"Losing My Composure" is a poignant piano ballad capturing the raw anguish of unrequited love, where the narrator wrestles with obsessive longing, self-doubt, and emotional fragility. Drawing from themes of hidden crushes and overanalyzed signals, it portrays a man trapped between hope and humiliation, watching from shadows as his one-sided devotion unravels his composure. The lyrics build from intimate verses of quiet torment to swelling choruses of heartbreak, evoking Lewis Capaldi's vulnerable style of breathy introspection exploding into cathartic release. 

Full Lyrics[Intro]
I’ve been watching from the shadows,
Hiding fears I’ll never say,
Every word’s a quiet battle,
Every glance just fades away.

[Pre-Chorus]
Caught between hope and the shame,
Wondering if you feel the same,
Too afraid to say a word,
So I keep it all unheard.

[Chorus]
I’m losing my composure,
Weight of this fragile truth,
One-sided devotion’s taking over,
And I’m trapped inside this youth.
I’m losing my composure,
Tearing at the seams within,
What I dreamed was just a shadow,
Of a love that never did begin.

[Verse 2]
Reading into quiet moments,
Signs that haunt my restless mind,
Holding on then regretting,
Dreams I built and left behind.[Interlude]

[Verse 3]
Maybe I said too much, or nothing,
Words I wish I could take back,
Beneath this bright and burning spotlight,
Silent witness to my crack.[Bridge]
All these fears and all this waiting,
Shattered hope I can’t deny,
You don’t know what I’m creating,

[Chorus Reprise]
I’m losing my composure,
Weight of this fragile truth,
One-sided devotion’s taking over,
And I’m trapped inside this youth.

[Verse 4]
Here I stand, invisible,
You’re out of reach, and far away,
My heart’s a fragile temple,
Shattered beneath the break of day.

[Outro]

© 2025 Martin Oliver Beinersdorf. All rights reserved.  
Lyrics and concept by Martin Oliver Beinersdorf. Do not reproduce, distribute, or adapt without explicit permission.

Losing My Composure

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Scottish born and bred. Just exploring some ideas spinning round in my head and putting them up here. Various styles of music and trying to find my niche !  All the songs are written solely by me. 
Im open to all sorts of music and appreciate the work folk have done. If you don’t like my music ! Move on. Don’t belittle yourself by leaving nasty comments. Im not influenced by idiotic behaviour or narcissistic twats 🥸

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Musik ist für mich mehr als nur ein Hobby – sie ist ein wesentlicher Teil meines Lebens. Seit meiner Jugend begleiten mich die Klänge legendärer Bands wie den Beatles und AC/DC, und auch der Rock'n'Roll hat einen besonderen Platz in meinem Herzen. Die kraftvollen Rhythmen des Blues haben mich lange fasziniert, während in den 80er Jahren Bands wie die Eurythmics und U2 meine Favoriten waren. Heute genieße ich neben diesen Klassikern sowohl moderne Künstler wie Billie Eilish, Olivia Rodrigo, Katy Perry und Lana Del Rey als auch Rockbands wie Muse oder Greta Van Fleet. Besonders schätze ich die melancholische Musik von The National.

Mittlerweile nutze ich KI-Tools, um Musik nach meinem eigenen Geschmack zu kreieren. Ich verwende häufig ChatGPT und Copilot für die Texterstellung nach meinen aktuellen Gedanken daraus resultierenden Vorgaben für die KI und füge mit Music Lab oder Suno Musik und Stimmen hinzu.

Falls ihr eine Band habt, würde ich mich freuen, wenn ihr meine Stücke live performen oder mit echten Instrumenten und Stimmen aufnehmen möchtet. Lasst mich aber bitte auch das Ergebnis hören!

Musik bleibt für mich eine konstante Quelle der Freude, die mich selbst an schlechten Tagen aufheitert.

Frieden und Gesundheit!
Martin 

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Music is more than just a hobby for me – it is an essential part of my life. Since my youth, I have been accompanied by the sounds of legendary bands like The Beatles and AC/DC, and rock 'n' roll holds a special place in my heart. The powerful rhythms of the blues have fascinated me for a long time, while in the 80s, bands like The Eurythmics and U2 were my favorites. Today, I enjoy not only these classics but also modern artists like Billie Eilish, Olivia Rodrigo, Katy Perry, and Lana Del Rey, as well as rock bands like Muse or Greta Van Fleet. I particularly appreciate the melancholic music of The National.

Recently, I’ve been using AI tools to create music that reflects my own taste. I often use ChatGPT and Copilot for text creation to transform my current thoughts into music, and I add music and vocals with Music Lab or Suno.

If you have a band, I would be thrilled if you could perform my pieces live or record them with real instruments and voices. But please let me hear the result!

Music remains a constant source of joy for me, lifting my spirits even on bad days.

Peace and health!
Martin

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Losing My Composure

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