FAV. FOUND SOUNDS VOL. X1

Music and visual art made by me.(Malcolm Alexander Leinberger)Copyright 2021.

Feel alone in a crowd.
All the faces blend together like clouds.
diving in the water trying not to drown
trying to turn my frown upside down
with these mushrooms and a bag of bud i grew
floating up on the clouds
they don't make a sound and I don't really even want 'em to
could you now, please just accept me?
And I'd still be stressing
i know people feel similar to me
and i find some comfort in the dream of a team
sometimes i wish i could be like them
...but i never really liked them
now i'm smoking on a pipe stem
and i wonder where my life went
and i wonder when the night ends
guess i never really had friends 
up all night like a crack head
staring at my phone will you call back? when?
i was good, now in withdrawal
with the paint we would draw on walls
got this pain and all the drugs
crush em up like it was in love
orange crush, when i lean mix it up
co - dependant, I'm leanin' on your love
see me wit the cuts, bleeding in the cut
cut up the blunt stuff it up, then do it all again
i'm not what you would call a friend
bi polar, i wanna talk to them
at the worst time - they wanna talk to me?
Feel alone in a crowd.
All the faces blend together like the clouds.
diving in the water trying not to drown
trying to turn my frown upside down
upside down.

Release Date: April 8th 2021

ALONE IN A CROWD (PROD. GRIM JONES)

Everyday, Feel I'm wasting on the low,
Long time spent looking for the place I used to know,
Outta smoke,
Life throwed,
Chop and screw my fucking conscience  its alarming when I go,
Breath fleeting with the wind, im falling out just like before,

Please Just get back, get back,
No collateral damage done on my watch, 
I hope you get that, 
It's never your fault, you only see it like an attack,
Cause I'm phrasing it wrong and I know you never try to reject what I say,

What can I say,
It's all the same I said before but nothing ever fucking change,

I'm in a loop, and I can't seem to stop the tape,
My vision fading everytime I see her face,
Long night, cold days,

Lost sight, no face,
Eyes closed, show faith,
Mind froze, no case,
Time slowed, no waste,
All gas, propane,
White stash, no Caine,
Life fading in the dark,
Now my body feel the same,

Grey clouds follow me around to hide me from myself,
Envy those who walk around and act like there's nobody else,
That ignorance is bliss, I wish I stashed that bitch up on a shelf,
My heart can't take this inhibition, no prescription gonna help,

Been smoking since the age of 12, 
My mind is stuck replacing cells,
Did this damage on my own,
Now im alone and I can't tell,
If what I hear is really real,
Or what I feel is how i felt,
I think I'm passing over soon,
Just throw my body in the well,
Pictures burning in the bottom now im floating in the depths of my mistakes, 
I tried to solve em but they show up everyday, 
Could never stop it so I had to run away,
I regret everything I ever did to you, but I can't stay,

Get Back

FLP corrupted so i cant finish this 

Prod. Me

All this talking never action say you had it but you didn't 
Tend to scatter when we walking by it's A02 division
Make examples outta you bitches flip the script and they diminish
Broken logic how you operate ill see you at the finish

Since a minute I've been grinding, put my nose down to the dirt
Stay inside no wasted time I spend my life to make it work
Put me first but that's okay, they try to change but stay the same
it's funny how they try to make it like the rest, then fade away

Blowing dope until I croak
cause i cant ever seem to cope
my body aching when i wake
so i don't sleep until i fold
im losing hope
I cant ever seem to stop
the sudden urges tend to block 
the motivation to redeem myself from where I fell apart
Open mind and open heart 
Overdosing off the jars I tend to smoke when im alone 
I mend the pain as I depart


Know my body cloaked in scars
I been useless from the start
I cant improve it I'm too far 
Think this the end I'm off the charts
Life support is gone
Toss the body hide the gun
Now my time is up
Chase the liquor with the stun
Colt 45 to my head watch it dump
Chasing bags but you never making bread 
Bitch you sounding like a chump
Ice flowing through my veins as I'm leaking out my dome
Still a living legend even in the fucking tomb

