I am not that.
I am not that.
I cannot hear it.
I cannot feel it.
Everytime this happens I cannot feel anything.
Yet, at the same time... I feel everything.
I have broken all of the bones.
You do not have to take anything away, I have given it all.
I have fallen, I have feared, I have loved, I have seen.
I have seen way too much, fuck, I have seen way too much.
I have seen you, in all of your glory, all of your power you hold on me. 
Fuck, I am in the palm of your hand. 
The feeling when you squeeze your fist tighter gives me a sense of euphoria.
What is life without this feeling of pure joy and bliss.
This feeling, it is everything.
Yet once again, this feeling is nothing at all.
I start over, counting the mistakes I have made in my head.
One.
Twenty three.
forty eight.
eighteen.
These numbers rise, and some other numbers fall. 
I see it happening every single day, yet I feel bigger in every way.
Everyone is worried. 
But frankly, I would rather die than let this all stop. 
Tell me, who am I, what have I done?
I am not that.
I am not that.
I am not that.
I am not that.
I am not that.
I am not that.
I am not that.

i am not that

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