End At The Start

Never thought my main
Focus would ultimately sway
I recall a screaming past
Leading to me holding back
I’ve seen it fall to waste
Something so close just ends in days
I relived a lover’s last
For it to end just like that

Heyyyyy
I've been looking for a star to find my heart
But lies fill my mind
Awaiting every second for the doubts to depart
Heyyyyy
And I've been waiting for the one to reach my core
But I'm in my mind
Wishing for a change but I end at the start
Where I see myself I know I won’t be
Handing out clues for you to try to find my heart
Wishing for a change but I end at the start

Explain to me this unresolved
Fate I consume through
Ripped apart and bled in two
It's what I’ve grown into, unarmed
I didn’t have the choice to
Change the cast I was bred into
I’ve seen the teardrops
Before the raindrops
Arguing and leaving, is how I’ve seen it
Remembering the worst outweighing the good

Heyyyyy
I've been looking for a star to find my heart
But lies fill my mind
Awaiting every second for the doubts to depart
Heyyyyy
I've been waiting for the one to reach my core
But I'm in my mind
Wishing for a change but I end at the start
Where I see myself I know I won’t be
Handing out clues for you to try to find my heart
Wishing for a change but I end at the start
Heyyyy
I've been looking for a star to find my heart
I've been waiting for the one to reach my core

End At The Start

Light years

Moving on, in a different place
Hiding but feeling safe
A simple love
A foreign state
Where days aren’t filled to wait
Never signed and sealed a date
To relive that golden haze
But later
I’ll decide, when far away,
To step where signs were laid

The thing is, the time was right
I exceeded my lasting share
The place that gave me life was slowly pulling hair
I tried to resolve the issue, but violence leaves no care
It was best to leave with no fears
It was best to leave than shed tears

I’ve been gone, gone for light years
I’ve been gone, gone for light years
I’ve been gone, gone for light years
I’ve been gone, gone for light years

As the time drives on by
The memories are turning fake
In essence, it doesn’t mean it’s a waste
It’s exactly what I’m away for
A nuisance, a glimpse of something, where it leaves a ray
A place where I left myself to lighten up the grey

I’ve been gone, gone for light years
I’ve been gone, gone for light years
I’ve been gone, gone for light years
I’ve been gone, gone for light years
I’ve been gone, gone for light years
I’ve been gone, gone for light years
I’ve been gone, gone for light years
I’ve been gone, gone for light years

Light years

Sticks & Stones

All my fears are pierced, are pierced

I’m afraid to almost say
I’m throwing all the sticks and stones
The words are taking
Leaving a romantic groan

Be, let it be
Deceived, into grief

What was there to take
From throwing all the sticks and stones
The words are shaken
Leaving a romantic moan

All my fears are pierced, are pierced

I’m afraid to almost say
I’m throwing all the sticks and stones
The words are taking
Leaving a romantic groan

Be, let it be
Deceived, into grief

What was there to take
From throwing all the sticks and stones
The words are shaken
Leaving a romantic moan

I’m throwing, I’m going
Barely into appraised
Where you won’t find it in days
I'm wondering what you have saved

I’m afraid to almost say
I’m throwing all the sticks and stones
The words are taking
Leaving a romantic moan

What was there to take
From throwing all the sticks and stones
To sell the sticks and stones
Is that not how that goes
To relieve from being shown
The words are taking
Words are taking
Words are taking
Can barely let it go
Can barely let It go



Sticks & Stones

I Don’t Know What This Is:

I don’t know what this is
I don’t know what this is
I’m failing almost daily
In straying away to exist
I don’t know what this is
I don’t know what this is
I’m chained, from the blame
But close enough to assist
With this around
It’s hard to narrow it down
What you can’t persist
And I haven’t messed around in so long

I don’t know what this is
I don’t know what this is
I’m failing ever so lately
In straying away to exist
I don’t know what this is
I don’t know what this is
I’m chained, from the blame
But close enough to assist

I don’t want a delay on an answer
When the questions are called
The search is all I have known
There’s nothing but shame that awakes when stored
I’ve got endless thoughts, what’s a real one
It’s intertwined with the space that is warped
In my multiplied private eye
Where it’s too hidden to realise
I wonder if the past has shaped me
It’s something that I wait for in time
It’s a marathon, and it’s draining
I’m blinded by my training

I don’t know what they see in me
Who they are, I don’t know
I paint on the cusp
Where I don’t always try
But I, wonder if it’s inside
But I, really don’t know why
This gift is shown through my eyes
Unclear if the words are in time

There’s something way too powerful in what it does
Hidden in haze, the truth is twisted when discussed

I don’t know what this is
I don’t know what this is
I’m failing almost daily
In straying away to exist
I don’t know what this is
I don’t know what this is
I’m chained, from the blame
But close enough to assist
I don’t know what this is
I don’t know what this is
But i’m failing ever so lately
In straying away to exist
I don’t know what this is
I don’t know what this is
But I’m chained, from the blame
But close enough to assist

