salem
naiinis ako sayo pag tumatae ka sa ilalim ng lababo
sa gitna ng madaling araw at magagalit si mami
"damputin mo na yung tae sa ilalim ng lababo"
paulit ulit paulit ulit

gigising sa tanghali sa tatlong oras na tulog
panibagong araw nanaman para tarantaduhin ng kapitalismo
sawa na ako mainvalidate
buti pa ikaw wala kang pake
nanapak ka lang pag ayaw mo na ng belly rubs

salem
alam mo bang first time ko mapanood ang radioactive sago kagabi
siguro pag naging tao ka
si lourd de veyra ka
tapos slowcore ang tugtugan pag mag isa sa bahay
parang ako minsan 
nakikinig sa sana nandito ka

pero salem
sana umuwi ka na mamaya
tulog na ako
miss na kita

Reflections After Salem

JANICE - DILAW (four &friends cover)

my love mine all mine - mitski (cover)

Produced, Mixed, and Mastered by Vladymir John / MATOKI 
Track Art by 505

Lyrics:
Everyday I walk you to the door
I wait for you to come back home again
You tell me you don't want to be rich
Just enough to get by
You make me smile in faces you draw
And I like you for that
You're living your minimum wage
Or not even

Then you do it everyday of the week
The week, the week
It's getting under my skin
Under my skin

Like the way the inks in your skin tell your story
I didn't know that we used to live in one city
Now we write songs when we feel like we have things to say
We write songs about our cats
Or how you almost died today

Then you do it everyday of the week
The week, the week
It's getting under my skin
Under my skin
Then you do it everyday of the week
The week, the week
It's getting under my skin
Under your skin

Restart the system I suppose
You work until you break your bones

Everyday I walk you to the door
I wait for you to come back home again



Under My Skin

I just wanna be friends
she don't want me at all

MY VO!CE IS GONE (prod. everestdidthis)

Like The Frog In The Pot


Mirror shows a stranger’s face
Chasing praise, a hollow grace
Golden hands and silver lies
All reflected in your eyes

You build your throne on shifting sand
Every crown slips through your hand

It’s just vanity  the cost you pay
Pride and ego lead you astray
It’s just vanity  you can’t disguise
The shadow that’s behind your eyes


Smiles are masks, applause is fake
Every move a calculated stake
Whispers echo through the hall
Silent warnings you ignore them all

You reach for heights you cannot keep
Every promise buried deep

It’s just vanity  the cost you pay
Pride and ego lead you astray
It’s just vanity  you can’t disguise
The shadow that’s behind your eyes


Cold reflection, burning bright
Lost in glory, lost in night
Nothing lasts  it fades away
The mirror mocks what you portray


It’s just vanity  the cost you pay
Pride and ego lead you astray
It’s just vanity  can’t close your eyes
Forever haunted by your lies
It’s just vanity…
It’s just vanity…


IT’S JUST VANITY

~tis the season~

on days of rain and of thunder
i make some room on the bed
so i can prepare for companionship
once it's no longer just all in my head

on days of sun and of salt
i sit in the shade and look enviously
at those unafraid of the water
as if they were so different from me

take me to the moon and back, somebody please
i want to know how it feels

on days of work and of thanklessness
how nice it must be to hear,
"hello, how are you, what's wrong
would you like to talk it over a beer?"

it may be so that i'm just a fool
with my lofty fantasies
but it was never for lack of trying 
that love has never come to me

take me to the moon and back, somebody please
i want to know how it feels

(note: i now realize the mixing is quite loud.. i am sorry)

lovelessness

An indie cover written by Michael Masser and Gerry Goffin. As popularized by Whitney Houston

Saving All My Love For You

i only find the words to say
the moment that you turn away
this is the closest i can be
tomorrow you will be across the sea 

what shall i do with all these dreams
most beautiful I've ever seen
keep em from slipping through my fingers
i feel for you or so it seems