drinkin in the apocalypse

reading between lines that have never been written

stop me before i say something too real

so i won't be guessing in the end

"brown"

some people used to mock me
and push me around
kick me and shove me 
for being too brown
I wanted to see them drown

I wondered why they'd call me wet back
but spit in my face
scream and insult me
over something like race
they were a fvcking disgrace

last year at a festival
some guy got in my face
told me I should go home
go back to the Middle East
I just kept drinking in peace

I'm hardly
I'm hardly
I'm hardly the only one
I'm hardly the only one

brown

"regrets"

I'm trying to live a life with no regrets
I'm trying to live a life with no regrets
I try and I try but you know I haven't done it yet
I'm still trying to live my life with no regrets

if I opened myself up to you you'd just see a wreck
and I'm telling you right now that's be my biggest regret

you're trying to live a life with no regrets
you're trying to live a life with no regrets
I see you trying but I know you haven't done it yet
keep trying to live your life with no regrets

if you opened yourself up to me you're afraid I'd just see a wreck
and you're thinking right now that might be your biggest regret

regrets

"pain"

pain
is a soul crushing drain
it steals dreams from my brain
it makes me walk with a cane

pain
makes my best friend my mary jane
takes my pills with some champagne
rots my mind away like cocaine

pain
my spine is the devil's war campaign
my insides are just a bloodstain
sanity I can't maintain

pain
like hit with a brick in a hurricane
slicing your hand in a window pane
hit in the teeth with a metal chain

pain
they should outlaw it, it's inhumane
for years its been my ball and chain
spinal scars are my mark of cain

pain
it's making me go insane
like sitting naked in the acid rain
or jumping in front of a train

pain
it's making me go insane
like sitting naked in the acid rain
or jumping in front of a train

pain

pain

pain

pain

"bottles"

I wish you'd stay away
you're a siren to me everyday
you help me transcend
I'm convinced you are my friend
I'm convinced you are my friend
I'm convinced you are my friend

I wish I'd forget you
wish the taste me made me sick
I'd walk away
but I'm convinced you are my friend
I'm convinced you are my friend
I'm convinced you are my friend

I wish I could say No
but it sucks me in
I pop one open
convinced that it's my friend
convinced that it's my friend
convinced that it's my friend

I wish you'd stay away
you're a siren to me everyday
you help me transcend
I'm convinced you are my friend
I'm convinced you are my friend
I'm convinced you are my friend

bottles

everything is fine

useless today

"too close"

is it just me, is it just me
or am i getting too close?

is it just me, is it just me 
or are you getting too close?

because i never know what you're telling me
I never know what you mean

I think I should step away 
i've been getting too close
i think you should step away
i've been getting too close

too close

"before this beer gets warm i'll be thinking of you"

before this beer gets warm before this beer gets warm  i'll be thinking of you

i had a dream you didn't know my name
you answered your phone and said we're all the same
maybe that dream was more a nightmare
thinking i meant something but you don't even care

before this beer gets warm i'll be thinking of you

Always Pretending

always pretending i've got nothing on my mind
always pretending that i've put you behind
always pretending i've got nothing on my mind
but that's not true
because I dream
only of you

always protesting its not you on my mind
always protesting that you left me behind
always protesting its not you on my mind
but that's not true
because everything I see
looks like you

always I want to disappear
always I want to disappear
always I want to disappear with you

always pretending i've got nothing on my mind
always pretending that i've put you behind
always pretending i've got nothing on my mind
but that's not true
because I dream
only of you

Always Pretending

"Lost In My Daydreams"

everyday i get lost in my daydreams
everything is so bright and clean
its when i feel most serene

everyday i get lost in my daydreams
wondering what they mean
is anything as it seems?

but then at night i have that same nightmare
i look all around me and you're not there
i look to the east and i look to the west
until it dawns on me that you've really left

everyday i get lost in my daydreams
everyday i get lost in my daydreams

Lost In My Daydreams

"Early 90s Summers"

Your mother's swimming pool
and my old car was always breaking down
with just an AM radio;
smoking cheap weed
out of a beer can that Bobby
stole from 7-11, he grabbed it and ran;
5 dollar shows down at The Metro
we went to see Bikini Kill
and I remember it still

