empty hands

(prod. irby)

people change too fast for my pace
i can't even tell if i remain the same
though they tell me i should be ashamed
how i sit here all fucking day

but what would you do if you had my setbacks
you can't even name them
you don't know who i am
so why throw me shade
god i can't bare to listen
no matter what i say
they just find a reason

to hate me
degrade me
make my accomplishments seem so small
gotta face it
can't erase 'em
but it's hard without any support

oh i wanna leave so bad
just to get them off my back
weight of the world i need shoulder pads
no wonder i'm why so close to cracking
so close to cracking
so close to cracking
so close to cracking
so close to cracking

but what would you do if you had my setbacks
you can't even name them
you don't know who i am
so why throw me shade
god i can't bare to listen
no matter what i say
they just find a reason

but what would you do if you had my setbacks
you can't even name them
you don't know who i am
so why throw me shade
god i can't bare to listen
no matter what i say
they just find a reason

shade

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feat. @diacetyl @veshawnproductions @bradily @cathedrylwho

medicine w/ diacetyl, veshawn, cathedryl & bradily

you always shut me out
so what now
and i don't feel allowed to be down
i try my best to be left on read
i feel unseen im too deep in the crowd
and i know that i suck at the best times
blur the lines eat through time 
and miss deadlines
when i go in the night know i'm alright 
stuck still like a deer in the headlights

i'm so drained baby I've lost all my drive
there's no way i can heal with no fight, left
i sink in my bed, vexed
i can't get out of my head

you always shut me out
so what now
and i don't feel allowed to be down
i try my best to be left on read
i feel unseen im too deep in the crowd
and i know that i suck at the best times
blur the lines eat through time 
and miss deadlines
when i go in the night know i'm alright 
stuck still like a deer in the headlights

like a deer in the headlights
like a deer in the headlights
like a deer in the headlights
like a deer in the headlights

deer in the headlights

swallow the key (feat. diacetyl)

oh i just want to do something right
but it's written in stone
maybe the flesh in my bones
leads me to dangerous heights
oh i just want to feel in touch
feel in touch
is that too much?
is that too much
to ask
before i put all my faith in 
this flask
is that too much
to ask
before i put all my faith in 
this flask
oh in the dead of the night i feel it creep in
in the back of my mind just to keep me from sleeping
oh, keep the curtains aligned i won't show when i'm weeping
i'm afraid of commitment it's something i'm needing
oh in the dead of the night i feel it creep in
in the back of my mind just to keep me from sleeping
oh, keep the curtains aligned i won't show when i'm weeping
god i'm fucking malignant i take more than i'm giving
they say if you
chase your void
it gets bigger
and bigger
they say if you
care too much
you be poisoned by figures
oh everybody thinks they're smart
'till they're pushed to the edge
you are what you're fed
nothing less
don't overcomplicate it
you live then you're dead
i almost lost a friend
it was way too much
to ask for
i almost put all my faith in
this flask
way too much
to ask for
i almost put all my faith in
this flask
oh in the dead of the night i feel it creep in
in the back of my mind just to keep me from sleeping
oh, keep the curtains aligned i won't show when i'm weeping
i'm afraid of commitment it's something i'm needing
oh in the dead of the night i feel it creep in
in the back of my mind just to keep me from sleeping
oh, keep the curtains aligned i won't show when i'm weeping
god i'm fucking malignant i take more than i'm giving

in the dead of the night

feat. @diacetyl

now i keep my head low
as the days go by habits tenfold
and i couldn't really try cause your words scold
burn holes fry straight through my temple
got me working in over time
system in override
we're seeing an early tide
We won't make it until the night
baby I've lost it
put a nail in the coffin
got me feeling so nauseous
i might cut all my losses
I'm losing faith
we can't do this forever 
baby do you know that?
i don't wanna take about it
baby could you hold back?
my vision is hazy sippin'
on this cognac
and memories fading
i don't wanna go back
you can pick a part a piece of me
and paint me as somebody i ain't never been
 then i ain't gonna listen in 
my stomach sinks 
i can't fall into that ravine