I Don't Know What This

Fall for Pieces:

Will I wait for
Will I wait for you
Or follow you

I’m always led to a foreign place
I don’t want the keys
I don’t want the keys
You always stray from cautious ways
I don’t want the keys
I don’t want the keys
Every time my body ceases
It’s like I save myself to fall for pieces
And you’re gonna want to raise a sleek risk
But it’s too far to piece this

I don’t wanna set the sail
For what I know it’ll bring
Clashing hearts, both in sync
I need another way to turn this tale
because it knows itself, the ending stops too sharp
Fulfilled from the feeling how i don't know how to feel, Ohh

I’m always led to a foreign place
I don’t want the keys
I don’t want the keys
You always stray from cautious ways
I don’t want the keys
I don’t want the keys
Every time my body ceases
It’s like I save myself to fall for pieces
And you’re gonna want to raise a sleek risk
But it’s too far to piece this

Resort to waste
I can’t recall
My late display
It rarely leads to
The end in place
Don’t know what it’s made of,
It’s hollow, but the layers find a way
To cast away the sound
It’s all but received

I’m always led to a foreign place
I don’t want the keys
I don’t want the keys
You always stray from cautious ways
I don’t want the keys
I don’t want the keys
Every time my body ceases,
It’s like I save myself to fall for pieces
And you’re gonna want to raise a sleek risk,
But it’s too far to piece this

Now it’s just the same old suffering
The same old suffering
You can count it out till we’re flesh
It’s easy to hide away, but when we meet, it’s torn
Another day we lay to rest
But it’s just the same old suffering

Fall for Pieces

Call Out My Name

Hmm hmm hmm
Hmmmmm
Hmm hmm
Hmm hmmm
Would you call out my name

Whenever I’m alone, I feel close to be
Finding myself to exert the peace
What would I say
What would I say
If everything I questioned came with seeds
Uh, or perceived
Leaving wonders for what she sees
It seems
It’s through me

Why does it feel unjust

So call out my name
And go show me that you want me to my face
It’s lightly explained
Why you never tried to embrace me with your love
To call out my name
Leaves me with the impression you’ll be enough
So call out my name
If you wanna call out my name

So what’s next
If in the flesh
You’re not impressed
With what’s made up
I’m forsaken to know your makeup
With no meanings to go and shake up
I’m easily impressed
For as little as it took
You came then you went and my world shook
No wonder it lasts
I open for a change no one knows

So call out my name
And go show me that you want me to my face
It’s lightly explained
Why'd you never tried to embrace me with your love
To call out my name
It moves away from the feeling of being unloved
So call out my name
If you wanna call out my name

Hmmmmm
Hmmmmm
Hmm Hmm Hmm
Don’t wanna fall at faults
And hear her call my name
Hear the calls
Hear her call
Hmm Hmm Hmm Hmm
Why does it feel unjust

So call out my name
And go show me that you want me to my face
It’s lightly explained
Why you never tried to embrace me with your love
To call out my name
Leaves me with the impression you’ll be enough
So call out my name
If you wanna call out my name

My name
If you call out my name
Then call out my name



Call Out My Name

Divided

The only one for me;

Fear comes
And creeps on.
It’s a lonely cost
To only wait to meet.
A brave soul
Hangs on to reap.
The lonely one
Pays the cost to meet.

I haven’t fallen off this ship,
But the other riders are safe,
While I’m hanging on for my place.
It’s been way too long.
Chapters end but they start so quick,
Learning hidden details again.
Moving on like nothing sustained.
They never wait too long.

Please inform me why
I’ve only been shunned when I want to adore.
Hm.
I’ll never see.
Breath.
The everlasting needs
For more life.
The further it seems,
The less I wanna know if it will really come.
For when it feels out of sight,
I’m divided to let go of the life.

It’s hard to tell, but the feelings felt
With living on,
In fear of
The unknown.
I prevail to find the healing I know.
It’s the truth.
But I trust the fall
To find you on the way of it all.
You’ll be the only one,
The only one for me.
I prevail to find the healing I know.
It’s the truth.
But I trust the fall
To find you on the way of it all.
But I trust the fall
To find you on the way of it all.
Then you’ll be the only one,
The only one for me.



Divided

Down The Road

When it’s time to go, I’m leaving.
It doesn’t pay enough
To never leave hope down the road.
It’s filling up my soul
To whoever’s not close
That I’m leaving.
A sudden change to control,
It’s a gradual set slope down the road.
It’s piecing up,
Learning how to let go.

On either side,
It feels like they never age.
The air is so cold
After taking away the flame.
And that’s all for tomorrow
Coming my way.