June, July, it was my favorite: summer
June, July, it was your favorite: summer

Riot Grrls Doc Martens
Manic Panic
I always went home smelling like cloves;
fucking Rolling Stone
it was the age of the zine
'Punker Than Thou' was all you would need;
going to the shows
they'd put an X on our hand
we can't drink but we can see the band

June, July, it was my favorite: summer
June, July, it was my favorite: summer

I never did make it to Lollapalooza
always watching 'Heathers'
in love with Winona;
three chord songs
on a cheap guitar
kind of like what I'm doing right now

June, July, it was my favorite: summer
June, July, it was your favorite: summer

Early 90s Summers

911 Is A Joke (Public Enemy)

Close My Eyes Forever (Lita Ford & Ozzy Osbourne cover)

Then She Did ... (Jane's Addiction cover)

Fake Plastic Trees (Radiohead cover)

Pepper (But!hole Surfers cover)

Time After Time (Cyndi Lauper cover)

There Is A Light That Never Goes Out (The Smiths cover)

Head Over Heels (Tears For Fears cover)

American Music (Violent Femmes cover)

Don't You Forget About Me (Simple Minds cover)

You Were Meant For Me (Jewel cover)

Invisible Touch (Genesis cover)

Sweet Leaf (Black Sabbath cover)

Instant Karma (John Lennon cover)

Oops I Did It Again (Britney Spears cover)

Waiting For My Ruca (Sublime cover)

Another Saturday Night (Sam Cooke cover)

Sammy Hagar Weekend (Thelonious Monster cover)

Death Of An Unpopular Poet (J Buffett cover)

The Thrill Is Gone (B. B. King cover)

wrong (archers of loaf cover)

getting real with my pops

Friends In Low Places (G. Brooks cover, with Ring on guitar)

Rollin' & Tumblin' (Hambone Willie Newbern cover)

About A Girl (Nirvana cover)

Uprising, written by Ken Collins, written and performed by Marc.

Uprising

drivin al folked up.  That Rock and Roll Man (demo 2020)

Lyrics:

I don't want to sound hapless
I don't want to sound rude
But when he shouts on stage it's just so goddamned crude
I don't understand that you're leaving me
I don't understand that you're leaving me for the rock n roll man

He can't pick a banjo
He can't saw a bow
He ain't got no big bass but I can slap mine real low
I don't understand how you're leaving me
I don't understand how you're leaving me for that rock n roll man

He may be an artist
He must be sleight of hand
If I were to meet him I might even join his band
But I don't understand how you're leaving me
But I don't understand how you're leaving me for the rock n roll man

I don't want to sound hapless
I don't want to eat crow
But I was hoping he'd break a string at his last rock show
No I don't understand how you're leaving me
I just don't understand how you're leaving me for a rock n roll man

That Rock and Roll Man

"Drinking Away the Virus Today"

I'm sick of sitting around 
I hate just hanging out
I'm drinking too much lager
I'm drinking too much stout
oh hey
I need another IPA

I want to go downtown
but I guess I got my doubt
I want a Bloody Mary
I want a Guinness Stout
oh hey
What are we drinking today?

I'm tired of lockdown
it makes me want to shout
please get me a gin & tonic
I spilled another stout
oh hey
We're drinking away the virus today

I'm sick of sitting around 
I hate just hanging out
I'm drinking too much lager
I'm drinking too much stout
oh hey
We're drinking away the virus today
oh hey
we're drinking away the virus today

Drinking Away The Virus Today.WAV

Get Your Mask On (We've Got To Get Beer)

"drinkin in the apocalypse"

drinkin in the apocalypse
you never know when you're gonna check out
drinkin in the apocalypse
who's gonna brew more stout?
drinkin in the apocalypse
everyday is Friday night
drinkin in the apocalypse
I don't plan on dying, but I might

Is this my last beer ever?
Is this the last beer ever?

drinkin in the end of time
but damn it I feel fine
drinkin in a pandemic
surviving on beer and red wine
drinkin in the end of time
I don't care no one's around
drinkin in the apocalypse
there's got to be more beer in this town

is this my last beer ever?
is this my last beer ever?

drinkin in the apocalypse
you never know when you're gonna check out
drinkin in the apocalypse
who's gonna brew me more stout?
drinkin in the apocalypse
everynight is Friday night
drinkin in the apocalypse
I don't plan on dying, but I might

Is this my last beer ever?
Is this the last beer ever?

