why am i like this?

spotify:
https://open.spotify.com/track/7e576Psa1QkEnUNp3zG1jb?si=8b4ded73f0884119

lyrics:
theres this ghost in this room he paints with visions that he wants
stuck at home, maybe the moon will gift him something going on 
and as the time had passed and days tunred into months turned into years
he met a girl and let her close but he got scared when it got real 

and she smiled so pretty 
when he tried to hold her hand 
but he felt so guilty 
because he doesnt understand 
what they said 
how he should feel it hurts his head
he puts his all into an act
to hide whats real from her and friends 
but that doesnt rly go to great, how nice!
when he finds that every goddamn thing makes him cry
and he feels like he did back in 8th grade 
because how he hates himself these times 
and hed probably say anything to get to stop checking his vitals signs

"oh hes so understanding" when he does resort to lying 
there he goes hoping someone sees the truth inside these eyes 
dont he know that hes the only one that wants him left behind?
so then he wouldnt have to talk himself to tears to feel alive 
alive, alive

and in her arms
is what his younger him did want 
cuz in the shards of broken hearts
he found the only way he ever thought he could relate to love

exactly what he wished for | prod. majora

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i hope u enjoy <3

exactly what he wished for | prod. majora

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