(diacetyl)
assorted habit another day
i feel your passage run through my veins
it's convoluted my stomach aches
a cost diffusion we're so out of place
i won't say bye till the morning babe
one more night till the colder place
and if we don't fight it's a boring day
feel the comedown like it's pouring rain
and if i run away will your slumber crumble
and i can't contemplate what it means
to be faithful 

now i keep my head low
as the days go by habits tenfold
and i couldn't really try cause your words scold
burn holes fry straight through my temple
got me working in over time
system in override
we're seeing an early tide
we won't make it until the night
baby I've lost it
put a nail in the coffin
got me feeling so nauseous
i might cut all my losses
I'm losing faith

now i keep my head low
as the days go by habits tenfold
and i couldn't really try cause your words scold
burn holes fry straight through my temple

i'm losing faith (feat. diacetyl)

i won't pay attention no more
if i ain't showing love they get bored
i have trouble closing the door
cause once i do you won't see me at all
at all

a nap in the dirt the soil gone be huggin my bones
but until then imma hold it strong
i don't know why they tryna do me wrong
when i don't want a reason i get two more
a nap in the dirt the soil gone be huggin my bones
but until then imma hold it strong
i don't know why they tryna do me wrong
when i don't want a reason i get two more

why you move like that?
i keep my head underwater taking long breaths
ion want no part in your subset
every body gather's round just to laugh at
red nose and my medicine good too
got jokes got bands only one true
imma make it one day just to spite you
and ion even like to press but i have to, oh

why you move like that?
i keep my head underwater taking long breaths
ion want no part in your subset
every body gather's round just to laugh at
red nose and my medicine good too
got jokes got bands only one true
imma make it one day just to spite you
and ion even like to press but i have to

i won't pay attention no more
if i ain't showing love they get bored
i have trouble closing the door

i won't pay attention no more
if i ain't showing love they get bored
i have trouble closing the door
cause once i do you won't see me at all
cause once i do you won't see me at all
at all

a nap in the dirt the soil gone be huggin my bones
but until then imma hold it strong
i don't know why they tryna do me wrong
when i don't want a reason i get two more
a nap in the dirt the soil gone be huggin my bones
but until then imma hold it strong
i don't know why they tryna do me wrong
when i don't want a reason i get two more

why you move like that?
i keep my head underwater taking long breaths
ion want no part in your subset
every body gather's round just to laugh at
red nose and my medicine good too
got jokes got bands only one true
imma make it one day just to spite you
and ion even like to press but i have to, oh

i won't pay attention no more
i won't pay attention no more
i won't pay attention no more

deep breaths

how could i be the same when every day i lose myself
and honestly i feel compelled
to tell ya how i feel
to find out if it's real

i feel like i can read your mind
through your eyes
yet every damn time
i stay i around
it builds ice
i haven't hit the mic for a minute now
i thought i'd take a second to let me out

air me out and let me bleed in the basement
in the back of my mind
like i'm yours for the taking
in the back of my mind
if it's fall then you can rake me in
i didn't think i'd play these games again

oh this bad egg ain't got a sunny side up
lot of artist thinking that they all this, no
the fact i take a breakn i'm still doin laps round ya
i get em tight but they do nadda
change his face just like acne do
no cunt i do not care for you
she put in work like a factory dude
i hope that is absurd to you

how could i be the same when every day i lose myself
and honestly i feel compelled
to tell ya how i feel
to find out if it's real

i feel like i can read your mind
through your eyes
yet every damn time
i stay i around
it builds ice
i haven't hit the mic for a minute now
i thought i'd take a second to let me out

i feel like i can read your mind
through your eyes
yet every damn time
i stay i around
it builds ice
i haven't hit the mic for a minute now
i thought i'd take a second to let me out

let me out, let me out, let me out
i thought i'd take a second to let me out
let me out, let me out, let me out
i thought i'd take a second to let me out

thru ur eyes

departing

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