Take up other things that build an internal locus of control. 

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Locus of Control

Sounds produced with field recordings, Novation Circuit Tracks, KORG Gadget for Nintendo Switch, Koala Sampler for Android, GrooveMixer for Android, XLN Audio Life and Spacecraft Granular for Android. 

Additional production and mixing using Audacity and Traktion Waveform for Windows, and the plugins ADSR Drum Machine, ADSR Hexcel, Lunacy Audio Cube, Freakshow Industries Dumpster Fire, and various Thenaten plugins. 

Most voice samples from sample packs published by Gowler Music. Some samples from random viewings of public domain movies. No copyright abuse intended. 

"Seek ye the gnarl."
--Rudy Rucker

"The forces of death melt in the morning."
--William S. Burroughs

Locus of Control

Mahmur Megrim