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Track 04
It'll Be Alright EP (2013)

Produced by Ean Aguila and Ourselves the Elves
Lyrics and melody by Alyana Cabral
Christelle Delvo on bass and back-up vocals

I Wouldn't Mind

hindi na makakain
hindi na rin makatulog
dahil sa malalim na malalim na kalungkutan

hindi na makaligo
hindi na ako makalabas
dahil ss malalim na
malalim na kalungkutan

sa pagpitik ng bawat segundo
iniisip ko nalang sana
kaya kong magpahinga
kahit isang buwan
kahit isang taon
isang linggo
gusto ko lang naman mawala muna sa mundo sa maiksing oras at bumalik kung kelan kaya kona lumaban muli
sana ganon lang kadali
sana buhay ay madali
hindi kasi ako mapakali

hindi na makausap
hindi na makapagaral
dahil sa malalim na
malalim na kalungkutan

hindi ko na kaya
hindi na pwede pang
sumaya
dahil sa malalim
hindi ko maintindihan

hindi na mangyayari

sa unang tingin
di ko napansin
mga mata mong mala araw 
akoy ginigising
sa tanghaling tapat
init ng yakap
ayaw ko nang lumayo
ayaw ko nang tumakbo
sana sa tabi mo
lagi akong nakahagkan
mga tawa mo
parang musika saking tenga
mga galaw mong di ko malilimutan 
 handa akong sumigaw
 hanggang sa masira ang aking lalamunan
 hanggang sa manginig nang matindi
 ipaalam ko lang sayo
 na pupunasan ko ang luha mo
 kahit na maputol ang mga kamay ko

cut myself baron geisler's - ISA AKONG ISTUPIDONG HINIHINTAY IBIGTI ANG SARILI KONG PANGARAP

sana
mawala
ang lahat
ng nararamdaman

sa maikling
panahon
ang lahat
ay mararamdaman

nakapalibot ang mga bugtong
sa isip kong wasak na wasak
mga taong nagtatanong
kung bakit sariling tagiliran ay sinaksak
punong nagsisilbi bilang huling isla
dagat ang mga salitang binibigkas na tila
dugong dumadaloy na galing sa dila
paa kong mapupunit sa lakas nang hila
ang aking hagdanan ay isang luma na silya
ito na ang katapusan ng storya ng isang bida

sa kanyang
ala ala
ikaw ay
mahalaga
iwan mo
ang aking buhay
kapalit
ang kasiyahan na tunay

kamatayan
kinabukasan
kasiyahan
hinahanap

pako sa aking talampakan
ay mahirap bunutin nang biglaan
na para bang balang nakatanim sa aking bunbunan

lason iinumin
walang pakialam sa nakalagay sa salamin

para kang kawalan
lagi kang nasa isip ko
pag naging tayo
magpapakamatay ako
para hindi mawala ang pagibig ko sayo magpakailan man

maghahanda ako ng pagkain
huling yakap at halik galing saakin
habang tumutugtog ang mga bandang pinapakinggan mo
magbibigti tayo sa ilalim ng punong paborito mo

sa totoo lang kahit na kunin mopa ang puso ko at ibenta mo
sasaya na ko sa ideya na nahawakan mo ito gamit ang kamay mo

magiingat ako na sana hindi malagyan ng dugo ang mga damit mo
habang sinasaksak mo ako gamit ang pagibig na totoo

hindi ko maintindihan ang nangyayari
parang aking liriko
ito ay magulo at maraming anggulo
mamatay na sana ako
mamatay na sana ako

bumagsak ako sa kolehiyo dahil sa depresyon ko

will i still love you in the spring?
cause my heart's got lots to give
or will you let it wilt away?
color my world, then leave it grey

will your picture stop my heart again
so bad i light a cigarette
then i summon my ancestors
who shame me for how down bad i am

will you be aching for my presence
the way you crane your neck for a kiss
from the summer sun to your skin

sorry for all this talk of seasons
i just fear for a future where you wont be familiar with my name

will you still like me in the spring?
does your heart have room to spare?
if/when you thirst for tenderness
know that my spring's for you to rest in
dive in

will you feel so unreal to me
i reach out for your hand
when you hold it back
feels like i'm finally running my fingers thru some grass

and it won't feel like the first time
ever again, but i'm fine with that
just as long as you want me for the next

cause you can bet that i'll still want you
but if my spring of love's a bit too big
for you to swim in

you can tell me, like we practiced
better to quit while we're ahead

but if i still love you in the spring
when my heart's got more to give
please don't let it wilt away
please don't let it wilt away

lovespring - Japanese Surplus

This is the end, to my lover
I'll cut my neck for you
to show you

My blood
My guts
My love for you

This is my promise if I'm gone
visit my body
take it if you want

This is the end
Take my heart
It's yours to keep
Stay until the end

I will give my skull to you
if you need it too

Walktrip - Ilostmysanityanditskindascary (cover)

di na namamansin c idol😱

you were my whole fucking world
for one second
granted, i didn’t let you know
not directly

but you couldn’t read the signs
you had so many chances
i had so many chances
but we never crossed the line
yeah and now i regret it
oh i so regret it

and how can you act like
i’m nobody?
still think about you sometimes
so save me the shame and think about me too

kinda sad, i still search for you in pictures
feels like i'll point u out in crowds for forever

and we're not competing
but if we were
i'd be an olympian
you'd be caught dead slacking off

maybe you could try catching up
but it’s not like u want to
pathetic, i still want you to

c’mon man, spare me a thought
you know that i still exist, right?
love to know if i still cross your mind

you had so many chances
i had so many chances
is it delusion
if you said you loved me too?