Your words mean nothing

Sitting by the creek,
Four woods to my lungs,
By my lone, found my peace,
All this smoke just makes me numb,

Stay at home, I never leave,
Im always up, I’m losing sleep, 
Body’s weak, 
Staying alive is so pointless when there ain’t a thing that is worth it to keep,

Smoke til the suns out,
Pain never numbs out,
Early morning working, 
making beats until I can’t see a thing bitch I’m off in the cloud,

Fuck What they talking bout,
I hear my own sound,
A02 pro sound,
No questions, 

I’m the one who runs the fucking ship now,
I put a bitch down if she test me,

Your styles tired I just hope you know the truth,
feeling anxious when they see its AO2,
No more trying, think your time is overdue,
Mind is frying off the shit I tend to do,
I been so quiet for too many days bitch I’m good off the dry conversation, 
i notice you pulling away once again got me feeling I’m stuck in a haze in the vacant,

X2
Choked up, toked up,
Bitch I’m over loaded,
Know they never notice,
Losing time I’m hopeless,

Moked up, go numb
Got me feeling chosen
Overdosing when i wake up
Everyday slowly eroding

Bodies cold to the touch, from the ice on my neck,
Blade pulled if you rush, keep it tucked in my vest,
I know her hearts beating fast I can see it through her chest,
Tell me that she gonna last, they never do she like the rest,

No pain, just bliss,
I see the spark when she trying,
All love, no crying,
Voices too loud for me to try to hide ‘em,
I’m stuck in the mist,
Broken again how I’m stuck in positions I made for myself in a time I was different, 
I never run from my mistakes anymore cause that shit never leave if you try to resent it,
Live in my penance seeking the ending, hope that you leave fore I keep on descending,
Thank you for helping as much you did but I’m good off this life it’s so bleak how I’m living,
Never trynna step into the fucking world, isolated in my mind a fucking curse, 
she don’t love me anymore it fucking hurts, I’m just sick of waking up there’s nothing worse,

X2
Choked up, toked up,
Bitch I’m over loaded,
Know they never notice,
Losing time I’m hopeless,

Moked up, go numb
Got me feeling chosen
Overdosing when i wake up
Everyday slowly eroding

Moke

Eyes closed smoking sitting by myself,
Time lost, no I never spend it well,
What's your life cost since you wanna see me down in hell,
I cant right wrongs if I'm never given any help,

Now my mind gone, bitch I'm 2 faced,
Laced up off the pressure I been smoking everyday,
Feeling lesser when I wake,
You can't tell me you relate,
Cause you had a silver spoon when I was looking for a plate,

Ice skates how you walking, you can't balance everything,
Soon to fall down like the rest and see how we don't live the same,
Bitch you pressed up, 
I'm feeling next up, 
Hope to see my vision flourish in the next one,

Off the juice bitch you can't even compete with us we don't speak the same 
Slurring every single word and try to claim you made a change,
Spew the same I said before it's funny how they ride the wave,
Losing concentration everytime she say my fucking name,

Bad lil bitch on my left got me acting wrong,
I cant do this shit again I won't be happy long,
I have to act around the people that I hang with, 
I feel it's all a waste cause in the end Im always dead alone,

Cost

Death in my lungs
Took a blunt to the face
My life slow up when the high don’t stay
I roll ten more just to change up the pace
Heart stuck on e never had a full tank

Broken apart I can’t find any trace
Lost in the dark had to find me a way
Rose up from the depths like sup bitch
I don’t wanna cuff bitch im just trynna get my fucking pay roll

I never do what they do say tho
Put your life on mute like cable
Recently I have been stable
But I feel it again I don’t think I am able 
Pressure too thick crawling under my skin
Hold my blood in hands think im falling again 
Off in the roots want it all in the end
See your lost in the past won’t you follow me in

