produced by @jeanparkr

stream on spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/1aoWZfRS7CRkVSxxekIybs

lyrics:
a-a-a-a-all my friends are trash you don't know the real me (:<
i know you say you don't but want to upset me
i-i-if you would care about me then you wouldn't oversee
that all shit you do, has nothing to do with me
but no you don't give a shit about me or 'bout friends
yeah I know that's how it goes you rather drive in your benz
my mum tells me to met up but I don't give a shit
I'm fine being alone, I'm not part of it

they tell me that I need friends, bro they keeping them in their backyard
they have too many of them, bruh they look like from walmart (lol)
fuck of with your fake friends
yeah all this shit ends

a-a-a-a-all my friends are trash you don't know the real me (:<
i know you say you don't but want to upset me
i-i-if you would care about me then you wouldn't oversee
that all shit you do, has nothing to do with me
but no you don't give a shit about me or 'bout friends
yeah I know that's how it goes you rather drive in your benz
my mum tells me to met up but I don't give a shit
I'm fine being alone, I'm not part of it

yeah every day a new chick
sucking your little as dick
y-y-you don't want know her
next day you wont know her
fuck her, let her go, try and see
she s-s-s-shes a game for you, unlike me
who the fuck are you trying to be

oh but you need fun right now
boy I swear that you wouldn't even bet an eyebrow
but you've done it cuz you're friends told you they did it too
that if you don't you're not a part of their crew
yeah you couldn't get away with your lie no matter how hard you try
I'm sick of telling you that this is the last time
yeah I stay forever, no others they don't
they only take what they want, they are gone the next day
(jean, wake up)

you run after them like they are your life,
you go with them, bro you ruin your life
i can't be save, yeah they have a kniiiiiiiiiiiife 🔪

a-a-a-a-all my friends are trash you don't know the real me (:<
i know you say you don't but want to upset me
i-i-if you would care about me then you wouldn't oversee
that all shit you do, has nothing to do with me
but no you don't give a shit about me or 'bout friends
yeah I know that's how it goes you rather drive in your benz
my mum tells me to met up but I don't give a shit
I'm fine being alone, I'm not part of it

you don't value me cause you think your friends are better
don't you miss the time, the time we spent together 🥺
I would have to lie if I say my life's better
why am I even talking to you, I think it doesnt matter
(no it doesn't)

you are nothing to me cuz im nothing to u :´(
the only place you talk to me is at school
if your friend wants a tip on what to do
you tell him a joke cuz u think you're cool
but you're not - your mum told you a lot
that you go outside and talk talk talk talk talk talk
you can't waaaalk, you look like a zombie walk walk walk
its a lot, all the things you cant do makes you a - 😈

real me

spotify

produced by @overatead <3

lyrics:
i-i-i-i-i didn't expect that, didn't see that coming
baby I know that you we're trusting
this shit is new, I'm still adjusting
i can say anything, they will be judging

I hope you say something, but you are silent
it hurts  so much, yeah the silence was violent
i felt so bad, yeah I want to die and
then I said it, yeah I want to cry and :´(
  
I already told you that im sorry
you may not believe in my story
I told you it my fault, baby its on me
if you think that you caught me
baby forgive me, you have my word
i told you im sorry, I didn't mean to hurt
you got it all wrong, damn it's a curse
and I thought my life couldn't get worse

but now it is cause you are gone
crying 'n my bed while writing a song
you didn't understand me, you got it all wrong
you are the place, where I belong
what confused you, what did I say?
What did I do that made you go away???
I really want you, I want you to stay
that aint be working if you run away

lets sit together, talking bout the weather
cuz not talking bout, won't make it better
I know that you doubt that, you dont know about that
I'm fucking sorry, I didn't think about that
i really want to go back and tell you the truth
this time i think about the words I choose
this time i think about what name i say
If I could go back, I wouldn't do the same

I already told you that im sorry
you may not believe in my story
I told you it my fault, baby its on me
if you think that you caught me
baby forgive me, you have my word
i told you im sorry, I didn't mean to hurt
you got it all wrong, damn it's a curse
and I thought my life couldn't get worse

I just needed time to think about it
girl it just overwhelmed me a bit
until now nobody told me: I like you
until now nobody said it despite you
now I will tell you: I fucking like you
I miss the time when we we were in highschool
at the time, no I didn't really mind ya
but now you're gone and i miss ya

didnt mean to hurt u

didnt mean to hurt u (overatead)

produced by michael harrison
with @crimsonkey777

lyrics:
[me]
i dont care anymore what you n your friends say
you say you're sorry but boy that is so fake...
im laughing at you, yeah i laugh at your face
it is so silly, the way you behave

[key777]
i dont really feel like seeing ur face tonight 
cuz when ur around i feel paralyzed 
maybe i should just find another light
and i might not be the best tonight
and i dont really like seeing ur face tonight
u've been staring at the screen
while i was crawling at the bottom of the sea 
girl did u see i know u still look at me
and this is where i've been
many pictures on the wall
im all alone in the hall
trying not to fall
trying not to fall