Drinkin In The Apocalypse

"Do You Ever Feel Like It's All Too Real?"

Hey, I'm not doing well in my head somehow
I don't think I should be alone right now
Let's go get a beer
Let's meet somewhere near

Hey, I feeling lost, I'm feeling small
I'm feeling like nothing matters at all
I want to talk about my soul
But first let's pack a bowl

Hey, sometimes I get lost in my dark
I need someone to light a spark
Do you ever feel
like it's all too real?

Hey, I dream of how it used to be
When we were healthy and free
I feel so trapped
But I guess I'll adapt

Let's go get a beer
Let's meet somewhere near

Do You Ever Feel Like It's All Too Real?

"(I Feel Like We're) the Casualties"

I wish I knew some way to make it all right
I wish it didn't all have to end in a fight

I feel like we're the casualties
I feel like we're the casualties

I wish my words could be right but they're all wrong
I wish I could just pretend to be strong

I wish that I'd just let it go
I wish I were more Gone than Ego

I feel like we're the casualties
I feel like we're the casualties

I wish that my pride would die
so I could see the planking in my own bloodshot eyes

I feel like we're the casualties
I feel like we're the casualties

(I Feel Like We're) The Casualties

"I Don't Know What I Thought Would Happen"

Do you feel trapped in a wrong place too?
Do you feel this can't be happening to you?

I thought I would sit and write a book all spring
but I feel beaten, knocked down in the boxer's ring.

I don't know what I thought would happen
I don't know what I want to happen

I spent all summer painting in a darkened cave
I want to leave but I can't because I'm afraid

I don't know what I thought would happen
I don't know what I want to happen

I feel like I've been pushed down the stairs again
I think I've made loneliness my best friend

I thought I could out drink this thing but I'm clearly wrong;
it's right what I ordered, man it's just way too strong

I don't know what I thought would happen
I don't know what I want to happen

I Don't Know What I Thought Would Happen

"I'm Hoping For Another Lockdown"

Yeah I'm hoping for another lockdown
Yeah I'm hoping for another lockdown

I like my town better when there's no one around
I like not having to go far so I can sit in an empty bar
I'm not trying to sound like a jerk but I really don't want to back to work

Yeah I'm hoping for another lockdown
Yeah I'm hoping for another lockdown

There are so many crowds I can't wait 'til they're not allowed
and if you have to ask, Fvck Yes I like my mask
but what I really love are my latex disposable gloves

Yeah I'm hoping for another lockdown
Yeah I'm hoping for another lockdown

I miss turning on the t.v. and having some doctor yelling at me
I might be a fool but I don't care if my kid goes to school
As long as she don't have a fever you know I'll never leave her

Yeah I'm hoping for another lockdown
Yeah I'm hoping for another lockdown

Yeah I'm hoping for another lockdown
Yeah I'm hoping for another lockdown

I'm Hoping For Another Lockdown

'pocalypse party

grab the weed, pack some beer & let's go
the world may be ending quickly but we can dance real slow
to that reggae music they'll be playing I know
we can forget why we're feeling so low

at the 'pocalypse party, the best of the year
party like the end is here
'pocalypse party, the best of the year
party like the end is near

grab your wine, put on a mask & let's go
it could be the best night of the year I believe so
a live band and marijuana smoke
is this social distancing?, I guess No

it's a 'pocalypse party, the best of the year
party like the end is here
'pocalypse party, the best of the year
party like the end is near

hey grab my gin, pour some juice & let's roll,
where we're going you might lose self-control
we can dance fast when they're playing slow soul
to have a couple of smile is my only goal

at the 'pocalypse party, the best of the year
party like the end is here
'pocalypse party, the best of the year
party like the end is near

'pocalypse party

"I'm Not Inspired By It"

Lately I've been getting the craziest thoughts in my head
Daydreams: I'd rather have them at night instead
Lonely: I feel like I have never been found
Frankly I feel better when no one's around

I so tired of it, how about you?
I'm not inspired by it, how about you?
I so tired of it, how about you?
I'm not inspired by it, how about you?

