Lucky UU

The Midnight Wanderer

Oops.
Guess I forgot I wasn’t allowed…
to be excited.
Next time I’ll send out a volume warning,
just for existing.

Oh, I dared to laugh a little loud,
Guess joy's a crime when I’m around.
Didn’t get the memo—again—
That happiness needs to whisper like sin.

You whipped around like I screamed fire,
Said, “Could you not?” with that fake-tired ire.
I smiled and bit my tongue in half,
Didn’t know joy came with a decibel cap.

Sorry my voice didn’t come with a mute,
Didn’t mean to break your precious quiet.
Guess I should’ve worn a sign:
“Warning: Deaf Girl Might Riot.”

Too loud to be happy,
Too wrong to belong.
Didn’t know I had to whisper
Just to sing along.
If joy had a volume knob,
I’d turn it down just right—
To keep you comfy
While I kill my light.

Maybe I’ll download an app,
To measure each breath so you won’t snap.
Maybe I’ll smile with subtitles, too,
So no one mistakes my joy for taboo.

You act like I screamed just to steal the air,
Sorry, I forgot I shouldn’t dare.
Next time I’ll shrink so you feel big—
Or would that still make me the dig?

It’s cool, I get it—you need control,
And loud girls don’t fit your quiet role.
But next time you roll your eyes and sigh,
Maybe remember—I didn’t choose to try.

Too loud to be happy,
Too deaf to be tame.
Didn’t know my laughter
Would earn me shame.
If speaking means breaking your peace,
Then I’ll just mime my joy with ease.

“Use your inside voice.”
“Don’t be so aggressive.”
“Wow, she’s always like that.”
Right.
Because volume is violence
When it comes from someone like me.

Too loud to be happy,
Too real to erase.
Too bold to stay silent,
But too wrong for this place.
You want quiet? Here—take the crown.
I’ll be smiling in silence
While I burn your world down.

Next time I laugh,
I’ll make sure it’s silent.
Wouldn’t want to offend anyone
With joy.

Too Loud For You

All songs are written and sung entirely by me — every word, every melody, every story comes straight from my own hands. There’s no AI involved in the creation of my music. 

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Too Loud For You

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