inside outside upside down

for the girl I just fell for.

I only met her yesterday. 
She said it was nice to meet me. 
And I would've said the same 
if the floor was still underneath me, 
but I left it with that greeting. 
Though fleeting, I would’ve fallen there
if I didn't notice that I responded 
with an awkward stare.
I said, “Hi.” 
But I wanted to say, 
“Your eyes are amazing,
a maze I want to get lost in until I die. 
Like I'm sure the angels join you when you cry, 
and I'm sure they rejoice again when you smile.” 
But I'll save that for another time.
She laughs. And I can't tell if it's at me, 
or 'cause I'm actually making her happy. 
Exactly thirty seconds have past me, 
and I'm already at the flower shop,
thinkin’ if I should take these roses out or not. 
Like I've been thinkin’ way too hard about this.
I don't even need to write a song about this.
I don't wanna always have you on my mind 
but I know deep down inside

I'd walk five hundred miles 
to fall down at your doorstep.
Can't explain the feeling that you give me.
But all I know is I just want some more.

Saw her for the second time. 
She said she hopes that she sees me soon.
And I don't know what that means to you. 
But it seems to me that we've 
got something up both our sleeves 
and I think I catch a glimpse of it 
every time that you leave. 
Both of the times that you left, 
I wanted you to come back. 
And I just hope you feel the same. 
I don't mean to have you all inside my brain. 
But you've really got me chained. 
I even saw you in my dream. 
Tell me have I gone insane 
or am I just in lucky situations? 
Seein’ a girl like you 
two times two days in a row.
If you're ready to ride, 
then I'm rarin’ to go.
But let's take it slow. 
'Cause I've been thinkin’ way too hard about you.
I don't even need to write a song about you.
I don't wanna always have you on my mind 
but I know deep down inside

500 miles [prod. by mr. master]

press start. 

I see you walkin’ with him, 
hand in hand but it’s easy to see
that you’re not holding as tight. 
You say it’s worth it to play 
all the games he creates 
when it’s all just him not treating you right. 
You push it aside. Well, I cannot hide 
how much it hurts to be quiet
and know that you deserve more. 
I may be out of line,
but it’s been on my mind 
so if you’d be so kind
as to at least entertain just the thought 
of letting go, setting free, 
and giving all of you to me. 
I promise I would make everything 
just the way that you want it to be.

We both are so intertwined. 
Focus yours as the prime over mine.
I don’t know where to begin. 
All I see is stars when you’re near 
and my heart’s all I hear. Have no fear.
I’m here to rescue the rest of you from him. 
I won’t leave. You’re all that I need. 
I belong to you. Please, won’t you follow my lead? 
Take the chance of our lives
and don’t ever think twice 
‘bout what we leave behind.
We’ll shoot off into the sunset 
and wave the world goodbye.
Say good night. 
And in the morning, we’ll open our eyes 
and realize that the love that we longed for so long 
was sat right by our side.

animal crossing [prod. by mr. master]

mr. brightside.

The rocks on the bottom are cold when you first touch. 
Been on ‘em so long, it doesn’t bother me so much. 
I wake up and salvage what I can of my dreams 
before I splash some water onto my mood and have to leave. 
I take a step out, breathe. Sigh to release the pressure.
Physically, I’m present but my eyes keep tryna exit 
out the window. Picture myself anywhere but here. 
Need to turn off autopilot and remember I can steer 
but my floorboards creak. 
I haven’t had a normal conversation in like a week. 
Just “No, I don’t need a bag,” 
and “Thanks for swiping my card,” 
then try to get out as fast as I can 'fore I need to talk. 
Hurry the walk back before my body falls apart. 
Drop down onto my bed like why did I even start. 
As I slip back into slumber, I wonder 
where the why of it's all gone.
I keep coming back ‘cause I've been going so long.

The more I learn, 
the less I feel I know it.
Feelin’ like the less you know, 
the more I feel alright.
But somethin’ ‘bout that voice I hear reminds me 
that it’s only the beginning tonight.

I wanna write a love song but I can’t 
‘cause I can’t be around a girl without apologizing in advance 
for all the mistakes that I haven’t made, 
problems I haven’t caused. 
I self sabotage before I even get a chance to offer 
my hand in yours on a romantic walk through a national park.
I’d give you half of my heart if I wasn’t standing so far,
if I didn’t flash up my guard automatically 
when actually, I’d trade every star in the galaxy 
if it meant that the gravity 
couldn’t grab you and steal you away.
I just wish I had a reason to be feeling this way.
I just wish I had an address to send these letters to. 
‘Stead I fold them into airplanes, 
throw them and hope that they get to you. 
I wanna fall so you can catch me.
Cry into each other’s arms until it passes. 
I wish I could say that I’ll make you happy but I can’t.
I’ll try to figure out how ‘til I get the chance.

The more I learn, 
the less I feel I know it.
Feelin’ like the less you know, 
the more I feel alright.
But somethin’ ‘bout that voice I hear reminds me 
that it’s only the beginning to life.

Tears don’t mean a thing in the pouring rain.
I ain’t got nothin’ to lose. I got it all to gain.

the more i learn [prod. by mr. master]

smooth as a baby's bottom.