Vision distorted I can’t feel my face  
I made this mistake here before
Open the door and accept that 
You don’t have a place 
No You cannot stay anymore
I need you outta my space
Lost in my ways never plan for a change
Hoping my life wasn’t simply a waste 
Stuck in the pit they don’t hear what I say



Kick rocks bitch boy I don’t fuck witcha
Eyes close froze up know im done witcha
You looking for a plate im a go getta
Bitch I never throw shade imma go tell em

No telling how this shit got far 
bitch im too locked off from the rest of all my old wishes 
No difference in my mind if I live or I die
Only she can really tell me if im worth a try 
Blank page every night know who am I
I let you decide if I should really live a life 
No Time lost my thoughts don’t provoke me
stuck in the ways of the damned and the lonely

Act like you know me but never could care less
You stuck on the old me you shouldn’t compare us
Its hard to control it I can’t seem to bare it 
My mind is a prison my body a seraph

If you find my heart please will you spare it
Got too many scars I can’t repair it 
Seen too many stars dim in the night its sad how they go when there’s no one to share it

Tired

After dark X Yes, I've grown from a man to a God _(𝐬𝐥𝐨𝐰𝐞𝐝 + 𝐫𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐛)

AmericanSweetheart

IfHeDies,HeDies

After Dark x Sweater Weather ( Ultra Slowed  Reverb)

GigaChad Theme Phonk (Super Slowed + Reverb)

tom platz, kevin levrone, mike mentzer - bodybuilding motivation

After Dark x Somebody that I used to know (slowed)

Harness

this is weird

.ZIP

HitBoutIt

Old Tape Generation

Song: LOSE MYSELF
Produced by: Blackmanta1989$
Vocals by: April Ruddell

LOSE MYSELF (Ft. April Ruddell)

I never would have thought such an ugly experience could lead to something so beautiful. I hold this song very dear to my heart. The beat production process took me months to create. I had to have my heart and mind smashed into countless pieces in order for this to come to fruition. 15 vocal tracks and 6 different takes stacked in the chorus. © Copyright April 24 2024. All rights reserved to Malcolm Alexander Leinberger A.K.A. Maco's Shadow A.K.A. Grim Jones Musical Enterprises.® Lyrics: 
i told myself
i need no one
musta been drunk
why am i so dumb?
why do i run
from all the love?
why can't i trust anyone?
when all said and done 
everyone goes
everyone must
nobody knows
how to break up
ya ya i know
i lost my mind
so long ago
so sick of this fight 
please let it go
i lost my life
in a glass bowl
i lost my light
down a dark road
lost track of time
where did it go?
don't think i'm fine
where is my hope?
am i in hell?
nobody knows
tell me some lies
tell me i'm dope
tell me i'm fine
tell me i felt
what was just mine
obsessed with self
darkness in my mind
no one to tell
nobody minds
i won't as well
feel so alone
peace is a joke
leave with my bones
crushed in my heart,
it's torn apart
doing these drugs,
till peace is far
and i just shrug
Malcolm please come down off that stuff
please can you trust
we need you with us
don't turn up dead please don't doubt
i need god and a priest for now
let these demons drown i need Jesus now
they eatin' me alive kill these leaches how
i'd seen myself in a dream about
3 years ago gotta leave this town
gotta quit these drugs get clean somehow
let the love in let these demons out
i'm by myself
i need some help
i got my love
but that ain't enough now
forget all these drugs
i am too numb now
never even felt
i lost myself 
forgot who i was
is this just hell?
who are you to tell?
could you just help?
never even felt
lied to myself
said i needed no one
how could i be so dumb?
....................
i told myself
i need no one
musta been drunk
why'm i so dumb?
why do i run
from all the love?
why can't i trust
anyone
when all said and done 
everyone goes
everyone must
nobody knows
how to break up
ya ya i know
i lost my mind
so long ago

Harness

M6T