When it’s time to go, I’m leaving.
It doesn’t pay enough
To never leave hope down the road.
I’m tired of burying my soul
With letting my head drown,
So I’m leaving.
It’s the change I need for control,
It’s a gradual set slope in the road.
It’s piecing up,
Learning how to let go.

Down the road,
It’s piecing up.
It doesn’t pay enough
To never leave hope.

Down The Road

Fog

There’s something in my mind
Which lets fog entrap my hopes.
Hmm

What’s been left to choose
When all I’ve given is used
And riddled with the past,
Too tight to release its mask?
I feel like I try to run,
Away so I can lose truths
But something’s coming fast,
Following its task.

I’m haunted by this fog,
That’s strong with its taste.
And I know
The feeling that it leaves can’t cut to shape.
I’m haunted by this fog.
This fog is clearly in my way
Where it shows
The way I disengage.
Maybe I am just a dreamer
Who really breathes to ease,
To fall along with dreams,
To keep me on my way.
So I never ask or take,
And store within a safe.
Maybe I am just a dreamer
Who really bleeds to ease,
To follow along with dreams,
To keep me in a place
Where I’m held to keep me sane.

I’ve finally found a cue
That keeps me on the move.
But there’s someone unrefined
That leans into the blind.
I always doubt myself
To keep me low.
I try to fight with stealth
But it just ends up seeing my print,
Altering me quick,
To question a reason exists.
It’s either the whole world’s against me, or
I’m feeling guided to create for more.
It’s never in between,
Or showing a way to be seen.

I’m haunted by this fog,
That’s strong with its taste.
And I know
The feeling that it leaves can’t cut to shape.
I’m haunted by this fog.
This fog is clearly in my way
Where it shows
The way I disengage.
Maybe I am just a dreamer
Who really breathes to ease,
To fall along with dreams,
To keep me on my way.
So I never ask or take,
And store within a safe.
Maybe I am just a dreamer
Who really bleeds to ease,
To follow along with dreams,
To keep me in a place
Where I’m held to keep me sane.



Builds Mistakes:

I liked the way I felt with risk
To do it by myself would I leave again?
Maybe I jumped to play, or stayed to crisp
A guide off a shelf did I read with intent?

Huh huh

I came off unscathed
But it lingers did I leave for me?
I tried to replace
But it feels like it's saved with the lies
Nothing’s in my way
It's more myself that lets it feast for free
It clings on to prey
Then a voice came to say
"You left with heart for safety,
Trying to run away
But with too much time to face,
Was alone just hard to take?
You decided to cave
And jump for no one's sake.
It was easier before you paved
A trail that builds mistakes."

Vision is blurred this fog is strong to keep belief
It parades along, feats are indeed cast
It withstood, hardened beats to me
I’ll be ashamed once it stops
Cause how hard the range can cause
Leaving delusional treats
With how the past is morphed.
Being alone is hard to see
It plays on your pain
It likes to wait on and enlighten what remains
Taking a great response to what lingered before you came.

I came off unscathed
But it lingers did I leave for me?
I tried to replace
But it feels like it's saved with the lies
Nothing’s in my way
It's more myself that lets it feast for free
It clings on to prey
And a voice came to say
"You left with heart for safety,
Trying to run away
But with too much time to face,
Was alone just hard to take?
You decided to cave
And jump for no one's sake.
It was easier before you paved
A trail that builds mistakes."

Builds mistakes.
A trail that builds mistakes.

Builds Mistakes

El Dorado

Gates are only built to be closed,
But they’re always left open again.
Towers subdue the light enclosed,
To reward residents for rent.

And it’s cruel to meet the end
With half the time you repeat.
If you try to search for sense,
You fall to reality.

El Dorado
El Dorado
It came and went with machines.
A domino effect, I know,
It slithers to merge in routine.
The guards for grace fade away,
Leading the world to misplace.
El Dorado
El Dorado
It came and went with belief.

Gifts are given to the special names,
And shun the unknowns to receive the blame.
And they think it’s a compromise
When actions are improvised.
But they failed to see the flame,
And it feels like they keep smiling
Even when the world reaps the shame.

Then the fools invite new claims,
To distract the cracks that’ve worsened.
A new year to begin with change
Then it ends with retreat.

El Dorado
El Dorado
It came and went with machines.
A domino effect, I know,
It slithers to merge in routine.
The guards for grace fade away,
Leading the world to misplace.
El Dorado
El Dorado
It came and went with belief.

And it’s cruel to meet the end
With half the time you repeat.
If you try to search for sense,
You fall to reality.

El Dorado
El Dorado
It came and went with machines.
A domino effect, I know,
It slithers to merge in routine.
The guards for grace fade away,
Leading the world to misplace.
El Dorado
El Dorado
It came and went with belief.



End At The Start

Mattias

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