This is a redo.  Originally the song was called "Ugly."  It was supposed to be about an emasculated population of physically unattractive and bizarre men ignored by the fairer sex and belittled by other men.  The song wanted to be about something else.  I tried to force it, and what I got sounded much more like someone who might drive a windowless, white van with nefarious intentions.  

My ex even chimed in.  "Is this how you really feel?  OMG. . . ."  Me: "No, this is a dramatic monologue meaning the speaker is a character. . . ."  So in this redo, I allowed it to be what it wants.  It's about an agoraphobe.

Lyrics:

I don’t get many visitors here
It’s just my voice in these four walls.
I’m just sitting here every day
Rehashing tragedies long gone.

I’m so glad that you came today.
What’s mine is yours just please stay long.
I might seem crazy just have no fear;
I’m as harmless as a knocked down pawn.

Don’t leave me alone!

Chorus:
I just want someone to care who doesn’t have to.
Sitting alone and wasting away because I’m freaky.
Imagine myself with someone beautiful like you touching me.
But then the dream is gone. I feel I should apologize for being me.
I’m so tired of feeling bad because I’m me.

The ones I loved never would choose me.
I don’t know what to say.
Not after sex I just you to hold me.
No regret on your sweet face.

See all these people. They look so happy.
Like children on holidays.
And here I feel I should beg your pardon
For my awkward desperate ways.

Don’t walk away!

Chorus

Bridge:
Sometimes I curse the day my parents came together.
Why would God create a phobic wretch like me?
I’m sure no one would care if you blew my fucking brains out,
except the person has the mess to clean.

Outro Chorus:
I just wanted someone sane to not dismiss me.
Sitting alone and feeling bad because I’m crazy.
I close my eyes and dream you’re smiling back at me, feeding me.
When it’s over I feel gross for trespassing in my dreams.
I don’t want to be ashamed because I’m me.

Freaky

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