You walk around
like you're the only one who knows what's up on this side of town.
I gotta play it cool. Or I might lose you
to some undercover lover tryna get you under covers.
I let far too many slip under my radar.
But I don't see you ownin’ up to you.
We're both just tryna find our own lil path to paradise.
We try so hard.
We try so hard.
Through all this fussin' and fightin’.
You've got a heart made of gold
You're in the sky with the diamonds.
I'm starin’ up thinkin’ that none of it really matters
since you walked away.

I wait so long for you.

You got your high heels.
Watch it, take an eye out.
Wait until you find out what that's really worth.
She wants a nice bag strictly for the price tag.
Never look inside past the shine on that design on her shirt.
Where did you go when I need you?
Now all the walls we built together are see-through.
We've been at this way too long
for us to keep up this facade so strong.
Through all the libel and labels.
We lift the pieces back up to sweep it all of the table.
Baby, I've dealt with this as long as I'm able
but I can't take anymore.

Through all the sufferin' and sorrow.
You want my lovin’ today, you want me gone by tomorrow.
Still after everything, I'd beg steal and borrow
if I could see you again.

brenda [prod. by mr. master]

clairvoyance.

Consider this a time capsule. 
Open it on the night I propose.
See how far down my rabbit hole of a life goes. 
Love.
Speaking as me from the past, 
I can’t wait to live the rest of my life with you as my last. 
I started today. 
I read the first page of a novel 
with plans to make you laugh someday 
pointing out all the plot holes.
I can’t wait for tomorrow. 
I need to hit the mall so I can buy 
a new sweater that you’ll always borrow.
I even dragged myself into the gym 
so when you see me for the first time, I’ll be thin. 
Drinking more water.
Eating more vegetables and acai. 
Might go vegan if it means 
that we both have longer lives, I’m game.
My compass is on a whole other decade. 
I saved us two seats when the Olympics come to LA. 
Just you wait ‘til this music thing blasts off.
That or I’ll have an actual job. 

‘Til then, I’m buildin’. 
Beat down Beelzebub. 
I cut the smoke out. 
I keep myself up. 
I’m plantin’ seeds now. 
See how they swell up. 
So when you finally do come around 
and turn my life upside down, 
I’ll be ready.

I'll be ready
So when you finally do come around 
and turn my life upside down,
I’ll be ready.
I'll be ready.
Already?

To whom it may concern. From a poet. 
This poem is about you and neither of us know it. 
Busy reminiscing about the memories we’ve yet to make.
I already own the shoes I’ll wear on our second date. Set. 
Thoughts of you visiting make me clean my room.
Make my bed so it’s neat when I’m sleeping beside you.
I’m already singin’ all of your other songs. 
I even got a bowl for the dog. 
Picket fence. Front lawn. 
Don’t need to worry then. Don’t need to worry now.
Focus on makin’ a me today that’ll make you proud.
We’re both starin’ at the same night sky, 
prayin’ for stars to align. 
Bring us to the same place at the same time.
Every step I take is one closer to you
and every day I live is new and a chance to improve.
Smiling at our smiles in the pictures we took. 
Only thing is I still need to learn to cook, 

but ‘til then I’m buildin’. 
Beat down Beelzebub. 
And I’ll have alife for myself to appreciate if nobody else does.
There’s a beautiful woman in my future. 
Maybe this song’ll help her get here sooner. 
'Cause I'm ready.

Already?
I'm ready.
So when you finally do come around 
and turn my life upside down,
I'll be ready.
Already?
I'm ready.

ready (already?) [prod. by mr. master]

shoutout jeff bernat.

Why I always sit right next to you.
Why I ask for advice when I know full well what to do.
To hear your voice, see your smile, 
and say it's only there for me.
In the park, plucking petals. 
Guess we'll see.

Why I can’t help reaching for your hand.
And we're both fourteen. 
Girl, we don't need to understand.
Let's take a walk, let's get a bite.
Let's do anything at all.
My handlebars’re waitin’. 
Baby, just make that call.
If you wonder why I love you.

Hey. I actually wanted to ask you something.
I was wondering if… Well, how was your weekend?
I haven't seen you since Friday.
I was thinking about you the whole time since Friday.
What were you doing?

Hey. I kinda wanted to talk to you
about something personal. 
Can we go somewhere private?
No, it's not that serious. 
There's just too many people here.

Hey. Look, I don't know how else to put this
but I just think you're really cool, 
and I think you're really funny,
and I think you're really pretty 
and I don't know what my problem is.

Hey.
Fine. How was yours?
Cool. Bye.

Why I love to give you flowers on a Wednesday,
12 dozen roses at your door.
Or even light some candles when you come over for dinner,
I wouldn’t mind to light a billion more.

Or how I like to wake up and see you with no make up,
I’d still give you a ring the way you are.
Or stay up on the phone late at night when you’re alone,
looking out the window gazing up at stars.

So if you’re wondering why I do the things that I do,
honestly I don’t know what to say.
All these questions and answers, I just like to have her,
every moment every single day.