50 minutes of sublime ambience and hypnogogic drift from YOUTH and Knekelhuis artist @ssiege.

Read more: ifonlyuk.com/if-only-podcast-99-ssiege

Tracklist:

Julia Bloop - Deserted Shore
Eldairo - ? (unreleased) 
Leo - Leaving Bolle City (unreleased)
Regular Citizen - Nostalgic Melancholy 2
Chantssss - Time is a Matter of Movement (unreleased)
Leo - Imna (unreleased)
Init Voice - 99peace 
Unknown - A2
Dave Saved - Abisso 29 (unreleased) 
AFM - You Only Run In Circles (unreleased) 
Significant Other - Elder
Devi Tensione - Side A (Excerpt) 
NV - 2 (unreleased)
Aniello - Senza Titolo
Nicolò - Prigionerio (unreleased)
Elysia Crampton - The Wish
Fmvee - saint charles
Yips - Meditations1 (unreleased)
Broken Audio - Heavy Shred

If-Only Podcast #99: SSIEGE

15 minute piece made for White Review's programme on Resonance FM, illustrating and extending ideas from Ghosts Of My Life

The Slow Cancellation Of The Future

Liquid Mirror is the aural exploration of all intersections of ethereality with musician and artist Olive Kimoto. Interpreted eclectically, the monthly broadcast ranges from shoegaze and dream pop, to electronic and experimental.
Today’s show is dedicated to the many forms a distorted wall of noise can take. Focusing on tracks at the edges of shoegaze - whether it’s remixes blurring the lines between genres, shoegaze bands of the new generation, or electronic experimentations with a shoegaze mentality.

https://www.nts.live/shows/liquid-mirror/episodes/liquid-mirror-6th-february-2023

Liquid Mirror w/ Olive Kimoto - On the Edges of Shoegaze 060223

'Non Partial' is the latest release from YS. Music made during 2023, through the online exchange of files, finally realised in real life during the dead of winter in Berlin at Studio Asbestos. An epic mini-album condensed into 4 tracks exhibiting both bold and obfuscated plunderphonics. Looted accapellas invoke the likes of Lil B and DnB vocal legend Robert Manos. These are reimagined, crafted over sound collages and emotive synth work. Dramaturgy with an emphasise mostly on chordal composition. Fabricated soundscapes in the ‘real world’. Each sound work is also accompanied by a video. The result is unclassifiable audio/visual media works about nature & dissolution.

Music by YS - Leon Wan & Nipuna Jayasekera
Artwork & Design by Nipuna Jayasekera
Mastered by Kassian Troyer at Dubplates & Mastering
Photography by Leon Wan & Nipuna Jayasekera
Videos by Nipuna Jayasekera
Videos produced by Zero Budget Productions

YS - Still Here ft. Robert Manos (Free DL)

Post-punk icon and foundational New Wave artist, Annie Hogan (Soft Cell, Yello) presents an hour of records from her time as a DJ and promoter - specifically as resident at the iconic Leeds goth venue Le Phonographique, between 1981 and 1983. 
Find the full tracklist and related episodes on NTS: https://www.nts.live/shows/guests/episodes/annie-hogan-3rd-august-2024

Annie Hogan - Leeds Le Phonographique Mix (1982-1983) 030824

Downbeat, dreamy charm by Greco-Canadian debutee Any, coming outta nowhere with a quietly compelling blend of harps and ohrwurm hooks including co-production and chops by Klein/Lolina spar LA Timpa. Think Astrid Sonne and Tirzah on the terrace with Sissi Rada, and sink into that warm embrace pronto.

© sferic 2025

Any - Mega Mercy (Mega Mercy, SFERIC17)

@soft_cou

Mix #97 was recorded for us by Courtney Herrenberg, aka Soft Cou, who last year released her debut solo album "Horseshoe" on the Milan-based label Presto? headed by Lorenzo Senni. The artist is also known as a member of the duo Fumiko.

"This mix takes you into an ambient, poetic 45 minute dream. I often write with ambient music as my guide—moving me when I can’t quite move myself. Entering a dream space between the words of great writers and the music of others. This mix traces the journey through the conflicts of creation, with all its mighty interferences and seductive charm", — Courtney describes the mix.

ethereal mix 097: Soft Cou

My Type Done Changed FR

Lucite Spine - memorialen moon.mp3

Life on wide mode.

 
Find the full tracklist and related episodes on NTS: https://www.nts.live/shows/gribs/episodes/gribs-14th-october-2025

Gribs 141025

hybrid for @inininprogress/void/oct/nov/2025

♧yY☆ - swan narcissism 
 apu nanu - humming sleep melody 
  kk.S - ◕◕◕◕◕ ◕◕◕◕◕
   upsammy - placeness produced 
    valeda - patient thaw, pacifier
     kk.S - ◕◕◕
      simon k - topos exotica
       valet - cortana 
        rsohr - fieber
         olé - copper fields
          grasps - to be faced one day with a great relief
           yvu - solo
            comechelet x ϙue - realtime
             kk.S - ◕◕◕.◕.◕.◕
               kk.S - ◕◕◕◕◕◕◕ ◕◕◕◕◕◕ ◕◕◕◕◕◕
                dj lostboi - see inside

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Lecturer in Visual Cultures at Goldsmiths, University of London. Author of Capitalist Realism (Zer0, 2009) and Ghosts Of My Life: Writings on Depression, Hauntology and Lost Futures (Zer0, 2014). Collaborator (with Justin Barton) on the audio-essays londonunderlondon (2005) and On Vanishing Land (2013). Member of Plan C. 

The Slow Cancellation Of The Future

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