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(Lyrics)

\\ intro //

I been spending all my nights alone
Wake up to missed calls on my phone
I just want to have you for my own
My love for you it’s only grown

I waste my time on mindless things
Might just say fuck it and buy a wedding ring
Every time I see you it’s refreshing 
This is real love not some summer fling

\\ verse 1 //

I run into your arms love to feel you baby
Spent a lot of time alone and I miss you lately
When I am without you time goes slow it drives me crazy
Have no motivation yeah people think I’m lazy 

Really I just miss you want to feel your lips
We can run away from this town yeah we’ll dip
Drive round with the windows down we’ll take a long trip
Yeah the rain it pitter patters on the windshield it drips

\\ bridge //

Yeah on the windshield it drips (x2)

But then we go off road and we flip
Pitter patter turns to blood splatter

\\ verse 2 //

Yeah the wheels go off-road we try to steer back on
But we can’t correct and full of fear you grab my arm
Yeah we go over we lose control
The car begins to roll
Oh God why’d you let this happen she didn’t get to get old

Yeah I watched you stop breathing
Saw the life from your eyes leaving
Your eyes closed, chest stopped heaving
I tried my hardest to help but couldn’t stop the bleeding

\\ Chorus //

I been spending all my nights alone
No more calls from you are on my phone
I just wish I had you for my own
My love for you it’s only grown

I waste my time on mindless things
Might just say fuck it and sell this wedding ring
I miss your laugh and your love it’s depressing
Yeah we had real love not some summer fling

\\ outro //

Without you I hate to grow old
When you left so did part of my soul
Every day alone is one that I dread
I keep replaying that car crash in my head

i keep replaying that car crash in my head

cry me a river (prod. w00ds & Roiael)

thank you to soku and dysphoric for hopping on this yall did amazing<3
thank you to mist3r and POLAROID for producing these amazing beats<3
hope yall enjoy!

losing myself w/ soku

Nice to Meet Me

Nice to Meet Me (feat. Au/Ra)

[chorus]
Everything's alright, right, I don’t really know
But you left me in the dust, you left me in the snow
I’ve been finding ways to cope, so
Trying to accept that i’m broke, yo

[verse 1]
everything's alright, right, I don’t really know
I’ve been trying to tell you that i hate feeling alone
I’ve been trying to walk this path, I don’t know where to go
Oh, I hate being alone
You tell me that you love me, but is that really true
The first time that I met you, yea I was into you
The first time that I met you, I didn’t know what to do
(I didn’t know what to do-o-o)
You break me down, then build me back up again
I thought you were my friend
In the end, that’s not what you were at all
I thought you cared for me, but you didn’t care at all
I thought you-
You wanted me more than anything
Thought that you cared
Thought you were my everything
Guess I was wrong for just about everything
Yea-ea-ea

[chorus x2]
Everything's alright, right, I don’t really know
But you left me in the dust, you left me in the snow
I’ve been finding ways to cope, so
Trying to accept that i’m broke, yo
Everything's alright, right, I don’t really know
But you left me in the dust, you left me in the snow
I’ve been finding ways to cope, so
Trying to accept that i’m broke, yo

[verse 2]
I’m trying to tell myself, “I’m alright”
I’m trying to tell myself, “I’m just fine”
I’m trying to walk through hell, and I
(And I)
I don’t know what I was thinking
I don’t know what I was believing
I can’t see, but I’m still blinking
And I can’t hear, but that don’t sink in
I don’t really care, please just leave me here
I don’t really care, please just leave me here
Please just leave me here, yeah
Everything is good, everything is fine
Everything’s alright, and everything is nice
And everything you tell me is a lie yeah
(everything you tell me is a lie yeah)
Yeah trust me I’m not blind yeah
(trust me I’m not blind yeah)

[chorus]
Everything's alright, right, I don’t really know
But you left me in the dust, you left me in the snow
I’ve been finding ways to cope, so
Trying to accept that i’m broke, yo

everything's alright, right? (prod. jxsie beats)

Lyrics

What do I do when you leave me here bleeding
How do I cope when my pasts not receding
How can I start to rebuild up my heart when you said to my face I’m a joke and your leaving

What do I do when you leave me alone
What do I do when you blow up my phone
How i text back when I know all the facts 
And You put up an act cause I know bout the cheating

Now your screaming that I hate you I hate you
No one really wants to date you yeah date you
Now Im hesitant to pick up the pencil 
Cause I’ve lost all the people that I relate to

Now your screaming that I hate you I hate you
No one really wants to date you yeah date you
Now Im hesitant to pick up the pencil 
Cause I’ve lost all the people that I relate to

Forget the times when you gave me a meaning
Fell for your laugh fuck I fell for your breathing
Then you switched up like leaves in the seasons
Running away and I rot into pieces
Fuck with my mental not feeling enough
Feeling the pain and I’m taking a puff
Playing the victim like what have I done
I see through the lies I see through the bluffs

I’m hating my person
Thinking bout life and I guess I deserved it
Could have been better I was just a burden
Wouldn’t care right now even if the world end
World end 
World end
thinking right now and I’m wishing the world end
And if it did I would save you a spot yeah you hurt me a lot but your my favorite person

You were there for me so why did you lie
I fucking loved you and I felt alive
My only friend and you stuck at my side
But I guess that’s convenient cause you stuck a knife
And I fell for you once nah I fell for you twice
But I fell to the bottom it’s dark there’s no light
And I know I sound petty I don’t wanna die
But just thinking of you I don’t wanna live life