[me]
I lost my trust a long time ago
you're not my friend, so leave me alone
sometimes i feel lost, dont know where to go
but i wont come back, thats all i know

i dont care anymore what you n your friends say
you say you're sorry but boy that is so fake...
im laughing at you, yeah i laugh at your face
it is so silly, the way you behave 🙄

u so fake w/ key777

produced by reezgy
with @eyes333
cover art by mucknagabe

stream now on spotify https://open.spotify.com/track/2urn6UeKRNE1USllnOc46R

lyrics:
[me]
I feel kinda sick, but I guess im alright
yeah I think I need help, but there's nobody in sight
everytime i go to bed and wish myself a good night  
I pray for the next day, its gonna be alright

yall wouldnt understand you would let of my hand
I can't call you friends, you cannot make amends
everyone's so selfish, they can not distinguish
friend or enemy, who to sink with

[eyes]
i'll keep myself to myself
i can't get locked in this hell
no i'm not doing well
but i got no one to tell
i dont care at all
caffeine mixed with adderal
i dont wanna talk at all
couldnt fuck with none of yal
yeah who gon do it like me
you could never find me
just do it, nike
bro pull up and try me  

[me]
yeah you wouldn't even listen to me
but if you wanna fight, yeah go ahead and see
i know that you lie, yeah you would fucking flee
every single time, you get down on your knees

you think that youi're better but I beat you in every way
everyone has to listen when you have something to say
you dont ask how im doing, cuz you think its gay
but a simple hru would make my day

I see you but for me you are not here 
you didn't notice, but it got worse since last year
every night i sat down with my plushy
I accept it, i think im unlucky

[eyes]
i been wasting all of my time afaik
im not scared cuz i dont care when life will end
you fucked up, you did it again and again
my times up I feel like, im about to ascend

i'll keep myself to myself
i can't get locked in this hell
no i'm not doing well
but i got no one to tell
i dont care at all

locked in hell (with eyes)

locked in hell w/ eyes

produced by @pipe-bomb-84372523
with @eyes333

listen now on spotify pls (:
https://open.spotify.com/intl-de/track/4KjpvmAQH1ovRECFD7ZM8W

bro fuck fl i lost all my projects files >:(
who thought its a good idea to store the recordings in an internal folder bruh

lyrics:
[me]
I-I-I got so many options I can't really choose now
bitch im gonna shoot, what you wanna do now?
I'm on my winstreak, aint no time to loose now
i hate your irony im gonna pull the trigger!
lifes not that hard you dont get it
but people always lie and regret it
lifes not that hard you dont get it
but people always lie and regret it

bitch I don't make friends like that
thats not how it works its not coop yeah its combat
and If I back out, im preparing for a comeback
I never black out, look who I brought back

[eyes]
bitch, fuck about a top 10, a top 10
i could make a fucker drop dead, he drop dead
bitch you wonder where your bro went, your bro went
now you wonder where your hoe went, your hoe went
fuck about a bitch i pull up with a fucking strap
i dont care about this shit i got more ammo in the back
fuckers really wanna fight until i pull up with the mac
they acting like they wasnt scared until we spinning fucking back
bitch you fucking drop dead, you drop dead
i put a gun up to my own head, my own head
fuck about it cause theres nun left, theres nun left
i cant give a fuck bout nothing, bout nothing

[me]
I-I-I got so many options I can't really choose now
bitch im gonna shoot, what you wanna do now?
I'm on my winstreak, aint no time to loose now
i hate your irony im gonna pull the trigger
lifes not that hard you dont get it
but people always lie and regret it
lifes not that hard you dont get it
but people always lie and regret it

im tired, im tired, yeah your time expired
everyone fell down - all the people i admired
i dont know what to do, i feel hella uninspired
everything is boring I was going retire

life's not that hard (feat. eyes)

life's not that hard ft. eyes

produced by @zeromandia30414 and @hxmer230

listen now on spotify! https://open.spotify.com/track/6TxKbfv0hyzcAPIjBLMrRM

lyrics:
yeah yeah, i told you to not follow me,
well nobody follows me
I think I just want to be mean
i just want some fun, see you suffer just like me

fuck now im facing my rival
I don’t know what’s home, now I fight for survival
well I don't mind if you die and
loose what you own i am not afrightend
why gotta be such a prick
why you making me feel so sick
i know i messed it up , i wasnt quick
god youre so corny youre a freak
freak (a few times bruh)

gosh you're special
what is up with your mental
this shit is experiemntal
I scream if you touch me gental
i meant this
why you want to prevent this 
I think that you went to far
I dont know where the fuck we are
i think that you're a superstar
look at me cant play guitar
im such a loser, thats so bizzare
ich mach den shit seit einem jahr
i still look into the far

fuck now im facing my rival
I don’t know what’s home, now I fight for survival
well I don't mind if you die and
loose what you own i am not afrightend
why gotta be such a prick
why you making me feel so sick
i know i messed it up , i wasnt quick
god youre so corny youre a freak
freak (a few times bruh)

freak

produced by @kggn, beat from https://soundcloud.com/shlaks/ttest-wido-sscars-dolly-kuru-lb66-cooper6k-angelus
lets just pretend that the mix is good (:

your life is a lie

produced by julian ceasar
bit experimental sry

lyrics:
when youre walking around your bedroom
what would happend if it ends soon
and all the things that go on in life
does it matter, the things you decide

and everyone has problems, I know that they're stupid
i dont know the answers,  im not acting clueless
yeah I just dont know what to do with it

