[lyrics]

i say why you wanna know?
girl why u moving slow
uh

i tried to change my ways
stuck up in cocaine
and everybody looking at me with a sad face
percy in my nose xanax in my coat
sipping lean pour a 4
yeah that's the way
mclaren drive
im moving 33
im sipping wokhart codeine
im a dirty kid
i dont care what the haters finna say
im just a junkie and i like it that way
okay

here we are crashed another car
fucked up popping beans
have u ever gone this hard
i dont think you have
i dont think you know
what it's like to live like kid fucking benzo

it ain't a good life, its just a sad life
im crying in my room
cutting wrists every night
im mixing up my sprite
till im alright
and that's never alright
fuck the past life

i'm so detestable
so neglectable 
my life is incomprehensible
at the festival i was high as fuck
drowning in the drugs
screaming fuck your love
here we go tryna find a way out
no way out, so i'm falling back down
i need some molly that's sassafras
i fucked it up and did another bag

i blow the bag out then i blow cologne
weed up all inside my coat
oxycontin in my nose
woah
im a rapper and a singer
shoot you with a chopper while im riding in the dinger
i'm such a lonely guy
getting high like all the time
so lost inside my mind
oh girl i need to decide

what do i do what do i say
i don't even fucking know where i am today
what do i do what do i say
i'm alone in my mind and there's no escape
burning in depression constantly
my mind is such a bad place to be
psychedelics can numb it all
want to escape eternally (woah)

woah woah oh
answer your voicemails girl i'm alone
please pick up your fucking phone
i don't know anymore
tried to call but no response
just tell me what do u want
please just put your faith in god
oh, put your faith in god

what do i do what do i say

Past Life (prod.cursedstorm)

Same shit nothing changes

Same Shit Nothing Changes w/brecken (prod.venus)

[vails]
it’s so dark in this world right now 
every single morning I feel this way and I wonder how 
did It get so cold 
why'd you go so distant 
now my hearts froze, 
i was yours in an instance 
but you always turn a blind eye to me
love is truly a catastrophe 
what’s does the future hold?
i'll guess I’ll never see, till the day I’m old

[benzo]
this the darkest december yet
filled with pain and percocet
this the darkest december yet
addictions and ive lost all of my friends
who am i and girl who are you?
when did we meet and why did i choose to love you?
why did i choose to fuck you
its so dark in my mind

[vails]
read between the lines, only the lines are white 
like the white lies you’re telling me I’ve had enough tonight 
me and the devil got a lot to say to eachother 
we often talk about what’s next, in this life or another 
i'm in a downward spiral and there’s no one to throw me a rope
metaphorically I’m trapped, in a void and I can’t cope
i'll wait to January where I can turn over a new leaf
cus this the darkest December that I think I’ve ever see

[benzo]
this the darkest december yet
filled with pain and percocet
this the darkest december yet
addictions and ive lost all of my friends
who am i and girl who are you?
hen did we meet and why did i choose to love you?
why did i choose to fuck you
its so dark in my mind

this the darkest december yet
pain and misery & i have no one left
what can i do to forget?
take substances and fuck up my head
i smoke a cigarette and kill my lungs
i say sorry to my girl and mum
i know that i've done wrong
but im hurting inside thats what i'm on
its the darkest december yet.

Darkest December Yet

Darkest December Yet w/vails (prod.venus)

[lyrics]

cutting wrists in a bathroom 
blood dripping down my veins
cutting wrists in a bathroom 
tears falling down my face
cutting wrists in a bathroom
don't wanna be here today
cutting wrists in the bathroom 
im falling in my grave

cutting wrists in the bathroom 
blood squirting down my hand
cutting wrists in a bathroom
load up the gun its jammed
crying hard in my bedroom
all i really want is xans
cuttings wrists in the bathroom
i have zero plans

i dont have the answers that you hope to find
my life has been made up of lies
the only thing keeping me strong is the knives
mixing up codeine and sniffing ice

cutting wrists in the bathroom 
blood squirting down my hand
cutting wrists in a bathroom
load up the gun its jammed
crying hard in my bedroom
all i really want is xans
cuttings wrists in the bathroom
i have zero plans

here we go again, here we go again
i've never felt this alone in my life
why do rockstars always die?
i don't even know if i want to be alive
i don't know
cutting wrists by myself
such a lonely soul
i might not even live to see tomorrow
kid benzo drowning in sorrow

Cutting Wrists In The Bathroom

Cutting Wrists In The Bathroom (prod. king theta)

produced by xvn
mixed by me & @seejayxo
featured artist: @seejayxo

lyrics:

