Make Believe

shouldn't have trusted u / prod. H3ylo

verse 1:
back in 2015, skipping stones by the lake
laughing at stupid secrets and the jokes we would make
then my parents dropped the news like a hit to the head
fell asleep thinking of you, woke up in a plane instead
wish i fought to stay, but i froze when it came
people said it wouldn’t matter, but they didn’t know your name
kept you tucked in my chest like a bruise i wouldn’t hide
carried you through every night with your bracelet at my side, yeah


hook:
every night that he ran only sharpened the fear
every thought of her voice pulled him back to that year
should’ve spoken the truth, but he never knew how
now it rises like grief and it’s cutting him now  

every mile they crossed only twisted the knife
every dream with her face wrecks the rest of his life
should’ve freed her back then, but he never knew how
now she’s drifting like smoke and he’s breaking right now

bridge:
hey… truth be told i don't exactly know why i’m calling, but that year keeps looping in my head
y'know, the lake, and the jokes, and the way that you said my name
i thought leaving would make it fade but it didn’t
i should’ve told you how heavy it hit me. i still miss you
i just… wanted you to know
uhh, call me back when you got time


verse 2:
i’ve been pacing through the nights trying hard not to drown
counting hours till i’m standing once again in your town
you the sound on the phone that could soften my chest
every laugh on facetime felt like a place i could rest
stashed away what i could just to get on that flight
telling coworkers and friends it would all be alright
when i see you, i might cry just from losing the mask
promise me you’ll stay close, it is all that i ask

hook:
every night that he ran only sharpened the fear
every thought of her voice pulled him back to that year
should’ve spoken the truth, but he never knew how
now it rises like grief and it’s cutting him now  

every mile they crossed only twisted the knife
every dream with her face wrecks the rest of his life
should’ve freed her back then, but he never knew how
now she’s drifting like smoke and he’s breaking right now

bridge:
ladies and gentleman, this is your captain speaking
on behalf of the entire crew
i'd like to welcome you onboard to flight 237 with non-stop service to new York
thanks for flying with us today

outro (verse 3):
landed late in your city, heart loud on the ride
kept it quiet from you just to see your eyes wide
your parents let me in, told me they hoped i was fine
i nodded like i meant it while i practiced the line
then you walked in the room with a hand that wasn’t mine
hit me clean in the gut like i crossed the wrong line
hands shaking, heart racing, body close to collapse
“should’ve told you how i felt” hitting line after lapse, yeah


after takeoff // 2015 (prod. 4lexf)

a song from my heart

Lyrics:

The day that I cried
Was the day that you lied
It was the day that I died
It was the day that you died

The day that I cried
Was the day that you lied
It was the day that I died
It was the day that you died

heartache, love ache
Lately I been drowning in these hard days
Thinking too much, staying up late
808s & Heartbreak

like Kanye, (Kanye)
how could you be so heartless
never saw the signs when it started
didn't leave at first but my heart did

The day that I cried
Was the day that you lied
It was the day that I died
It was the day that you died

(yeah) The day that I cried
Was the day that you lied
It was the day that I died
It was the day that you died

The day that I cried
Was the day that you lied
It was the day that I died
It was the day that you died

The day that you died, I grieved and I cried
I tried to survive
Deleting memories, tryna keep me alive
Part of me wishes I'd died

I need you in my life, atleast that's what it felt like for the longest of times
I hope it's true that broken hearts can really change your life when it's put on a mic

The day that I cried
Was the day that you lied
It was the day that I died
It was the day that you died

The day that I cried
Was the day that you lied
It was the day that I died
It was the day that you died

(outro speech)
mhm, it took a while for me to learn how to live without you
but, I'm thankful that we met,
cus.. now I know how- how I never should let anyone treat me
no matter how much I may love them.
I'll be strong enough now, to put myself first

the day that i cried.

ghost ride home / prod. 4lexf

prod. by me

Don't have the full lyrics because this is my first song ever and I don't have them saved :(

the day you left

prod. by me
Lyrics:

[Verse 1]
How stupid I was
Thinking I'd get over
Believing that I won't fall ever
Now alone in my room I wonder
Since you said forever
If I asked for help
Should I await
An answer?