What do I do when you leave me here bleeding
How do I cope when my pasts not receding
How can I start to rebuild up my heart when you said to my face I’m a joke and your leaving

What do I do when you leave me alone
What do I do when you blow up my phone
How i text back when I know all the facts 
And You put up an act cause I know bout the cheating

Now your screaming that I hate you I hate you
No one really wants to date you yeah date you
Now Im hesitant to pick up the pencil 
Cause I’ve lost all the people that I relate to

Now your screaming that I hate you I hate you
No one really wants to date you yeah date you
Now Im hesitant to pick up the pencil 
Cause I’ve lost all the people that I relate to

Cognitive Distortion (prod. tennis player)

PLANTED (p. jaylen.)

written by Lxst Boy & Giovanni
produced by Boyfifty & Ayleen Valentine 
mixed and mastered by Giovanni
out on all platforms

thanks for all the support on the old version 💙
shoutout Matthias, love u bro

-lyrics-
(Hook: Ayleen Valentine)
I'm sorry that I let you down
it's probably cause I sleep too much
and every time that you're around
there's always something wrong

(Verse 1: Lxst Boy)
late nights and talks with my conscience
lately i been feeling nauseous
I write songs so call me off topic
lowkey wanna tell them to stop it
I'll just get walked on
I'm feeling that way like non-stop
I'm sorry I'm an outcast wait no I'm not
but I let you down whenever I talk
I'm feeling like a 9tails knockoff
I came from the sewers then the time stopped
im running around in circles in my thoughts
the clock winding down, hear the tick tock
when I'm locked in my room
I'm feeling the tension
record at my desk
these lyrics unscripted
writing these songs
that you'll never listen
cause you never cared
I'm a solo mission woah
uh I wanna talk
without feeling guilty
I need a shower
you making me filthy
blood stains the wall
you know that you killed me
its cold in my room
and at night it gets chilly
I wanna talk
but every time I do my heartstrings in a knot
in getting tired of writing these songs
and day by day 
you wouldn't tell me what's wrong
yeah

(Hook: Ayleen Valentine)
 
(Verse 2: Giovanni)
where am i goin, what do i got 
i feel so lonely, everyone stop
want you to hold me, damn i forgot 
what it was like, i feel distraught 
i let you down and watched you depart
now everything’s loud and i’m caught in the dark
like i’m in the dirt, buried with the worms 
and that is the funniest fuckin part
cause what did we say together
all of those times, that you let me down
tell the words that we sang together
everything’s fine, we’ll be alright 
we’ll fuckin stand in the rain together 
i don’t mean to cry, but why did you lie
remind me again why stayed together 

(Hook: Ayleen Valentine)

S T R E A M

Let You Down w/ Giovanni & Ayleen Valentine (boyfifty)

new song with Lxst Boy
check him out - https://soundcloud.com/lxstboymusic

@TheMarkerFlipper x @Lxst Boy - just the two of us (prod. Con)

@akumuh - bounce (prod. necu)

And I’ve been anxious and lonely 
My thoughts keep me cozy
And I keep my worries all close on a leash
I’m over thinking my whole life
It goes for the whole night
And lately I’ve been forgetting how to sleep 
And I’ve been anxious and lonely 
My thoughts keep me cozy
And I keep my worries all close on a leash
I’m over thinking my whole life
It goes for the whole night
And lately I’ve been forgetting how to sleep 
And I’ve been anxious and

Man I really hate anxiety 
It’s like a dressing room 
The way its trying me 
I’ve been inside my head
I’m dying silently 
My thoughts are turning up 
but do it quietly 
I stress on
The smallest of things
Which usually don’t matter
But matter to me 
My mind has been racing 
I’m Lighting McQueen 
I constantly panic 
I’m panicking
Somebody please 
Man I could really use Jesus 
Stressed out
I don’t even got a reason 
All this thinking 
You would think I was a genius 
Been living in repetition  
I’m tripping 
I’m sleepless
You thinking I’m playing 
Life ain’t a game 
Maybe I am a little deranged 
I’ve been seeing every problem 
Their getting caught in my brain 
I’ve been praying for change 
Or a key to the cage 
Or a cure my pain 
Okay this is kinda lame 

And I’ve been anxious and lonely 
My thoughts keep me cozy
And I keep my worries all close on a leash
I’m over thinking my whole life
It goes for the whole night
And lately I’ve been forgetting how to sleep 
And I’ve been anxious and lonely 
My thoughts keep me cozy
And I keep my worries all close on a leash
I’m over thinking my whole life
It goes for the whole night
And lately I’ve been forgetting how to sleep 
And I’ve been anxious and

Yeah I been overthinking 
I’m over thinking 
While tryna cook up a beat
Got over seasoned 
I don’t ever smoke 
Got sober reasons  
Man I need a cup of coffee
That’s Costa Rican
It’s hard to deal on my own 
I took a break from my phone 
Stil I feel on my lone 
the reasons unknown 
I’m praying to God 
the King on the throne, ya know? 

And I’ve been anxious and lonely 
My thoughts keep me cozy
And I keep my worries all close on a leash
I’m over thinking my whole life
It goes for the whole night
And lately I’ve been forgetting how to sleep 
And I’ve been anxious and lonely 
My thoughts keep me cozy
And I keep my worries all close on a leash
I’m over thinking my whole life
It goes for the whole night
And lately I’ve been forgetting how to sleep 
And I’ve been anxious and

PLANTED (p. jaylen.)

jaylen.

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