(mars)
the last time i trusted u 
u fucked me over
so why do u think i gave u the cold shoulder
swear to god a year ago i would of said i wanted to hold her
now im sitting in my room all winter
losing my fucking mind knowing hes with her
swear im trying my hardest to b okay
but winter is colder n i have no one 
so why dont u pick up the phone love
ur voice is my favorite thing to hear
its like a drug

im alone in this room 
packing another 3g cone
wanna forget her so now
im doing another line off the back of my phone
lied to everyone
i thought i was grown
but im only 22 years old

(seejayxo)

(mars)
i always get fucked up to forget about you
all my songs are about you
did i mean anything to you
this isnt how its supposed to be
i jus want you close to me
i do this to myself
cuz im always reaching for that bottle on the shelf
i dont want your fucking help
i jus drink it until i cant feel anything
i do drugs till my bodys numb
i guess i am fucking dumb
u told me i shouldn't do this shit and i stil do it
i guess i am fucking clueless
maybe u did know all along cuz u told me im fucking crazy
u told me i was fucking insane
now im taking these shots to my brain
all i feel is pain
look at us last year
what the fuck changed

im alone in this room 
packing another 3g cone
wanna forget her so now
im doing another line off the back of my phone
lied to everyone
i thought i was grown
but im only 22 years old

grown [feat. seejayxo] (xvn)

lyrics ⬇️

Temple in my body really breaking down
 
Running like a zombie what im chasing out
baby do you copy i been drownin out
got me drinking at my homies house hes sober now

this is something i should stop
new stuff right out the box
i know that there’s consequences to my actions 
but somehow i would never gove up

using your words as a weapon
how could i think you a blessin
Im tryna make it to heaven
you wont be there im guessin :(

if im guessin wrong then ill be grateful 
when heavin calls youll see an angel
restart my life over again
gotta push back
no im not no recycling bin way past that

but i still need some oxygen to keep movin on in this life
if i cant feel the air thats in my lungs then its not right
gotta keep going cuz nothings ever really perfect
and if it is then honestly you really did not deserve it

this is honestly just a statement but i dont
but i dont wanna pave it
i been turning the pages to make it feel like im staying
but i
think i lost me a dime
shoulda never even tried

Temple in my body really breaking down
Running like a zombie what im chasing out
baby do you copy i been drownin out
got me drinking at my homies house hes sober now

anxiety riddles me everyday 
Do you wanna hear what i really think
i feel the purpose of life is pushing ur self to yhe limit with everything 
if ya heard this know what im sayin
no purchase
no more complainin its worthless might aswell burn all the bridges

gotta get life figured out somehow 
no i dont gotta go down that route
maybe i dont like the large crowds
so ill be locked in my house 

these forest walls only uncover options
when my liscense old
I think youll find me out there hostage
ill watvh the river flow
think ill finally find calmness
and when you ask who helped me
ill say god did.

temple garden (cxrter x ryini)

[lyrics]

[brecken]

got me here all over again

lost attention span
I dont know who i am
i wish that it all got better
I wish that it all got better

heart on my sleeve
still wear the sweater that you had got me
I can’t remember do you still love me
you treat me with kindness 
then you go decieve

now days no i cannot sleep
everynight i be up until 3
every night i see you in my dreams
some i like and some make me bleed

one time i had me a dream where u grabbed a knife and you made me leak
you said come inside
but i tried to leave
i said my goodbyes but you dont want peace
so i tried to hide
and when you came to seek
you left me right there in the corner to bleed

is that really what you wanna do to me

[benzo]

i'm crushing dirty blues
i dont know what to do
and i don't wanna go home
it's getting late again
i miss my only friend
and i been stuck on this road

[evergarden]

i dont feel at home
u realise its set in stone
ive given all i owe

its gone for far too long
and its such a tragedy
hard to take action
it feels so out of reach

[benzo]

i'm crushing dirty blues
i dont know what to do
and i don't wanna go home
it's getting late again
i miss my only friend
and i been stuck on this road

I've Been Stuck On This Road

I've Been Stuck On This Road w/brecken x evergarden (prod.king theta)

when the highway ends i hope that you’ll remember me
no life but a bottle of memories
cant die cuz you drive by me constantly 
flooded mind with your broken apologies 

rough times when id go gome and ik that ur not there
dumb crimes got me thinkin that nobody aware
well trust me im aware
trust me im aware

aware of the things that ive done
Nobody can hide under the sun
gimme closure so that i dont wanna run
i need you to say that i wasnt the one

fun times used to lay back 
dumb lies made me back track
cold eyes all that you had
when i
 really fell back

wanted life to feel like an adventure 
come back I apologize for my temper
one job and i really put it in the blender
no wood for the fire in the winter

somehow life goes on
drive home with the windows down
find out what tbeyre talking about
eyes focused on the shapes of the clouds

when the highway ends i hope that you’ll remember me
no life but a bottle of memories
cant die cuz you drive by me constantly 
flooded mind with my broken apologies 

