I dig your music not just this song! Its heartfelt & you really know how to control your volcals/voice. Can’t wait to see you blow up so keep making music yo!

Broo so underrated 🙏keep up the good work much love g 
This hits different

this one sounds like a rxseboy, its rly good

Sounds like chills but vibe is better. got a new supporter 👍🏽

written by Lxst Boy, Cavasoul, and soku
produced by Riddiman and oldboyy
mixed and mastered by Lxst Boy
cover art by futoh
out on all platforms

-lyrics-
(Hook: Lxst Boy)
finish up my homework then I write another song
why does everybody hate me I swear that I did nothing wrong
got like 20 messages everytime I check my phone
but i will never answer them, I hate this feeling its getting old

(Verse 1: Lxst Boy)
try to tell me that im not ok
but cant you see the smile thats plastered on my face
like come over sometime and find me dead at my place
im sipping on this coffee praying that this pain would go away
the solitude is nice but I'm sick of being alone
walked a million miles on a path they call the lonely road
pondering my consciences, the deepest part of my soul
but hey im just a kid so what do i really know

(Hook)

(Verse 2: Cavasoul)
i hate this feeling, feeling horrible
is getting old
im losing meaning, meaning everything is seeming horrible
I'm conceited, seated at a table undesirable
I know that she could ruin me because shes so adorable
I fall asleep and I see images of violence
I see a side of me incite a riot
swear my head is never quiet
I'm craving death, it tries to overtake my fear of dying
I'll just go to bed so hopefully I can stop fucking crying
i hate this feeling that I feel whenever I open up my eyes
and now my lungs have started hurting as result from getting high
it gets tiring when you always just feel like you could die
now I'm breaking down again, just for today is the third time

(Hook)

(Verse 3: soku)
it's getting old, I'm growing old and I don't know if i could stay
every time you look my way I just turn and look away
I don't know if I could stay in this place
with this feeling that I hate and it won't go away yeah
yeah my voice is sounding stupid and my grades are going down
everybody else around hating me I feel the frown
on my face yeah I'm a waste yeah
telling everyone I might just take a break yeah
I finish up my homework then I go and cry alone
everybody hating me  and so I walk the lonely road
got like 20 messages every time i check my phone 
but that's not quite reality I hate this feeling it's getting old

(Hook)

@cavasoul
@soku_music
@prodriddiman

S T R E A M

i hate this feeling w/ cavasoul & soku (riddiman x oldboyy)

I Smoke To Cope

Down In The Dumps (feat. Jomie)

Lyrics

What do I do when you leave me here bleeding
How do I cope when my pasts not receding
How can I start to rebuild up my heart when you said to my face I’m a joke and your leaving

What do I do when you leave me alone
What do I do when you blow up my phone
How i text back when I know all the facts 
And You put up an act cause I know bout the cheating

Now your screaming that I hate you I hate you
No one really wants to date you yeah date you
Now Im hesitant to pick up the pencil 
Cause I’ve lost all the people that I relate to

Now your screaming that I hate you I hate you
No one really wants to date you yeah date you
Now Im hesitant to pick up the pencil 
Cause I’ve lost all the people that I relate to

Forget the times when you gave me a meaning
Fell for your laugh fuck I fell for your breathing
Then you switched up like leaves in the seasons
Running away and I rot into pieces
Fuck with my mental not feeling enough
Feeling the pain and I’m taking a puff
Playing the victim like what have I done
I see through the lies I see through the bluffs

I’m hating my person
Thinking bout life and I guess I deserved it
Could have been better I was just a burden
Wouldn’t care right now even if the world end
World end 
World end
thinking right now and I’m wishing the world end
And if it did I would save you a spot yeah you hurt me a lot but your my favorite person

You were there for me so why did you lie
I fucking loved you and I felt alive
My only friend and you stuck at my side
But I guess that’s convenient cause you stuck a knife
And I fell for you once nah I fell for you twice
But I fell to the bottom it’s dark there’s no light
And I know I sound petty I don’t wanna die
But just thinking of you I don’t wanna live life

What do I do when you leave me here bleeding
How do I cope when my pasts not receding
How can I start to rebuild up my heart when you said to my face I’m a joke and your leaving

What do I do when you leave me alone
What do I do when you blow up my phone
How i text back when I know all the facts 
And You put up an act cause I know bout the cheating

Now your screaming that I hate you I hate you
No one really wants to date you yeah date you
Now Im hesitant to pick up the pencil 
Cause I’ve lost all the people that I relate to

Now your screaming that I hate you I hate you
No one really wants to date you yeah date you
Now Im hesitant to pick up the pencil 
Cause I’ve lost all the people that I relate to

Cognitive Distortion (prod. tennis player)

Im Losing It w/Matego (prod. moon)

a little something to let you know that you aren’t alone🥀
his insta @im_a_lxser_ mine @lxtinsheep
love you<3

what’s wrong with me? (ft. matego)

i wish i could die (w/ Cavasoul)

Inspire me : paypal.me/Lucianinoir

More on www.lucianinoir.com/

Dcnt try me Prod. By pilotkid

sadeyes - tendency

shoutout to rxseboy for help! please give him l

never say goodbye (ft. rxseboy)

I don’t fear for nobody else but myself
Facing repercussions for hands that I dealt
Moving far away counting down the days
Head across the coast headed to LA

I sit and Wonder how this life will change 
Could I see
Everything that I was supposed to be 
I never needed 
Anybody
Just to get an opinion 
From someone else
Just to tell me That I really need some help
Who need some help

Let me escape
I had some time away
I tried my best for the change
When I don’t follow faith, fate
I’m losing all
Of everything I have
Thoughts stuck in the past 
Minds been frozen for so long it’s static 

Wait and see my dream unfold
Right in front of my eyes
Never seemed to close to me 
Taking in all my advice 
On the path go right 
It is only how supposed to be 

So when I move on 
Will we will still be strong
Or you will come follow me
See us in the night time sky with the summer time vibes 
feel nice out wind and breeze 

Cause I been down falling out now I’m up so far
Felt so lonely now I’m moving
Finding me fresh start

Used to run slow watch me go
Won’t be missing my home
Call me if you need me but I can’t be here

Let me escape
I had some time away
I tried my best for the change
When I don’t follow faith
I’m losing all
Of everything I have
Thoughts stuck in the past 
Minds been frozen for so long it’s static 

Let me escape
To some place I’ve never been
I could find a way to start it over once again
Chasing wind knowing that nobody ever wins 
Thinking things were better back then
It’s not tho

Cause things were never better i hope I can move on
Tired singing sorrow I don’t like sad songs
Beach days sunlight heal
When I can’t help but feel
what i feel

Hope a move will finally make it better 
Blue skies LA heard it nicer weather 
All is alright I said would never
Wrote goodbyes love notes and rose letters

Finding peace in my garden
Every piece is not new
Some things have to get started
For my dreams to come true

Let me escape
I had some time away
I tried my best for the change
When I don’t follow faith
I’m losing all
Of everything I have
Thoughts stuck in the past 
Minds been frozen for so long it’s static

Escape [prod.kado]

Selfish

Selfish (feat. SadBoyProlific)

Just trying to make music I like... from a bedroom

Cognitive Distortion (prod. tennis player)

Dysphoric

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