Moody; you'd better stay out of my way
Hermit; I'm not leaving the house today
Angry; pissed off at nothing at all
Headache from banging my face against the wall

I so tired of it, how about you?
I'm not inspired by it, how about you?
I so tired of it, how about you?
I'm not inspired by it, how about you?

Freezing from giving the cold shoulder all these years
hiding from all my irrational fears
Lying about what I think to myself
Putting all my ambitions on a shelf 

I so tired of it, how about you?
I'm not inspired by it, how about you?
I so tired of it, how about you?
I'm not inspired by it, how about you?

I'm Not Inspired By It

Let's Kick Next Year's Ass (Before It Does It Again)

Let's kick next year's ass
Let's kick next year's ass
before it does it again

I'm not lying I think next year is going to be worse
this year was an ambulance and next year could be a hearse

I'm going into this thing feeling like a blank verse
the only future I can see is looking so perverse

Let's kick next year's ass
Let's kick next year's ass
before it does it again

I'm not lying I think next year is going to be tough
but I'm not worried, I like the weird stuff

Let's kick next year's ass
Let's kick next year's ass
before it does it again

Let's Kick Next Year's Ass (Before It Does It Again)

Reading Between Lines That Have Never Been Written

I'm reading between lines that have never been written
I'm reading between lines that have never been written

Always reading between the lines
blind to the cadence you're using
seeing all the words just fine
but deaf to the images you're choosing

I'm reading between lines that have never been written
I'm reading between lines that have never been written

always asking obvious questions
I'm looking like an illiterate fool
I was reading the book upsidedown
now I'll never be seen as cool

I'm reading between lines that have never been written
I'm reading between lines that have never been written

always saying I feel fine but I don't
I think you know what I'm saying
but again I've had too much to smoke
and my head starts to swaying

I'm reading between lines that have never been written
I'm reading between lines that have never been written
I'm reading between lines that have never been written
I'm reading between lines that have never been written

Reading Between Lines That Have Never Been Written

It's Going to Change

don't I look lost again
don't I feel confused again
don't I sound distracted
not a big surprise

don't I seem stoned again
don't I feel confused again
don't I sound lost
not a big surprise 

but it's going to change

It's Going to Change

"to feel better"

lying thru my teeth
when  I tell you I'm feeling fine
I think you know what I'm saying
that I feel like hell all the time

I just want to feel 
I just want to feel better
I just want to feel better
I just want to feel 

lying thru your teeth
when you tell me you're feeling good
I think I know what you're saying
and if I could help you you know I would

I just want you to feel better
I just want you to feel 
I just want you to feel 
I just want you to feel better

lying thru my teeth
when I tell you I'm feeling fine
you think I know what you're saying
if I could help you you know I would

I just want to feel
I just want to feel better
I just want you to feel better
I just want you to feel

To Feel Better

"I Can't Believe Anything I Tell Myself"

I can't believe anything I tell myself
I can't believe anything I tell myself

I don't know why I lie to myself but I do
I lie to myself about you
I can't stand to tell myself the truth
so every night I fall for the ruse 

I can't believe anything I tell myself
I can't believe anything I tell myself

I lie to myself every night
I'm believing things that just can't be right
I can't stand to tell myself the truth
so every night I fall for the ruse

I can't believe anything I tell myself
I can't believe anything I tell myself

I don't know why I think you're thinking of me
it's like reading words no one else can see
I can't stand to tell myself the trust
so every night I fall for the ruse

I can't believe anything I tell myself
I can't believe anything I tell myself
I can't believe anything I tell myself
I can't believe anything I tell myself
I can't believe anything I tell myself
I can't believe anything I tell myself

I Can't Believe Anything I Tell Myself

"The Muffled Twenties"

I never thought the roaring twenties
would take place behind a mask;
signs say no dimes or pennies, 
buying beer is a dangerous task.

