The pandemic has been taking its toll on our mental and emotional energy, with my family and friends experiencing loss after loss after loss. It's been heavy, and even more so I am seeing the tremendous importance of getting true soul rest. There's no replacement to the natural recovery system that we are already designed with.

So I bring you this lo-fi instrumental EP, free for you to use for while you study, chill, rest, reflect or work. I hope that it brings you all kinds of benefits. God bless!

Another Place

i wrote this at a time when i was drowning in my questions, but yet there was still a mustard seed of faith left.. even in spite of my unfaithfulness and faithlessness, the Lord remains faithful.. He so goood

i chose this title then because of my gratitude for what john 3:16 says. "whosoever believes" i don't have to be great, pretty, smart or cool.. His arms are open wide towards whoever comes after Him. 😭

a whosoever's song - shaker fries sour cream

In My Head

Ancient Of Days (reimagined)

Two tracks of Sequential Trigon-6, running through the upcoming ValhallaRoom update. 

The bass/chord track is using ValhallaRoom's new Space parameter to create a rhythmic echo, by routing feedback around the predelay and early reflections. As the track progresses, the Space parameter is turned up to increase the feedback, the Depth control is increased to add more reverb, and the new Low Cut parameter is turned up to thin out the lower frequencies in the reverb/echo.

The lead track is running through ValhallaRoom, with Space turned up high and a longer Early Size, to create a reverb based solely around the Early Reflections. The Depth parameter is set at 0%, which means we are only hearing the Early section of the reverb.

Valhalla Room Space Demo

Too many questions
I don’t even know where to start
So I sit in silence
Let you hold my heart
Too many voices
I don’t know which is real
Too many scars
I don’t know If i´ll ever heal

Lightning strikes
And a fire consumes
And a storm follows behind
Then, like a breeze,
A gentle whisper comes
and cradles my mind
Oh, He comes and cradles my
Mind

[interlude, humming]

"I am with you
Darling, I’ll keep you safe
Oh, how I love you
I´ll make your righteousness shine like the day
Leave behind all the weight
No accusation can harm you now
For I’ll always sing of the day
You came running back ho-me
To sta-y"

Sta-y, oh
Sta-y
Oh

Stay
Stay
Here 
Here

out of breath ii draft - potato mojos

minsan... gusto ko maging elf.
(sometimes... i want to be an elf.)

liriko:
tinig sa hangin, ako ay hihilumin
bisig ng langit, ako ay lilingapin
mata sa gabi, mundo ay sinusuri
dinidinig dalangin, dalamhati at papuri

iskarlatang tinta - dumadanak mula sa pinako
muling ipinipinta sa aking puso ang iyong pangakong
hindi maglalaho, hindi makakalimot
hindi magbabago, hindi titigil sa pagsuyo
hindi maglalaho, hinding hindi tumatalikod
anuman ang iyong pangako, anuman ang pagsubok
hindi maglalaho, hinding hindi makakalimot
hindi magbabago, hindi titigil sa pagsuyo


rough English translation:
Voice in the wind
shall heal me
Arms of heaven
will take care of me
Eyes in the night,
searching the world
Hearing every prayer,
every sorrow, every praise.

scarlet ink -
dripping from the One crucified
once again painting
Your promise upon my heart
that You will never disappear
You will never forget
You will never change
You will never stop loving me
You will never fade
You will never turn back
Whatever the promise
whatever the hardship

You will never disappear
You will never forget
You will never change
You will never stop loving me
You will never disappear
You will never turn back
You will never change
You will never stop loving me.

taghoy/tiwala (demo-ish)

A smooth track for those lazy days.

Composition, soprano sax and programming by Tim Dobson.

Smooth Ride

it's that song for when you're tired and tempted to be cynical, and you're like "ah ah, sorry buieez. let me just bring this up to the Lord." and then you're trying to chill and worship God but then all of a sudden this whole grief thing's tearing a hole through your heart. you don't want to let it be king but it's right there so you're like, "okay fine then i'll just take you with me and we're gonna go to the Lord and He'll take care of you."

(lol my dear friend tyty's rubbing off on me big time with her cutesy imaginary dialogues. helps me process fr fr)

lyrics:


I
Want to believe
And be well
Open my eyes
To open skies(the sky has)
Fallen again
Please come tell me
All will be well

Well? ... 
well… well...

When life turns gray
Your voice is in the raindrops
Your promise marks the sky
When it stops
Come the sun
You light my way 
I hear your singing
Through the rays

Your words like braille
Let me trace
Your holy Spirit
Your gentle face
And if you speak
Then I will listen
Or let your flowers bloom 
In silence

I want to believe
And be well
Fallen again
Please come tell me
All will be well

Coz I’ve been pouring into bottomless
Empty treasure chests
Be my rest
Be my shelter
Climbing up ladders
That lead nowhere
Come
Be my rest
Be my shelter

Pour into this bottomless
Broken empty chest
Be my rest
Be my treasure
Take me to the River
Give me nothing less
Be my rest
You take me there

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“My people have committed two sins:
They have forsaken me,
    the spring of living water,
and have dug their own cisterns,
    broken cisterns that cannot hold water."
Jeremiah 2:13

Jesus answered, “Everyone who drinks this water will be thirsty again, but whoever drinks the water I give them will never thirst. Indeed, the water I give them will become in them a spring of water welling up to eternal life.”
John 4:13-14

You will keep in perfect peace
    those whose minds are steadfast,
    because they trust in you.
Isaiah 26:3

Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.
John 14:27

burnout (be my rest) draft - smoked potato

(featuring a metronome which i couldn't edit it out haha! oh well..)

sharing this for anyone who is needing to sit and lament.

i am also here if you need someone to talk to or to pray with you.

i wouldn't say i'm great at this contentment thing, but i am just wanting to cultivate a humble, grateful, honest and worshiping heart before the Lord. it is such a wonder that we are known and heard by a supreme Being who wants to relate with us in intimate relationship so much, that He would give His Son for our ransom.

may you know that He sees and loves you, that you have been forgiven, loved and redeemed. have a blessed rest of your week 🙏🏼

.rea.

Satisfied in You / Psalm 42 (Sing Team cover) - potatoes in chicken soup

KvR OneSynth challenge #143 - all sounds made with TAL J-8 synth

markheath - OrbiTAL Sails - OSC143

mark-heath