I’m wading through the River of the shadow of doubt
You’ve clickbait brain that wants to blow itself out
I’m lying to myself about where I should be now
Because You could never tell what this is really about

Self effaced, disgrace, a waste
of potential lives 
What’s the point in being born
When you’re just living to die
I wish you never came along
And messed up my life
Because no one’s gonna to lift you
If ya fall through the ice

You're just a bad reflection of your surroundings
At least that’s what you tell yourself, a jailbird sings
A gunny-sackin loser with no brains and a heart
I’ve gotta tie your ends together or you’ll tear me apart

A wash, a loss, a negative
A rhyme that’s too long
I never stop pointing out
What I think is wrong
Why can’t I just be quiet
And turn in for the night
And maybe still feel something
When things are alright

Wash my hands of everything 
Do right or do wrong
Because I can stop listening 
To my favorite song

Right now head is telling me
You messed it all up
Feel like I shouldn’t care
Or I’m not caring enough

Intruder

cherubim

I love this little guy.

(Apustaja!)

I love to see you dance and laugh and chill with your cat
You're so endearing being short and dumb and kinda fat
I don't know why I do it, but I am so obsessed with you!
I look at you and I feel so represented
You're just like me: really sweet and kinda retarded
I don't know why you exist, but I'm so happy that you do!

Oh Apu, the retarded frog dude, he pees his pants and cries
And Apu, the retarded frog dude, is like the greatest thing online!

You make me laugh out loud when I see you smiling
I'm moved to tears when I see you crying
I don't know how you do it, but I'm so happy that you do!
You got me reminiscing back on my childhood
I see new drawings of you and I feel so good
I don't know who makes these, but I'm so happy that they do!

'cause Apu, the retarded frog dude, I see so much of me in you
And Apu, the retarded frog dude, is pure at heart and really cute!!!

April Figz!

AAAPUU (Parody of Hard Christ's cover of Kitten Crisis' AAA OOO)

school sucks my professors are all gay
teach communist nonsense every day
michel foucault is their hero
michel foucault is in hell though

my dorm sucks it’s filled with huge roaches 
no a/c smells like cheap beer and piss
i want to go back and see my mom
she’s eight states away she’s too far gone

i never get invites to parties 
i fucking hate going to parties 
i sit at my desk and play vidya 
graphics card is an old nvidia 

gets me 60 frames on counterstrike 
it’s enough to play for the whole night 
friday night and i have no girlfriend 
friday night and i have no real friends 

college is the best four years of your life 
college is the best four years of your life 
college is the best four years of your life 
college is the best four years of your life 

i wake up three hours past midday 
looks like there’s a football game today 
i head over to the dining hall
trees bloodred like my eyes in the fall

the food sucks and i sit all alone 
hate it so much i want to go home 
the girls they all dress up like cheap whores
croptops, midriff, miniskirts galore

i can still make something of this day 
to the gym or maybe church to pray 
but my hip tendon it is still torn
and my religion that i have scorned 

we have thrown out all of our culture 
they circle me like starving vultures 
there can be no good way to fix this
education system is worthless

college is the best four years of your life 
college is the best four years of your life 
college is the best four years of your life 
college is the best four years of your life

"lol," said the scorpion

Demo/Snippet of Too Soon, finished track will be out on my first EP "Marketplace of Ideas"


1
I don't want to go to bed
I don't wanna go too soon~
You Messed me up in my head
It's been a year and I'm practiclly Dead

Cause all you do is bring me down
Cause all you do is bring me down


Let me be, Set myself free
I don't wanna be In captivity
I've fallen down I can't get up
I don't want you around
cause all you do is 

bring me down x 2


Do not see what I do?
I've fallen in love with you
I'm going to kill you (methaphoriclly speaking, kinda like the idea in my head)
I know what to do
Maybe I'll suffer too


you'll use me you'll abuse me
I'll see everything with some crulety
I don't wanna fall around
I don't wanna be on the other side of town

cause all you do is bring me down
I'll see you online
and then I'm brought to another time
and then I'm spirialing down

I don't care ABOUT U NO MORE
I DONT NEED TO BE WITH A WHORE
I don't want to be blamed for you
Do you not see what I do?
I've fallen in love with you

This is my Hell
but I don't care about 
This is my hell
I don't wanna be without you

TooSoon (Demo)

Chords:
C F Em Am

I want to have a Mirror
I'd dive into my own throat
Wipe the Stains;Make it cleaner
I don't wanna choke

I don't know what to do
I've lost my own throat
I'm left choking up the pieces
and nobody hears me now

I'm screaming in the dark without a voice
as I try to find my own wealth
Nobody knows what coming
Nor Do I know Myself

Will you ever see me in a new light that I can share with you?
I don't think- I don't know, what will you do?

I can't Make up my de-cisions (Don't follow me I know nothing
I can't Make up my de-cisions (Don't follow me I know nothing
I know I'm not someone who's Kindly? (I'll try- to be honest with you
but Will you hug me oh so tightly? (But I still don't know what to do

I don't think it's gonna be A-ok
Left in this pit of Rosemerry
Will I ever take off past this clouded mass
or will I forever be stuck in the past

Don't you see what I want to do today
Fall into Eternity the cycles of Entropy
It Remains in my Mind
Nobody sees me or gives me any time
I know it's okay cuz I'm gonna go insane
I know it's fucking worthless to Say Anything
at all but I don't want to Fall~

Rosemary Flight

Drums sampled from No One Knows by Queens Of The Stone Age and Straight Edge by Minor Threat
Smiling Friends is the best show on tv rn go watch it if you havent

Gosh Darn Job (Replacements Cover)

ssss

she doesn't think of me

hate myself and want to die

i just wanna wake up
somewhere new
with hunter eyes and a chiseled jawline 
but i’m a T50, sub5, subhuman born to lose
i’d do anything to have those genes like you

loooksmaxxing has ruined my life
before i wasn’t insecure and i thought i looked alright
but seeing all these chads being bullied online 
have taught me that im done
that’s over it’s so over
and it never even begun

no respect cause im too ugly
rejected by society no one to love me
looksmaxxing took all my pride
now i’m too far gone to even try

and i’m trying to go back to those good old days when i was ignorant 
didn’t worry about how i looked didn’t give a shit 
and now i’m learning im forever fucked
i should just ropemaxx and fucking give up

loooksmaxxing has ruined my fucking life
before i wasn’t insecure and i thought i looked alright
but seeing all these chads being bullied online 
have taught me that im done
that’s over it’s so over
and it never even begun

looksmaxxing ruined my life

with apologies and policies we try
to mend what we have made, to keep alive
our deadliest assumptions crystalize
for we built these cityscapes on ice.
 
now i've made my way to solid ground;
and i am but a stranger in this town.
i don't see why i should stick around:
they'll crucify me upside-down.
 
but how seldom does a man lay down his life?
how selfish is the need to satisfy?
you'll never truly live until you die.
so let your heart belong to christ.
 
there's no reason you should be unsure
don't you see this place is so absurd?
and hell is just a place where people burn
their future to keep the present warm.
 
i am a speck,
you are a treasure.
i'm dying just to be
something that's of use.

something thats of use

ANG TINIG NA SUMISIGAW SA ILANG


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