I just don't know what to do 
and every time I move
I fuck it up again, oh no I
dont seem to understand, the world in -
which we try to live in
and make a living
you try not to die
I dont want to be missing
everything, I dont give a shit about
and I just wanna do it now
baby, you wanna be going now?
but I dont want to fuck it up again
I have to trust you, you're my friend
and everything i wanted, yeah its right in front my hands
and i do a little dance
and I hope it never ends
well you did it right in front of me
I think im blind ill never see

yeah I think I will stay like this
because the whole world wont change [idk lol]

I didnt mean to rush it
cuz I thought that you're bluffing
yeah and was it all for nothing
waiting, hoping, feelig ,loving
I felt so lost after running
ended up where I was starting
now I realize I was blushing
now I realize I felt something

I didnt mean to rush it
cuz I thought that you're bluffing
yeah and was it all for nothing
waiting, hoping, feelig ,loving
I felt so lost after running
ended up where I was starting
now I realize I was blushing
now I realize I felt something

and now i realize that you are gone
i know im stubborn, I took too long
and ill tell myself that i fucked up for way too many months
i know it doesnt change anything but it hunts me till im done

I didnt mean to rush it
cuz I thought that you're bluffing
yeah and was it all for nothing
waiting, hoping, feelig ,loving
I felt so lost after running
ended up where I was starting
now I realize I was blushing
now I realize I felt something

I didnt mean to rush it
cuz I thought that you're bluffing
yeah and was it all for nothing
waiting, hoping, feelig ,loving
I felt so lost after running
ended up where I was starting
now I realize I was blushing
now I realize I felt something

and it was all for nothing

produced by @rxnawway and @godraysss
with @xplyce

lyrics:
[me]
I could never say all the things that I wanted
and the times i asked you out, you never responded
bitch i am annoyed, yeah i know that you're awful
why you keep appearing? i drink another bottle

you should say you're sorry  
i know you kept playing yeah, i know you don't want me
dont act like that you'd get it yeah, you're not steven hawking
things are not that complicated If I shout "stop calling"

yeah yeah
i hated it but you thought i liked it
every day this pick me type shit
its so bad i cant describe it
you're a prick, yeah such a misfit
I can't believe i nearly kissed it
wtf why did i even risk it

im opening my third eye
yeah your life is a lie :^)
I told you yeah thats it yeah
there are so many reasons
best if you believe em
one of them is me and
im sorry you had to meet him

[@xplyce]

[me]
I could never say all the things that I wanted
and the times i asked you out, you never responded
bitch i am annoyed, yeah i know that you're awful
why you keep appearing? i drink another bottle

you never responded ft. xplyce

✧ it was an accident ✧
produced by @pipe-bomb-84372523
with @crimsonkey777 and @cyanisdumb

focused ft. Key777 + cyan

prom

world

interim

sample is from frou frou - old piano
produced by me

lyrics:
its embarrassing and i might sound stupid
i just couldnt move, i could not push through it
what would everything think of me if i ruin it
i would only proof them right, because they knew it

yeah i dont talk anymore
make false promises no more
i just need some fucking space
i need some time i wanna rest
believe me its for the best
because my life is know a mess
i would only make it worse
yeah my life is now a mess

yeah its way too complecated
its too much pressure, I wish I wouldve fainted
I just wanna go, fuck everyone that I know
fuck everyone that i love
and everything that i own

chorus:
all the expectations i dont meet, I fucking hate myself
if we play truth or dare I would take the gun and kill myself
I disappoint my friends and I disappoint my family
I really fucking hate it here, I really fucking hate it here

ugh, and I - and I
I cant talk the way I want,  cuz I dont know you
and I wish I'd be gone, so leave me alone
bro im sad and I know 
i-i-i try to hide it, I dont show it
yeah I just pray that you notice,
I just pray that you hold me

I try to be what they tell me,
its going on for too long, its endlessly - my family

with all the expectations
i disappoint myself
FUCK

chorus:
all the expectations i dont meet, I fucking hate myself
if we play truth or dare I would take the gun and kill myself
I disappoint my friends and I disappoint my family
I really fucking hate it here, I really fucking hate it here

expectations

originally didnt want to release this but I keep coming back to this.. produced byu mee!
last song before an album (i hope)

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