I never thought the decade
would suck so much;
even in a lockdown downgrade
sanitize everything you touch

we're living in the muffled twenties
we're living in the muffled twenties
we're living in the muffled twenties

I called your name
from behind my mask
but you didn't hear me
I called your name
from behind my mask
but you didn't hear me

I never thought the week 
would start so bad;
pull my mask over my eyes
so you can't see I'm crying, sad

I never thought a month
would have such a bitter taste;
I want a refund
this one has been a waste

we're living in the muffled twenties
we're living in the muffled twenties

I called your name
from behind my mask
but you didn't hear me

we're living in the muffled twenties
we're living in the muffled twenties

the Muffled Twenties

"Stop Me Before I Say Something Too Real"

please interrupt
before I get to the truth 
of what's been keeping me up.
please cut right in
before I spill the truth,
admit I'm a has-been.
please shut me up
before you realize I'm not a winner
I'm not even runner up

please
please
please
stop me before I say
stop me before I say
stop me before I say
something too real

please jump right in
before I repeat myself
or say something to offend.
please go right ahead
you know my stories all end the same,
always full of dread.
please interrupt
before I get to the truth
of what's been keeping me up

please
please
please
stop me before I say
stop me before I say
stop me before I say
something too real
stop me before I say
stop me before I say
stop me before I say
something too real

Stop Me Before I Say Something Too Real

"there's a word for everything but this"

there's a word for everything but this
there's a word for everything
there's a word for everything but this
there's a word for everything .... but this

can't i just shut my mouth and keep it to myself?
but that would be a giant task in and of itself
my thoughts are misinformed  
i wish there was a word I could use
i don't believe in missteps
i just wish i knew what to do

there's a word for everything but this
there's a word for everything
there's a word for everything but this
there's a word for everything .... but this

don't you dream of better days, days you haven't seen yet?
don't you think there's better ways to express what's in your head?
my mind is so confused i wish there was a word I could use
i don't believe in regret i just wish i knew what to do

there's a word for everything but this
there's a word for everything
there's a word for everything but this
there's a word for everything .... but this

won't you ignore me i'm just dreaming out loud
it's been this way since they outlawed a crowd
my brain is feeling footloose I wish there was a word I could use
to express my jumbled mess I just which I knew what to do

there's a word for everything but this
there's a word for everything
there's a pill for everything but this
there's a pill for everything .... but this
there's a book for everything but this
there's a book for everything
there's a poem for everything but this
there's a poem for everything .... but this
there's a song for everything but this
there's a song for everything
there's a word for everything but this
there's a word for everything .... but this

there's a word for everything but this

"I'm Barely Keeping It Together"

I'm barely keeping it together

bandages
sliced fingers 
kitchen knife
distraction

I'm thinking things I didn't think I'd be thinking
I'm thinking things I didn't think I'd be thinking

I'm barely keeping it together

insomnia
I'm bleeding coffee
lonely night
thinking of you 

I'm thinking things I didn't think I'd be thinking
I'm thinking things I didn't think I'd be thinking

I'm barely keeping it together

borderline
basketcase
this sobriety sucks
thinking of you

I'm thinking things I didn't think I'd be thinking
I'm thinking things I didn't think I'd be thinking

I'm barely keeping it together

I'm Barely Keeping It Together

"Sorry Excuse"

I'm sorry
I'm sorry

I'm sorry I've been stuck in a rut
that's a sorry excuse for being out of touch
I've been fighting loneliness it sucks
that's a sorry excuse and I know it don't mean much

I'm sorry
I'm sorry

I'm a sorry excuse and you're such a good friend
if you walked away I wouldn't blame you in the end
I'm a sorry excuse I wish I could amend
I promise I'll be in touch this weekend 

I'm sorry
I'm sorry

You deserve so much better than me
you don't have to open your eyes to see
that I'm a sorry excuse best to just let me be
I'm a sorry excuse, it's better 'you' not 'we'

I'm sorry
I'm sorry
I'm sorry

Sorry Excuse

"pills"

surprised i made it
thru some of those years
nodding off at the table
makes everything unstable

it's not how I meant it to be
it's not how I meant it to be

no one's going to know
til I'm passed out in the snow
lying to my family
about the totality

it's not how I meant it to be
it's not how I meant it to be

but those days are behind me now
but those days are behind me now

can't leave my house
lying to my spouse
no matter what I say
I use them all day

it's not how I meant it to be
it's not how I meant it to be
it's not how I meant it to be
it's not how I meant it to be

but those days are behind me now
but those days are behind me now

pills

lo-fi indie folk

Marc writes, plays, sings & records it all. Check out his novels too.

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