart racing, but my voice disappears
In the midnight hush I fight the binds
Dreamlock, captive of my mind

[Bridge]
Breath pulses through electric air
Strings tremble of the nightmare stare

[Break]
I stretch, I strain, I crawl inside
Between the worlds I fight to hide

[Chorus]
Dreamlock, wake me up from here
In the void, I face my darkest fear
But when dawn breaks and the chains unwind
Dreamlock falls, I leave it all behind

[Outro]
Soft light peeks across my face
Soul untethered, finding grace
Dreamlock fades in morning’s glow
Breath returns, I finally let go

LZX - Dreamlock

Lyrics:

[Intro]
The lights are low, but my thoughts are burning
Every kiss we stole is a bridge not returning

[Verse 1]
You were velvet lies in a glass of red
Whispered sin on a stranger’s bed
I wore guilt like a second skin
Came undone where we shouldn’t begin

[Pre-Chorus]
The silence screams louder than the fight
I wash my hands, but they won’t come white

[Chorus]
There’s ashes in the wine
From the fires we lit in the dark
I crossed that sacred line
Now love is bleeding in marks
Oh I broke what I swore was mine
For a touch that turned to scars
Ashes in the wine
Truth tastes bitter in hearts

[Verse 2]
You said your vows like a silent oath
I was the echo you betrayed them both
Fever dreams in hotel sheets
Nothing pure, just the pulse and deceit

[Pre-Chorus]
You ask me if I feel alive
But all I know is the lie I drive

[Chorus]
There’s ashes in the wine
From the fires we lit in the dark
I crossed that sacred line
Now love is bleeding in marks
Oh I broke what I swore was mine
For a touch that turned to scars
Ashes in the wine
Truth tastes bitter in hearts

[Bridge]
It’s not love if it hides in the night
Not worth it when it steals all the light
I see your face and I can’t pretend
I'm just a thief at the story’s end

[Chorus]
There’s ashes in the wine
We burned every vow we made
No turning back this time
All the beauty has decayed
Oh I shattered what was mine
Now I sleep in what I betrayed
Ashes in the wine
And I drink it every day

[Outro]
Every drop, a memory I can’t erase
Every lie, a lover’s face...

LZX - Ashes In The Wine

Lyrics:

[Verse 1]
Every time I start to climb
Something in me pulls the line
Like I don’t trust the view from high
Like I’m afraid to touch the sky

[Pre-Chorus]
And just when it’s going right
I pick a fight with the light

[Chorus]
I trigger my self-destruct
Right when I’ve had enough
When love starts to feel too real
I cut the wire, lose the wheel
It’s like I can’t let myself win
Burning bridges before they begin
I sabotage the best parts of me
Call it fate, but it’s just me

[Verse 2]
I feel the warmth, then freeze inside
Like I’m allergic to the bright
I rewrite the ending every time
With poison ink and perfect lies

[Pre-Chorus]
Hope is a thread I fear to hold
So I unravel before it unfolds

[Chorus]
I trigger my self-destruct
Right when I’ve had enough
When love starts to feel too real
I cut the wire, lose the wheel
It’s like I can’t let myself win
Burning bridges before they begin
I sabotage the best parts of me
Call it fate, but it’s just me

[Bridge]
Wish I knew how to stay
How to breathe through the flame
But the mirror shows a ghost
And she always lets it go

[Break]
(Why do I run? Why do I run?)
(Why do I break what I’ve just begun?)

[Chorus]
I trigger my self-destruct
Right when I’ve had enough
When dreams start to feel too near
I shut it down, disappear
It’s like I can’t let myself win
Burning bridges before they begin
I sabotage the best parts of me
Call it fate, but it’s just me

[Outro]
It’s just me…
It’s always been…
Just me…

LZX - S.D.S.

Lyrics:

[Verse 1]
I'm always reaching, you're always gone
Your warmth slips through before the dawn
I trace your voice in empty rooms
A ghost that haunts me with perfume

[Pre-Chorus]
You breathe in calm, I breathe in fear
You're far away even when you're near
I'm holding on like it’s my crime
But love like this runs out of time

[Chorus]
Bleed me dry with every touch
I crave too much, I love too much
I sink in need, you float above
An anxious heart don’t know soft love
Bleed me dry, I see it now
I pulled you in, you’re backing out
If I could change the way I burn
But some flames never learn

[Verse 2]
You say you care — but need your space
I only know one crushing pace
I cling too fast, I drown in doubt
I build a cage and shut us out

[Pre-Chorus]
You're breathing slow, I'm gasping quick
This tether tight, this love is sick
My mind runs loops you’ll never hear
All built from whispers, built from fear

[Chorus]
Bleed me dry with every touch
I crave too much, I love too much
I sink in need, you float above
An anxious heart don’t know soft love
Bleed me dry, I see it now
I pulled you in, you’re backing out
If I could change the way I burn
But some flames never learn

[Refrain]
But some flames never learn
But some flames never learn

[Bridge]
I need a sign, I need a lie
I need a reason not to cry
You pull away, I pull you near
I become the thing I fear

[Break]
(Bleed me... bleed me...)
(Too much... too much...)

[Chorus]
Bleed me dry with every touch
I crave too much, I love too much
I sink in need, you float above
An anxious heart don’t know soft love
Bleed me dry, I see it now
I pulled you in, you’re backing out
If I could change the way I burn
But some flames never learn
(Some flames never learn)
(Some flames never learn)

[Outro]
Some flames never learn...
(Ooh-ohh...)
Some flames never learn...

LZX - Bleed Me Dry

Lyrics:

[Verse 1]
I watch you laugh — I fake a smile
I know I’ve crossed that line awhile
I whisper things I shouldn't say
But still I hope you’ll never walk away

[Pre-Chorus]
They tell me I should let you breathe
But I hold tight and grit my teeth

[Chorus]
You’re mine — even when it hurts
Even when I feel like I’m the worst
I hate this need, but can’t let go
I still call it love, though I know it’s not whole

[Verse 2]
I see my hands — they’re stained with want
Jealous of shadows, haunted by what haunts
This isn’t how love’s supposed to be
But it’s the only kind that lives in me

[Pre-Chorus]
I build you cages made of care
Then cry alone when you’re not there

[Chorus]
You’re mine — even when it hurts
Even when I feel like I’m the worst
I hate this need, but can’t let go
I still call it love, though I know it’s not whole

[Bridge]
I used to think I was enough
But now I cling instead of trust
I see your face and feel ashamed
But still, I burn just the same

[Break]
If love is pain, then I’m in deep
It’s not you, it’s me I can’t keep

[Chorus]
You’re mine — even when it hurts
Even when I feel like I’m the worst
I hate this need, but can’t let go
I still call it love, though I know it’s not whole

You’re mine — though it’s killing me
Even if I beg on shattered knees
I know you need more than this
But I only know how to love like this

[Outro]
I never meant to be this way
But here I am — too far to sway
It’s not your fault, it’s who I’ve become
And I still call it love, even when I run

LZX - I Still CAll It Love

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