[narrator] 

eddie used to say that it was almost like a room 
that you had to hit the fourth plateau to even get into 
and time folds in upon itself if you can make it through 
and your past and future selves are all inside waiting for you 

and he says: 
"that's how i always know just what to do." 
brenda, is that true? 

eddie says it's wrong to think of time as like a loop 
he says people perceive cycles cuz they can't handle the truth. 
"it's more like spinning plates," he says. "it's delicate, aloof 
and it's all gonna break down one day and there's nothing we can do." 

and he says: 
"i think it's gonna happen soon." 
brenda, is that true? 

[eddie] 

in the heat of the war 
are you scared or are you sure 
that when your knees hit the floor 
you will know what you are? 

[narrator] 

well, we got to the funeral bout quarter after two 
less than a week after brandon used a white belt as a noose 
he wiped his seratonin after eddie broke the truce 
all the pills they found were yellow, but it's clear he had the blues 

and he said: 
"baby, i did it all for you." 
brenda, is that true? 

[eddie] 

in the heart of the storm 
as you swing back and forth 
we all have roles. this was yours 
it was ordained when you were born 

in the midst of the swarm 
small mistakes start to form 
something big - something more 
a nagging thought: a deathless roar 

[narrator] 

well, the basements in this city are all portals into hell 
and the saints built their basilica in an attempt to quell 
any influence of demons on the kids that tend to dwell 
in the gulf between macalester and a wright county jail 

and i guess: 
i guess it's gonna have to do. 
and you know that's true.

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