wht i listen 2

undergroundlover123

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https://www.instagram.com/jdsguilt/
formerly shrapnel interlude
an adult talking to a kid

will you listen to yourself?
theres a voice in your head telling you what not to do again

will you get somebodys help? or will
you just bleed out like you always do because you’re on the fence

are you not embarrassed of yourself and what you bring around??
theres somebody that needs you to get home safe
are you not embarrassed of the people that you bring around??
do you even care about showing(saving) face..

would you even get it?
no you wouldnt
you couldnt ever focus on anything but yourself
you just an embarassment to me and your mom 
you make me wish we were fucking alone 

and i 

wanna spit up everytime i see you but I dont
do you ever notice the fucking eyerolls
or how we talk behind your back to all your aunts and uncles
we got 
jimmy doing smack and timmy blowing bubbles
and they’ll never be as bad as you
all because you gave us attitude

I dont care
i’m just like every1 else i’m so scared
but dont call me for comfort I wont pick up the phone
just like you left me. alone

shrapnel

https://twitter.com/52jdjd



prod rab and scarlet 
everything else me

brainfreeze when you kiss me I feel everything but empty for once 
feel my bones crush when you hit me
key bumps fix me i’ll be good 

what will I take to feel ok tonight?
another day to not be dead inside
i’ll just scream at you to feel alright
at the expense of your brain

i never knew what I was looking for to tell the truth
i never knew if I was ever gon get over you
i’m falling in doing stupid shit that I shouldnt do
they talk behind my back I hope it’s all the truth

draft pick for 21, its up and done
grab all the cards and put em down, face em up
i planned to go out at 19 then I fell in love
I thought that you were just like me, I was fucking wrong

hide under my bed because the mentors in my room
I got my pills i got your hand i’m in the spot because i’m rude to everyone that comes my way I wished my problems, go away
I wish I never begged for you to stick around and stay

brainfreeze when you kiss me I feel everything but empty for once 
bones crush when you hit me key bumps fix me i’ll be good
what will it
take to feel ok tonight?
another day to not be dead inside
scream at you to feel alright at the expense of your brain


who are you looking for when you crane your head around?
boy of ur dreams has just walked out now will you say something or let yourself down?
so approachable when the dead around
so just you run or hide or hide your face cause theresno time its too late for both of us
OH HERE THEY COME GET TO HIDING HIDING
I know you wanna die but for our sake just stay alive a little longer

nineteenism

prod rab


mainline
you called me at the same time i’m reaching for my phone
I wont pick up we’re on the same time
like like
no one knows but they all get it
its all said without a mention
somethings wrong here
you can feel it in my songs, hear

the things i think about I dont know where id be without you
id fix my face and then breakdown 3x a week without you
probably be better off I feel like I can’t breathe without you
probably better off I feel like I can’t breathe without you
the things i think about I dont know where id be without you
id fix my face and then breakdown 3x a week without you
probably be better off I feel like I can’t breathe without you
probably better off I feel like I can’t breathe without you

she calls it off, shes like “ive had it, you’re a monster wreaking havoc, they were right. i’m not sure why I thought they lied..
like yeah we both fuck up but you got issues, I can’t be the one you misuse any longer
you can’t get any wronger”

and now you’re staring at your feet
because you gave it all you got
making lefts at every turn
doing shit you just should not
and every shot you get shot down
no emotion but a frown these days
you’re going down but hey

the things i think about I dunno whered id be without you
id fix my face and then breakdown 3x a week without you
probably be better off I feel like I can’t breathe without you
probably better off I feel like I can’t breathe without you
the things i think about I dunno whered id be without you
id fix my face and then breakdown 3x a week without you
probably be better off I feel like I can’t breathe without you
probably better off I feel like I can’t breathe without you

doing just fine

one of these again.. ben a minute


this bracelet that i've come to like
has been keeping me up
more like keeping me right wont lie....
im reminded of you, and that's silly to say because you're too far away
its a crush or a fall, not a like lol
and the bracelet broke last night
and i wont replace it, i wont go remake it i think i deserve this

and they see me hurting, so they're reaching out
their arms are so long its crossing 2 thousand miles
going city to city, really feels like you're with me
but i've still never met you, and thats kind of shitty

ill see you in february :)
my fingers are crossed
rather be in the cold
than out in the frost

oh yeah good luck on your finals
i doubt that youd need it
i call you a nerd
but im sure youre a genius

just make it to february

midsommar lovebear, you got it

@prodpishogue on the instrumental show him love

lyrics:

i make up things way too much
it always makes things worse, and they were worse enough
i know that you hate me, dont say it again
i know we'll never be friends,
i know you wish i was dead

ill never get your attention
i hate when youre mentioned
it makes me feel helpless and
i get so depressed and
i cant do this again
im dead 100%
im always getting attacked
thats why i always defend

im dead 100%

@prodpishogue on the instrumental show him love

lyrics:
nothing is changing between us
all this blood needs to be cleaned up
nothing in the world could heal us

nothing is gon make this better
can i get back my sweater
can i get back the weather
i wish that id never met ehr


girl you drive me psycho
im joking but you do tho

i think my heart is dying
im so bad at deciding

i promise im not high mom
my eyes are red from crying

i know i lost my love girl
but id rather keep on lying

can i get my sweater back lol

@i-wanna-be-a-jack-o-later

felt ur love sorround me
thought i couldnt lose
put ur arms around me 
it left me confused
took too long for me to understand
i'll always fall for you until i cant
put ur arms around me
dancing in my room

i met you around this time of year
i dont want u in my head i want u with me here
we fell in love that summer
fell out at the same time
i dont wanna trust her
im way too dependent i'll leave it to you
the knife's in my chest but i'll leave it through
i spent all my sunny days believing u

arms around me

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https://on.soundcloud.com/A1AKeTDZi1xbECFs8

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mandy