no chance
broekn heart in advance
green vans no belt for my pants no glam
they all so judgy nowdays its like a scam
got no drip got no fans got no chance

thats cap
ima run it up and run it back
yea ima get my money up and get some fans
might catch me in a bentley truck in japan

no matter what it takes
if your hearts at the bottom of the lake
dont stay cuz i promise theres a way
dont cave cuz i know you wanna say
what you never thought youd ever get to say
take a run if you been outta shape
Thats love if you push through the pain
no drugs could ever maintain
the love that you couldn’t bring 

enough with all of the things
stuck up inside of my head
time to push them down the drain
and finally get me some rest

when the highway ends i hope that we could somhow be friends
i wonder if ur listening
to everything that’s happening 

but if you are then you know that i been wrong
wrongly torn apart 
so i wrote another song
you said that wed go far
maybe thats just what i want
Life isn’t too hard if you just look up to god

tell me that i could do better tban this
you look at my heart and say better than that
i dont know what the best medicine is

look up and you will find that

heartbreak on the highway (cxrter x yunnygoldz)

lyrics ⬇️

it’s been cold out
and I been here alone
yea
i been here alone
and you don’t check ur phone now

i just hear the tone but I don’t wanna hear it no

you got me by the throat
knowing what I’ve done with you its so hard to go
i know it’ll show when I walk up in the room
implode and choke
cuz you cant stand the view 
I know I know

I’ve often been the rude one in ur life
but I’m offering solutions to make it right

your life is full of gratitude is that a lie
only if they knew a thing or two of what we do at night

it’s not so nice it’s not a crime but I know that I shouldn’t do it y
they say I should go to therapy but I already do it
i know what it’s like to bury everything cuz I been thru it
multiple the opportunities I lose I can’t control it
honestly I think it’s pride that’s over doing my influence 
everyday I’m getting by but how idk i have been clueless

let me close my eyes then I’ll prove it
my whole life a lie 
make me feel stupid




I know theyll be laughing in the background
came close but never really got attached how
i really meant to and i wish that i got it right
maybe this the problem why i cant sleep at night

I know, I know. w/ NAVYXOWER (yunny x cxrter)

prodvelvet
mix, master, lyrics by me
(lyrics)
light through the trees bleed
felt that i'd love
or is what they said
what i had enough of
she took out my heart
shes looking my way
i felt my head explode
for how you held me
i cant let go of what is the pain
and i cant get rid of what you had said
piling the pain
of where i come from
on this day i will rot

piling the pain
she left me that day
she couldnt give anything that i would say
and i need your love
that i couldnt get
but thats what she gave to me
how you would stay
bleeding my veins
taking what i had done
it was her decision
wrongfully i felt
how could u be mad at me

tired of these things
its done for once
and i couldnt be
in love more than once
she said she would grow
tears dried on the phone
you did more than to me
for once im not
piling the pain
i loved you still
as i would cave
i could run from the pain
choosing your way again

piling the pain (prodvelvet)

lyrics ⬇️

time flies by i know
make the life you wanna unfold
one eye looking down the rifle
countless tries they got me going thru a cycle

tbink back when i was young i would go hunting in the woods
grandpa taught me that yhe guns are only used for doing good
why is everybody toting all their guns up in the hood
i really think that i would change the world if i feel that i could

love, peace thats all that we need
everybody hates a single feeling of defeat

i always try my best to tell em how i feel
i dont like to crash the parties
i dont like to pop the pills
gimme paranoia 
used to gimme thrills
made me trapped made me stuck feelin ill
“whats up, poor a cup” no deal
maybe thats the reason i feel how i feel

they said that i gotta learn how to live
i wish that i could get past all the tricks
but i know nobodys an idol
so vital, the fact that you can lie tho

nowdays i think that honesty really got an appeal
theyll take ur heart when u think that they dont steal
yea you really gotta watch out 
cuz theyre gon tell you that you shouldnt ever fear

paranoia hits me in my ears
talking all the time thinking bout the years
i dont wanna think that you were ever even mine
you were with my peers 
it was clear

now i know what really came to my demise
but i dont wanna hear what i should really hear
always try to cover every single little lie
cuz i dont wanan kneel where we used to lay
but when its all uncovered ik how youll rlly feel
ill look up in the sky and hope ur still alive
im feeling really horrible and skippin all my meals
cuz i know im the guy that ruined ur whole life

nobody told me it wpuld be this hard
fell to my knees cuz it was ruined from the start

always felt like i need backup
yea but that aint even really rational 
could blame it all on bad luck
you know this life gets so personal

peace. (cl6udy x splashgang)

22 | my music isnt for everyone but I make what i feel like and express my emotions.

journey into the abyss

@scarsonline

grown [feat. seejayxo] (xvn)

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