[Verse 2]
Times are hard
All that's left in me
Are scattered shards
I'd collect them
But the fingers reject
I keep myself checked
From these feelings I can't deflect
And I hate these thoughts I can never reflect

[Verse 3]
If you are concerned about me
You'd be correct
Yeah life's never been perfect
But I had her smile at my sight
That I could not keep, that I could not protect
I feel my body, slowly dissect
I think I am to her heart
Subject
Subject

[Verse 4]
Everything I'm feeling
Makes me act upon the worst
But I'm still smiling
And I'm still writing
Yeah I'm still standing
Life's not that bad
Go ahead and cry
Smoke another one
Turn off your brain
It's all fine

[Verse 5]
I'm glad you've been a part of my life
Even though myself don't
And I think I'd rather feel this way
Than to drive another soul away

[Outro]
I think I am to her heart
Subject (subject)
Subject (subject)

subject

Extrovert vs Introvert is about the quiet shift that happens as you grow up. I went from being surrounded by noise, friends, and constant activity to finding comfort in peace and solitude. This track captures that change — the nostalgia, the confusion, and the acceptance that comes with learning a new side of yourself.

Extravert vs Introvert

lil throwaway song honestly. prod by me

Lyrics:
Verse 1
Honestly I didn’t think I had it in me
but the smile just wasn’t temporary
Used to wake up cloudy like a Monday morning forecast
Dragging through the hours hoping that the bad days would pass 
But now the sun hits different, swear the sky’s a clearer blue
And every single moment feels like somethin’ I should thank you for
You got me laughing at the little things, the way you misplace the keys
And sing the wrong lyrics loudly to the songs inside the grocery store, 
please. Don’t ever change a single thing, I’m serious, no jokes
My heart was like a bad joke that nobody ever told
But you’re the kind of listener that gets it on first try
Now I’m walkin’ taller, standin’ straighter, facing life right in the eye
It’s not that you fixed me, more like you reminded me what’s there
A beat I’d forgotten how to make, melody in the air
And yeah it’s corny when I say it, but the corny stuff is true
My favorite part of any day’s the part I spend with you

Verse 2
Remember when we stayed up talking bout our school regrets?
The awkward phases, mid haircuts, and the goofy bets
I love that we can laugh about the versions that we were
Cause even then I think I knew you’d be the one to bear
The color in my mind and the contrast of my thought, the calm inside my storm
You walked right in and made my heart feel finally, warm
And now I’m not afraid of quiet, not afraid of empty space
Cause even silence feels complete when I can see your face
We don’t gotta be extraordinary, don’t need no big design
Just your hand inside my hand and knowing you are mine
I’ll choose the simple, easy nights, the takeout and the chores
The stupid shows we quote all day, the inside jokes we keep in store
Over any fancy fairytale they advertise and sell
What we got’s a different kind of magic, and I know it well
It’s in the way you call me out whenever I’m pretending
And how every goodbye’s just a “see you soon” depending
On the minutes ‘til we’re side-by-side and breathing the same air
Honestly it’s kinda crazy and so good, I had to share

the change you made

Lyrics:

So hold me while I'm still here, still here
I won't be for long
Hold me while I'm still warm, still warm
Before the song stops

We haven't spoken in like a year; it's clear that you're done with me
I'm still stuck in this fear, I'm here, tryna numb the pieces (I'm scared
That you left behind, my mind, it's finding thirteen reasons
Why I'm still alive, survive, and I'll get through this (Reasons why)
I'm tryna keep on top of my thoughts, they always drift to you
I don't know what you saw, you're gone, I'm always missing you (Don't know)
Can't get you out my mind, I'm fine if I can get to you
Still learning how to cry, I lie to keep me on the move (My mind)
I tend to ask why you lied when you told the truth
I'll never know, that's fine, I'm fine, still holding onto you (You lied)
I'm scrolling through my phone, alone, I find old pics of you
I'll keep them 'til I'm old, I'll grow, I'll always think of you (My phone, alone)

So hold me while I'm still here, still here
I won't be for long
Hold me while I'm still warm, still warm
Before the song stops

I've cried way too many tears
I'm still facing too many fears
I'm still wasting my time on you
I am still crying over you
Please get out of my fucking mind
I'm so lost without you in my life
I'm still missing your voice, old friend
I'm not sleeping tonight, again
The years we shared, I won't forget
The time well spent, it was the perfect gift
I'm not done writing my book
But I wanna turn back and take another look

So hold me while I'm still here, still here (Still here)
I won't be for long (For long)
Hold me while I'm still warm, still warm (Still warm)
Before the song stops

While I'm Still Here (Prod. boyfifty)

Just a guy with a voice. If my music speaks to you, that means the world to me

lofi rapper
fuck fame and profit, do it for the love of it. do it for the catharsis.

making music for myself... that others may like

Hi, I go by the name abdush.

I am a teacher doing music as a hobby, uploading my progress here, started on October 2025, I mostly make sad songs, hope you enjoy them!

Feel free to DM me if you'd like to, about anything :)

My email if you want to reach me: abdush350@gmail.com

Discord: @lil_abdush

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