you know i still that exist right?
love to know if i’m still on your mind
even though, i'd do nothing
knowing the insanity was mutual would satisfy

and how can you act like
i’m nobody? 
still think about you sometimes

would it be so insane?
no way it was just me
so save me the shame

 and think about me... too

save me the shame - Japanese Surplus

the flowers have wilted
i thought i had more time
but the weather has roughened
and roughened my mind
my promise expired
didn’t know that was something i could do

thought i was tough but
i must have mistaken it for
the resolve i grew with you
and what the fuck did i do?
i let it die
my bark turned into bite and it got you

now it’s too late for a next time
but your hands and your smile i could never unfamiliarize
i want to deserve you

still raining down in my heart, it’s pouring
my love for you
but the season has ended
with no assurance of when

it'll come back, i hope it does
you're not by my side, but in the meantime
i hope it’s alright that my heart
is gonna be yours for a while, a while

i wanted to be your
shelter from the storm
instead i became its eye
and when the sky
was grey, all i did was hide

now i’m aching from your absence
the way you did from mine too
i'll be better to deserve you

it’s still raining down in my heart, it’s pouring
my love for you
but the season has ended
with no assurance of when

it'll come back, i hope it does
you're not by my side, but in the meantime
i hope it’s alright that my heart
is still yours

i'll still dream for you in many more seasons
write you many more songs
til my heart runs out of pages
but i doubt that'll ever happen

cause you’re the kind that someone loves
for a long time, it’s no question
i hope it’s alright that my heart
is gonna be yours for a while, a while

i want to deserve you
will you still want me when i deserve you?
i'll be better to deserve you
please still want me to deserve you

downpour

downpour - Japanese Surplus

o mahal, kay tagal na ako'y bumubulong sa hangin
na wag sayangin ang paghihintay at pagiipon ng aking bibig
na balang araw ay maisisigaw ko ang aking pagmamahal

at mamaos man ay hindi problema
kung ang dulo ng tinig ko 
ay mahahanap ang bisig mo

ikaw na ba ang pinagiipunan ng boses ko?
sana nga, sana nga, sana nga

o mahal, kay tagal
nang lumilibot ang aking mga mata
nang huminto sila sa'yo
natagpuan ang tunay na pahinga at hindi na lumingon pa

kahit ang araw ay pabor sa'yo
gayang-gaya nya ang pagkintab ng iyong pagkatao

sa iyong paningin ba ako maliligaw mula ngayon?
sana nga, sana nga, sana nga

o mahal, kay tagal ng puso ko na iyong tangan
ugat nito'y naka ukit na sa mga linya ng iyong palad
at dito'y nakaangkop

noon pa ay nandiyan lang
naghahanda lamang na kumapit
sa puso na saktong magkakasya

akin na ba, akin na ba ang pusong iyon?
sana nga, sana nga, sana nga

huwag na mag tataka
kung hindi na ako titikom pa

at ikalma na ang iyong kaba
ikaw ang paboritong tanawin ng aking mga mata

at kung may mag tatanong man kung nasaan ang aking puso
ang nais kong laging sabihin ay nasa iyong palad

bagama’t hindi ko napansin
aking katawan may mithiin
noong una pang tingin
layunin ng mata ko’y ika’y kilalanin

ang puso ko, sa palad mo
buong tiwala na aalagaan mo
sana ay wag mong bitawan
o ibalik sa akin
sayong sayo na ang puso ko

(sana nga, sana nga, sana nga)
sayong sayo ang puso ko

~
cover art by @unardent <3
co-written with jo <3

puso, palad (sana nga)

puso, palad (sana nga) - Japanese Surplus

“may multo ka mang dinadala
sa iyong mga bulsa
wala akong pakialam,
ako’y kakalabit sa bawat sulok nila
sasamahan kita sa pagbuhat
ng bigat sa ‘yong balikat

hindi ako takot na mahalin ka”

pang ilang buhay ko na ba ito?
‘di ko na mabilang 
ang mga taong dumaan
at piniling hindi ako tignan

ngunit ika’y sakin lumapit
dahan-dahang hinaplos
ang tela kong kupas
at nagiwan ng bulong: 

“may multo ka mang dinadala
sa iyong mga bulsa
wala akong pakialam,
ako’y kakalabit sa bawat sulok nila 
sasamahan kita sa pagbuhat
ng bigat sa ‘yong balikat

hindi ako takot na mahalin ka”

ilan na ba ang pinatay nito?
(nakaka sindak na pag-ibig)
walang kapalit na presyo
madugo’ng aking pinagdaanan
(sa ilalim ng manggas)
may libo-libong galos

at sa lalim ng gabi
may hiling na may makatabi
na hindi tatakbo, ‘di magtatago
‘di pipikit sa kaluluwa na dala ko

at sa isang iglap ika’y dumating
dala ang iyong kasilakan
iyong panata, “di pakikinggan ang
mga husga mula sa kanino man”

“may multo ka mang dinadala
sa iyong mga bulsa
wala akong pakialam,
ako’y kakalabit sa bawat sulok nila 
sasamahan kita sa pagbuhat
ng bigat sa ‘yong balikat

hindi ako takot na mahalin ka”

~

cover art by @/heavenlyfebruary love u faye my babe
co-written with jo <3

multo sa bulsa - Japanese Surplus

cover me up
i cant be here anymore
its cold out here
come and pick me from the floor
hold me down
get me from the ground
its going through my head
i think this is the end

gusto ko ng
matulog

lemon (one take)

MATOKI