june 15, 2021.

i'm 21 years old, now.

i'm to a point i believe more in strength in numbers than ever before.
i've surrounded myself with people i don't feel scared or unsure about being myself around.
i'm coming to terms better with the fact it's okay to let loose whatever's going on in my head. i have to be careful with where i do it, and who i do it towards, as i could very well be rattling off to the wrong person and...get nothing in return. but,
i have to remember that mistakes don't mean it's the end of it all.
i really, really have to remember the above thing. (lol)
i have to remember with the future comes oppurtunity. whatever unfilled spots will eventually round out.

i have to remember what i have. i have to remember all of them and why i'm so grateful for them. why i love them so much. why i spend every day with them and never get tired of it. why i keep going so i can hear their joy. 

i have to remember i can't just quit.
they want me to continue. and i love them.

i never thought i'd get this far. i say that every year, but i mean it every time.

2020 and this year definitely kicked my ass but they really do feel like the first two years i've ever truly, been me. now i just have to face what's ahead. it's hard but it's getting easier.

i truly feel it's getting easier. despite everything.

from dreams of stillbirth

song about friends

prod. tezza ! art is by neutrunmon on twitter edited by me :3c

calciumdansen!!! ✰⋆

исповедь о комнате, которое тебя и спасает, и ломает. ханирум не просто клуб, а живая сущность: шумная, тёмная, липкая, веселая, но на самом деле высасывающая жизнь. ты любишь его энергию, свет, за возможность раствориться в толпе, секс, тревогу, грязь.
когда ты подходишь к окну, к холодному стеклу, где город честный и без игр - гудит импульс сбежать, вдохнуть воздух, улететь отсюда. холод там - честнее, чем тепло внутри. это символ свободы, это символ настоящего полёта, которого так не хватает

wings & windows (i don’t want to go to Honeyroom)

Featuring neon beats and pseudo-organic soundscapes, Galen Tipton's 'spell books O1 ::: Ideonella sakaiensis' evokes a universe of warped synthetic evolution, nature imitating technology imitating nature, with unexpected ghosts frequently emerging from the machine. 

Described by Galen as a glistening wreckage, 'spell books O1' explores aspects of the chaotic multifaceted relationships between humans, nature and technology, acting as a spiritual sibling to previous release 'OoOo', but delving deeper into use of texture and samples to explore a more nocturnal sonic spectrum. More specifically, 'spell books O1' is an ode to Ideonella sakaiensis, a bacterium able to break down non-biodegradable plastics, essentially erasing humanity's conscious mistakes through unconscious biological processes, and shifting us from our traditional role as a destructive apex predator to a single node within a self-regulating ecological network. 

These complex mutualistic relationships that exist between nature and technology run deep as a theme through Galen's work, and are further explored in a 10-page booklet of original artwork designed to act as a narrative companion to the album.

spell books O1 ::: Ideonella sakaiensis

spell books O1 [feat. junior astronaut]

IS THAT A CACTUS IN YOUR PANTS, OR ARE YOU HAPPY TO HEAR NEW MUSIC?

Fraxiom on...
Soundcloud ~ https://soundcloud.com/fraxiom
Spotify ~ https://open.spotify.com/artist/04Y5zXsFqYRzDr6tMXj6aL
Twitter ~ https://twitter.com/fraxiommusic

Drive45 on...
Soundcloud ~ https://soundcloud.com/drive-45
Spotify ~ https://open.spotify.com/artist/1aP8KYuP9P8hmIRJqi5NfB
Twitter ~ https://twitter.com/drive45music

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"POKE" is a mixtape/compilation/thing, structured the same way as our 2017 "THAW" compilation.  The first 6 songs are from completely new musicians, who have never been on DESKPOP before, while the rest of the tracks are remixes of existing DESKPOP songs (with some of the remixers making their own DESKPOP debuts as well).

The title was decided upon because of the word's versatility.  As the first track by HiP CoLouR uses it, a poke can be to get someone's attention in a friendly but personal manner, as it implies physical contact.  "Poke" can also be used to describe how seedlings start to pop up out of the ground, similar to how the new producers on this compilation are poking their heads into the music industry.  And finally, a cactus will absolutely poke you if you mishandle it, so the word could have a more aggressive meaning attached to it, like how tracks from Cromulon Twins, pooldad & Low Poly have very in-your-face fun moments.

(High resolution album art included as a bonus item for people that donate)

POKE

~ download/stream ~

Drive45 - Have You Seen Me (Fraxiom Remix)

samples: 

@clipping. - inside out
@GirlsRituals - Black Crow
Bob Marley - Bad Boys
@BitDream - Protocol B

April tries hip hop, yet again

clearlly a meme out of money machine by 100 gecs <3
https://soundcloud.com/100gecs/money-machine

a collaborative joke between whattheconefilter and I

spego (me) www.instagram.com/s_p_e_g_o/

wtc www.instagram.com/whattheconefilter/
video
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gb2WM5WrPXY&t=9s

Hand Smashed By A Mallet

Maki-Tak