beat prod. jay808 

lyrics:
this thing were doing 
is so confusing 
at first it was just two people who wanted something
im into you
are you into me 
this turned into you being someone i go to when im feeling 

shit and now i dont even know
this is so confusing for me im so
tired of it baby you gotta go
i aint giving you my shit anymore

considering weve established the fact that
i wont open up myself to you scratch that 
i know thats just not fair for you in fact
im down to just tryna fuck baby hit that


you just made me lose my head
decapitaded from my neck
狂わせても愛し続けるずっと

互いの気持ちが
合わずに終わっちゃった
couldnt even think straight cause baby you are so confusing 


so complicated
youre indecisive 
make up your mind, stop wasting time, are you still in this
i know that you
are not into me
keep playin with my head boy im just so damn needy

gave me chills I cant forget every kiss 
stupid feelings, i always seem to miss
broken heart in you that ill never fix
doesnt mean you can forget all we did

maybe its just not time for you stop that
said you want me but youve really gone mad
come on over for closure boy smash that
give me credit where its due or just fuck that 
  
you just made me lose my head
decapitaded from my neck
狂わせても愛し続けるずっと

互いの気持ちが
合わずに終わっちゃった
couldnt even think straight cause baby youre still so confusing

so confusing (prod. jay808)

prod. by @yogicbeats


lyrics:

do you remember 
locking up your inner monologue to keep your ass out
a silent mind and peaceful soul 
no doubts to keep me up at night don’t stress out

im not used to the hiding away 
when things get tough 
and i end up wasting my days
you get over every wall so easy, 
aint that nice

you and me, 
were in different circumstances
you and me, 
will never heal the same

got a long way till i feel my growth
“one and the same”’ has never been so wrong

have you had thoughts of pain, 
you almost had yourself convinced that you deserved it
self isolating just to have 
those special people leave you feeling broken

youll never know that kind of despair 
when theres no reason 
to be spending time breathing air
leaving me behind all these years, so tired, 
cant keep up

you and me, 
were in different circumstances
you and me, 
will never heal the same

got a long way till i feel my growth
“one and the same”’ has never been so wrong

we are not one and the same

not the same (prod. yogic)

prod. by @yogicbeats


lyrics:

got me thinkin bout you day by day
sharing dreams with you in bed
hard to focus on what lies ahead
find myself in constant hell

obstacles we wish werent there
only wishing it came months before
maybe then we could do everything
but its too late, for a change

every now and then i wonder if we couldve been something worth all the trouble we put up with

if i had been better at telling you what i was feeling way back 

when, 
then

got me thinkin bout you day by day
every passing moment made
taking steps towards whatll bring me peace
finding ways to let you be

know itll never fade with ease
a part of you will always hang on me
moving on was never meant to please
and its too late, for a change

missing when youd take a little sip 
of your favorite beer

reminiscing bout those times 
spent together you and i
need a break from thoughts of you, 
im still wishing i had you

got me thinkin bout you day by day
but youre pushing me away
hypothetically we love in stages
currently in our safe haven

complicated particles
no one else would know we still touch souls
act like i dont need you anymore
now its too late, for a change

no more second chances
but you keep me wrapped around your finger

day by day (prod. yogic)

prod. by @yogicbeats


lyrics:

aint nothin to worry about (must be nice)
Take care of your mom and your spouse (youre working hard)
to live a life in paradise (like you had once before)
the same thing day to day and now youre just tired of waking up

now youre growing jealous of the jellyfish youve seen on the TV
infinitely float away into the darkness lookin all pretty
not the same societal standards so no insecurities
said goodbye to your twenties taking care of someone elses baby

flow through your screen
a pixel dream
fantasizing bout a life alone and free

is there not a time machine (take me back)
too late now I cant undo things (a few regrets)
i wish feeling this wasnt greed (remembering seventeen)
to go back in time and tell myself to take it slow growing up

everybody round you seems to have their shit together easily
feel like youre the only one who struggles working 9 to 5 daily
got a daughter and a partner who needs you to cook and clean
living life for someone else, only emptiness within you lately

flow through your screen
a pixel dream
fantasizing bout a life alone and free

emotions just piling up (feeling everything)
i dont think im ever enough (no more time for myself)
financially under a lot (societies getting rough)
dont tell me that this is the way were supposed to be living life

flow through your screen 
a pixel dream
fantasizing bout a life alone and free

jellyfish (prod. yogic)

Special Occasion

Original: https://vm.tiktok.com/ZT83SbqPM/

Lyrics: 
Lonely nights, wishing I had you right next to me

But you’ve made your way into 
Somebody else’s heart 
Feeling of warmth in my 
Souls now it’s left on ice

Only time left to make my life fly by with ease

Building my walls again
Twice as strong from within
Won’t even let you in
Scars you left unattended

HMU - Fiona Kida (ft. Erykah & Fujiwara)

Lyrics:
you can take my body as you like
i know im dysfunctional and oh i know how it excites you so
control me how you like
coz nothings easier than tell a girl who loves you so that it's

okay, i'll stay, you dont have to walk away
youre safe, im never gonna hurt you
hey babe
youre lovely youre precious youre a star

i never wanted to be
the kind of girl that would give just
whatever that you ask for
show you everything you ask for
never wanted to be
succumb
to this inhumane game you play
you cut me to the core and i
ask why i give you the sword

you can mess with my head as you do
keep sending myself voicemails that i might be the problem,
coz you. it cant be you.
coz nothings easier than tell a girl you wanna fuck that its

okay, please stay, you can't just walk away
youre safe, im never gonna hurt you
hey babe
we'll be together, just wait

FCFCG

you give me a kiss goodnight
but i want more
when your sister asked about me
you just smiled

i never wanted to be
the kind of girl that would be
just a trial to see
if you're ready for something serious

i never wanted to be
the kind of girl that would give just
whatever that you ask for
show you everything you ask for
never wanted to be
succumb
to this inhumane game you play
you cut me to the core and i
ask why i give you the sword

The sword

Lyrics:
Ii said hey
ure the architect of the mysteries in my brain
and the lunar eclipse in my lying state
and the quiet touches of sapphire in my face
im losing grace

babe
in candlelit rooms you destroyed my faith
and echoes of my soul craving a change
for my poor unfortunate lonely dying frame
a losing game

i cant comprehend
how low i went
i cant understand

coz now im fully grown
now i know my own
now i see every part of me
and i love my heart
now i leave a spark everywhere that's dark
now i see myself as whole
now i know

okay
the main thing i needed was a great escape
from the ludicrous laughters or the praise
or a higher climb dawning on my face
it's all the same

Now i know

A mixed handful of energetic tracks and chilled, laid back instrumentals, "Hot Beats & Sugary Sweets" is the first Beat Mixtape from Nottingham producer Mattrxnxme (pronounced "Mattronome").

You & I

Higher-Single                 

Higher

Producer/songwriter/multi-instrumentalist from Nottingham UK