"brain stew"

tell me why i shiver at night alone in my room
when i think a little too much I feel my brain start to stew
to the point where if I open my mouth up they'll all come loose
I don't got a single thing to lose to tell you the truth
so let me spill it out on you before i kill myself boo
because the longer i dont talk, the more I feel I'll stay mute
all the thoughts that boil in my head they feel like a noose
i cant escape the way they choke me out while thinking of you
i know it sounds so fucking twisted when I put this in words
cuz how i feel is complicated, but what isn't with her?
I told you how she broke my heart, yeah, you were with me, you heard
I want you to hold my hand, as i go spread my wings in the hearse
I won't leave you though, I just don't know how else to express
I feel I have no breath with all this shit on my chest
you're the only one that understands me more than the rest
i feel stupid writing 'bout you, but I won't drop the pen
I'll keep going nonetheless, I cut myself on the desk
let me finish up this page, I watch it soak up the red
I put my life into these songs, all the tears and the sweat
and not to mention all my time, but fuck it all, I digress
i have a tendency to off go on tangents, i feel the devil speak
his words exit my lips, when I'm truly too fucking dead to speak
his thoughts are in my head, I'm possessed, I don't think I'll get to see
a day past twenty, I thought I'd be dead when I was seventeen
a long year later and im feeling the same way
my ship is fucking sinking im so wrecked, I scream mayday
my lungs fill up with water, when I look at her chain lace
so I can better appreciate all the air that you gave me
I know I sound like im dumb when i talk this in my songs
This shit it comes from my heart, but really, girl, really how could it not?
With all the shit that I was, and all that broke me apart
Which part of me do you love? me, or who I'm gonna become?
I gotta admit that I be confused from abuse
I swear its nothing about you, its from the blacks and the blues
but that just motivates me more to write these songs on the move
catch me up on top the moon, yeah imma take you here too
I been walking so damn long, you see the blood on these shoes?
I don't think there's hope for me, I do this shit all for you
I don't really got a future, but I want one for you
but yeah, one of these days, you know imma run from my room

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